Be aground

Birthday

College holidays have arrived and at this time I just want to calm the mind that even makes me tormented alone. I set my feet with a heart full of burdens, whether I go home or not. Because I don't know if when I go, they'll be together or not.

But I'm sure they'll meet and it's been clear when everything happened until now. Because I knew Dika would find a place where he could be with someone who made Dika happy and obviously when I returned to the village, they would definitely be free to meet. Because when I was here, they did this to me. Moreover, I went home and could not see what Dika was doing at that time.

I who do not know how to, finally returned to the village and let it all pass. I cry when I leave, not because I don't want to go, just that I'm sad because usually I was escorted by Dika when I wanted to go home. But now, Dika won't even come again or tell me. I set out alone with a heart that hoped Dika would come to me, but in fact, I who waited did not see his presence. And that's the thing that hurts me so much, but what I can do. I set my foot hoping everything would be okay.

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When I arrived at the village, I did not even get any news from Dika at all. Like lost in the swallow of the earth, that's the figure of Dika in my life. After the events we experienced, I always asked for news from him, I was always trying to find his presence. While Dika did not care about my feelings, even Dika easily stepped her foot back to the place of the woman, was it not too much ?. But what can I do ?

I tried to get rid of the thoughts that were coming to them both, because in fact it was all over and I would stay away from Dika's life. Well at first I thought so, but the more I stepped away, the more I expected Dika to be present in my life again. And plus, soon Dika's birthday, and obviously when Dika's birthday then they can be together and obviously it happens right then and there.

Dika's birthday has arrived, I try to wait exactly twelve o'clock at night, because I want to wish her a happy birthday. I who was already impatient, finally stringing up the words before the clock showed twelve exactly. Long words and hope Dika will understand the message I convey.

*upvotes*

everything you give me hurts but I hope you understand everything we do

After several times I changed my heart, finally all those words I will finally convey. And at exactly twelve in the evening, I was hoping Dika would read my message. I sent that night too, even I recorded my voice to sing happy birthday. And it all turned out to be futile, Dika deliberately turned off his phone. I saw it immediately dialed the number and it was clear that it was not active at the time.

I just thought maybe Dika did not want to be disturbed by the noise of the phone. But at least I've said everything I want to say. Until the next morning, I woke up who was already in the middle of ten, finally opened my phone. And how surprised I was, when I saw Dika make a birthday status that was celebrated and where Dika celebrated it was at the woman's boarding house.

I didn't expect Dika to do this to me, well our relationship was already broken, but couldn't she appreciate my feelings. I waited until midnight to congratulate her, and sang her a song until morning no thanks or anything. Everything I had experienced with Dika, it was replaced by another female figure who understood Dika even more than me.

Be ill….

Even this pain I can't tell you, everything they do. Why are they doing this to me ?. What was my fault that they treated me ?. I, who knew it would be like this, still expected that this was a charade.