Be aground

Wait around

"Later, upon meeting nyokap. I said yes, if I'm serious, Lo." Arjun's voice jerked me from the daydream.

"Uhm ... Should it be postponed first, Jun?" I said carefully, so that Arjun does not misunderstand.

"Why? You're not sure?" as I thought, Arjun doubted my feelings.

"Not sure, the timing is not quite right, anyway."

I'm looking for an excuse that Arjun doesn't think I don't want to be taken seriously. Which woman is not happy if her partner is serious about the relationship. It's just, I feel it's too early if Arjun makes his point to mom in the near future.

"Yes-yes ...." Arjun did not continue his sentence. He refocused on driving. Like he was lost in his mind.

While I, too, dissolved back to thinking about mother. The closer to Jakarta, the more the shadow of the mother's face fills the mind.

Like there was telepathy, my phone rang. Mom's photo adorns my phone screen.

"Hello, Mother?"

"Run, is today going to Jakarta? Up what? Vienna said to come home late. Would you better come here tomorrow morning? So there's no need to wait for Vienna to pick up?" flocked mother.

"Eh, I'm already on Ma'am's road. It's already on the toll ...."

"Ouch! Late, Mother, tell me. Would you please help Beni pick you up again?" ask mom to doubt.

Without a cue, my heartbeat suddenly beat beyond normal speed. Why is it that only the name is called, my heart reacts like this?

"Eh ... No need, Mom. I'm with Arjun. He made nawarin, he said he misses Mom too." I glanced at Arjun who seemed to be listening to my conversation with mother.

"Ooh .. thank goodness. I'm afraid you're late for the pick-up." Mother's voice sounded relieved.

"Here, I don't have to worry. If the road is smooth, magrib run out I have arrived," I said to dismiss mother's concerns.

"Yes. Say hello to Arjun. I'm afraid to bother him again if you talk now." Mom closed the conversation.

Just after mom's call was over, my phone rang again. Brother Beni's name is listed there, although without a photo, but his name is clearly stated on the screen. I'm sure Arjun can see it.

"Why not get caught?" His voice surprised me who was still staring at the phone screen. His voice sounded a little suspicious.

"Yes, this is just about to be lifted ...." I pressed the call receipt sign on the phone screen. "Hello, Brother?" sahutku.

"Run, said your Viennese to Jakarta today? Want me to pick it up? Vienna today is on the afternoon shift." Beni's voice sounded full of excitement.

"No need, brother. I'm the same guy I am," I refused by affirming the voice on the last word.

"Oh! I can't see you today, can I?" Beni's voice sounded teasing to me.

"Ha-ha, it's late at night and it might reach Vienna's house, brother," I said trying to relax. I glanced again at Arjun. He also seems to be stealing my talk. The silent car cabin made the conversation of the other person on my phone sound quite clear.

"How long in Jakarta?" Beni asked back.

"Maybe two days, brother. Monday I have more business on campus."

Arjun's jaw looks hard. I'm sure he's guessing the caller.

"Can meet up, right?"

"Uhm, it doesn't seem like it can, brother. I want to spend some time with Mom this weekend" I refused.

"No, I really want to be with my mom this weekend, so I don't want to be disturbed" I said.

"Oh, fine. Then I'll see you sometime, yeah. Greetings to your boy," kekeh Beni.

"That's what you told me yesterday?" shoot Arjun when I've closed the phone.

"Yes...." I did not continue my sentence. Scrutinizing Arjun's displeased-looking face. "Lo jealous?" ask me to try to dispel the discomfort that suddenly appears.

"If, for example, I'm in Lo's position. How about?" He asked back, the way he turned the question made my position seem cornered.

"Err ... sorry .. but I also can't prevent him from liking me, right Jun?" I said looking for a defense sentence.

"Yes. It's not Lo's fault either, but I saw Lo's gigat when I received a call from the guy that made me feel jealous." A confession slid from his lips.

Guilt runs through my heart. Anyway, I had time to insert a sense of admiration for Beni's sister. Comparing her more mature figure to Arjun who is too dependent on me. But my selfishness also prevents me from admitting it. I don't want to lose Arjun either.

"Then, how should I behave? He knew I had a girlfriend." I'm looking for a way to ease Arjun's jealousy.

"The average guy will not easily let go of his reflection. If he thinks the girl nearby gives the green light, it will be kept on pat." Arjun grunts. His eyes were still staring at the streets.

"Keep .. according to Lo, I give you the green light. That so?" I asked fiercely, somewhat annoyed precisely when I heard the sentence that Arjun had said.

Arjun let out a rough breath. Not answering my question. This time I saw him that well. The Arjun I've known all along is more often nervous.

"Gue's sorry," I said trying to cool the atmosphere that was starting to feel hot.

"No need to apologize, it's not Lo's fault either. I feel my position is threatened, that's all," he murmured slowly.

I'm not replying to Arjun. Start thinking, whether this is what causes the relationship with the friend is often not going well. When one of them has an excessive feeling of belonging. No one else comes near.

"Jun, this is actually what I've been afraid of all this time." The words finally came out of my lips.

"Why? Afraid of feeling?" the search glanced at me.

"No. Unreasonable jealousy," I threw my face to the side.

My feelings are suddenly confused. I felt like an open book, Arjun easily read what was inside.

"What reason? If indeed Lo does not have to keep a little taste of the same guy, it is not possible Lo become emotional every time we talk about this, right?" On target. Again I feel cornered. "Partially not typical Lo who still want to serve people who clearly like the same Lo. Usually also Lo jutekin."

I admit, Arjun is once again right. I usually prefer to stay away from guys who seem to like me. Because all this time I don't want to give false hope if I'm still being nice to them. Then, when Beni's brother was present, I didn't do that. I still let him get closer.

"Obviously, I'm not just going to give up. Maybe at this time the feeling of Lo again upset, but I believe I still occupy the highest position in Lo's heart," he said steadily.

I don't want to laugh at his words.

"That's great, Juni. I got goosebumps, "my sniffles rubbed his nape, staring at him.

"Ha-ha, don't think I'm a psychopath, yeah!" Laughter broken.

Finally the tense atmosphere that had been created just melted away. All this time it was like every time we fought. That's what has made us feel more comfortable with each other over the past nine years.

I thought, is it possible that Beni was brought by God just to test my loyalty? Or is God's way of awakening me that Arjun's feelings for me are so strong? I don't know. What is clear is that at this time the inner debate that was later created due to the presence of Brother Beni, began to subside. Beni's sister was just a momentary temptation. Arjun has always been there for me, what else am I looking for.