Be aground

Real kiss

This morning Runa refused to go to college. He reasoned, his KKN group was scheduled to leave early. I can't force it this time. The determination is already unanimous to start living their own path, so that the existing taste is not getting bigger.

The sun had appeared perfectly when I got to the campus. Students who will leave for the KKN location have gathered with their respective groups. There are several groups that rent buses to take them to KKN locations. While my group chose to use private vehicles because the location where my KKN can still be reached by four-wheeled vehicles.

My eyes were pounded on the window of the bus that was parked not far from the campus gate. The sunlight that fell right on the side glass of the bus made the face of the girl sitting behind the glass clearly visible, so beautiful. It is in line with the bright morning atmosphere today. Aruna, the sun girl was unaware of my presence.

I mapped every line of his face that was visible behind that glass. His gaze glared at the sky, looking so sad. I want to say I greeted him there. But the memory of our deal the other day dampened my pace. We agreed not to meet each other from the time of KKN until graduation time arrived. It will be hard, but I have to try.

"Jun, your car is empty, right?" I was shocked when someone's hand slapped my shoulder. Leona, the owner of the hand smiled when he saw me turn to face him.

"Yes, still. Why?"

"I'm with you, yeah. The other car is full. Keep it some logistics while on site still not entered all. It can be put in your car, right?"

"Yes, can. Who else is coming with?" I was a little worried.

The last time a member of my group came together, I almost had my hobby relapse. The laughter of the female student gossiping in the back bench blew away my cosentrasi. I used to drive in a quiet condition, even if there are friends who come together in my car, they usually already know my condition is not comfortable with noisy conditions.

"It's just me, the others have all been in Boby's car" Leona said.

"Oh, fine. Then where are the items to be brought?"

"Near the hall."

"Yes, we're loading it now."

Before I followed Leona, I turned back to the bus carrying Runa. The bus had moved away from the campus grounds, leaving a thin gray smoke hanging in the still-cold air. Carrying away the girl who had embraced my heart with her warmth, moved away.

After all the logistical needs have been loaded into the car, the group leader complains, we also leave the campus.

"Jun, the rumors are you broke up with Runa?" leona's question suddenly shocked me.

"Huh? Said who? I think artists become gossip material." I'm trying to deny.

I still can't admit our relationship is over. Even if it is over, I still want to continue to consider our relationship to be okay.

The trip this time was so quiet, even though Leona still kept talking to me, but I could barely catch the contents of Leona's conversation. My mind was still filled with the shadow of Runa's face behind the bus window. So bright was the morning sunlight.

"Jun, are you still in therapy?" leona's question nudged me.

"Do you know I'm therapy?" my search.

"When I was in High School, I used to go to therapy with Runa." The girl's round eyes were staring at me. As if forcing me to remember a moment I had forgotten.

"Oh, huh? I don't remember at all" I said in a regretful tone. I never remembered Leona being in the process of undergoing my therapy. The only person in my memory other than my family, is only Runa.

"Yes will not remember, which is in your mind, is only Runa."

"sorry. Not that I meant to forget, it's just that you were only a year with me with Runa, right?" my regrets.

"Yes, anyway." This time, his voice sounded normal. "So far, my question has not been answered, yet" he added.

"Which one?"

"You're still in therapy?"

"Oh, now it's not shaky first. I've started to control my phobias." There was a sense of bitter suddenly infiltrated into the gap of my heart. Considering the woman who is quite meritorious helps overcome my hobby.

"Keep, what is your relationship with Runa? Really broke up?" back to his probing voice.

"Can't you answer? I'm still not comfortable talking about it," I refused to be careful so that Leona didn't get me wrong.

"Uhm. Actually if you and Runa are not dating, I want to replace him," he said smiling awkwardly.

As if not believing what I just heard, I glanced at him. His clear round eyes were still staring fixedly, there was a red hue bias that was springing up on his cheeks.

"Wow!" Only that could come out of my mouth in response to his bold statement. Even the cuckoo Runa, never had the courage to express her feelings.

"I've liked it for a long time. It's just that before I could say, I'd moved town." He stopped, looking at me as if he was seeing my reaction.

I flinch, trying to stay focused on the streets.

"Then, when I met you a few months ago, it made me feel like I had another chance. Unfortunately said Riko you have become the same Runa," he continued.

I frowned hearing the girl's confession. This time his gaze had turned to the streets. Quieted for a long time, then turned back to me.

"Sorry, Jun, if this conversation makes you uncomfortable. I just want to express what I think right now. I hope you don't get angry." this time he clenched his hands together in front of his face, like a gesture of worship.

"Ha-ha, just relax. Just ... At the moment we are victorious, yes. For now I still can't make a new relationship."

I try to choose words that do not offend him. I'm sure it takes a lot of courage to admit such feelings. It took me as a man years of courage to confess my feelings to Runa.

"That's right you and Runa are already broken, huh?" his insistence.

"Uhm .. how, yes. There's no breaking up either of us, ha-ha." I tried to melt the atmosphere with my bitter-sounding laughter.

"But ... You're not going to go as far as me, are you?" ask her in a soft voice.

"No, we're still friends. Because besides Runa, you already know my condition. At the very least, you wouldn't consider me a weird guy if you'd rather be alone." I smiled weakly.

"Ah, thank goodness. I was afraid I would be shunned." Scroll from the end of his eyes, he looked down, playing his fingers, like Runa's habit if he was thinking about something.

If only this heart was able to exchange the figure of Runa with other women, maybe it would not be this difficult. Merely, the presence of Runa has been deeply rooted in my heart. If Leona was indeed presented by God to replace Runa, it should not be complicated. Because I know, God will easily turn hearts. It's just, right now a speck of shakes I don't think about Leona. I don't know, I don't understand.