Love In Silence

Edwin Pulang Kampung

After meeting with Andi. Edwin went to a deserted place. He spilled his pain there.

"Why should it be like this." Shouted Edwin.

"Why??!"

"Why should I?"

"I love and love him very much. But why are the people I love also loved by my best friend. A friend who sacrificed a lot for me. A friend who is always there for me and a friend who always helps me when I am difficult. Why it has to be like this. Why he and I should love the same woman. Wh why?

"Of the many women in this world, why should Alexa. Why?" Shouts Edwin frustrated

"I love Alexa and Andi says Alexa loves me too. But why, why should our love be like this. I want to fight for my love but I can't, I can't hurt my best friend. I can't see him sad because the people he loves are in a relationship with me. I can't do it...

Oh, my God, my God.... Why is it like this?

Why did You bring your servant to him if in the end we could not unite. Why Oh Lord..

O Allah, O Rabbi ..

Why do You cultivate love in our hearts if in the end, we cannot have each other.. Whyyy???

O God, O Divine...

I love him, he loves me too. Can You unite us without a hurt heart? Can it?

Why, why should my best friend and I love the same person? Why Oh God??

What plan are you giving us?

Are you sure there will be wisdom behind all this? Butwhat? Am I going to find a woman who is much better than Alexa? Or is Alexa not my soul mate?

If he's not my soul mate, why should I meet him and love him?

Why should my first love make me feel this kind of pain? Wh why?

I don't deserve to be happy. Poor people like me have no right to be with the people I love. It is my way of life that always lives in suffering.

I'm tired of living in poverty and now, I, I have improved my life so that I can be happy and I can also improve the lives of both my parents and my extended family by helping their economy but not long ago I felt that happiness, I came back with more pain than I had before. The pain of losing someone I love.

If I were told to choose, I would rather live in a lack of origin to be able to live with the people I love than live a life of contentment but part with people who are very meaningful in my life.

I would rather God test me with treasure than love. Because losing the one I love hurts more than when I live in deprivation.

Edwin just kept yelling and talking to himself. Edwin felt that God was unfair to him. Edwin was very sad and also desperate. But Edwin tried hard to live this all.

Edwin got up from his seat and left, he would soon return home and find a job there. Edwin will try to forget Alexa even though it is very difficult for him.

Edwin wiped his tears, he did not want others to know his weakness. He did not want to show his sadness in front of others. Enough of him and God knows how he is feeling.