Love In Silence

Critical Balqis

After the dawn prayer I intend to go back to sleep because here at this hour there are still many people who sleep. But the noise from outside made me wonder who was making a scene early in the morning.

"Father!" I can't believe I just called Raka yesterday afternoon, and mom said there's no way you're here. But look at that papa was sleeping on the sofa, looking very exhausted to the point of not being aware of the commotion that occurred.

"Did I say he was jealous, you didn't believe." Grandma's words make mama just look at papa. It seems like my mother is also still in shock with papa's madness, who came straight here after from Surabaya.

"I didn't expect Uncle Alexander to be so handsome. If Uncle was like this, what would Satria and Caraka's faces look like now?" Said Violin in a nod to Celine.

("I didn't expect Uncle Alexander to be so handsome. If Uncle was like this, what would Satria and Caraka look like now?)

"My two grandchildren are married." (Both of my grandchildren are married.)

"That's the problem, man?" Celine's words made Grandma growl to hear it.

I can only shake hearing it.

"You don't listen to them, grandma's sure both grandkids won't be tempted by butterflies like them."

"I know it's grandma."

"Jonny takes your children home, their presence only disturbs Rudy's sleep!" Grandma's words were greeted with laughter om Jony.

"OK, if you need anything, call us."Said Jony while holding Violin and Celine.

"Because there is already a Papa who accompanies me, I think it's better I immediately return to Indonesia."

"You sure?"

"Yakin ma," I said to my mother.

"Well, Jony's gonna find you a ticket."

I have been here for 4 days, there is a lot of excitement that I experienced. Even so I also want to go home soon I miss mama, papa also Arvin and maybe I also started kangen Raka.

Even though I was going home and already got a ticket, I did not tell Raka my return. I don't know why I wanted to give her a little surprise. Although I arrived in Indonesia by morning , I did not tell anyone. I chose to go home in a taxi. I went into the apartment that looked dark and quiet. After cleaning my body I plan to lay my body beside Raka. But the pungent smell of alcohol from Raka's body makes me nauseous.

I stepped out deciding to sleep on the front sofa. Since when does Raka drink alcohol? But considering Arvin who used to also drink alcohol, what might be the circle of their friendship. A thousand questions haunted my mind until I fell asleep.

"Darling you've come home? Why didn't you say you were coming home? Who picked you up at the airport ? From the airport to here what's up?" Raka said after waking me up with a question that I myself was confused to answer.

"What time is it now?" I asked still with my eyes closed, but my body was already in a sitting position.

"7 Why ?"

"Astaghfirullah I overslept yet to pray at dawn." My words coincided with the bell that rang.

"You sit down and I open the door."

"Good morning Raka! I'm just here to deliver breakfast and honey water to get rid of the drunkenness of Raka !"

"No need to bother me."

"Don't bother ko, I'm going in to put this."

"Go in, there's the kitchen!" I said, when I saw that woman stopped seeing me.

"You must be his sister huh, introduce me Stevani my apartment is located in front of exactly. We got acquainted at the discos 3 days ago, sorry yes I went in to put this on the dinner table !"

I immediately went into the room, took my jacket, car keys and wallet.

"Put it down thanks, you better get home soon."

"It's okay we can have breakfast together, I'll get rice for your sister too. Instead of my own breakfast, I'd rather have a friend here. Honestly though I only 3 times in your apartment, but I'm comfortable."

Comfortabley?

"Stevi I go first there's a sudden business, my sister's nitip!" I said while wearing my shoes and left immediately after finishing, without looking at them.

Remember Kia this is not the first time it happened so too, there was Leora, there was Nadila and now Stevie . Many times I have suggested to myself not to be hurt. This is always how every time I want to put my trust in Raka is always destroyed, with the arrival of people. What is the attraction that Raka has, until the women bend their knees to him.

Not to my mother's house I went home but to Raka's mother's house.

"Eh Mbak Kia has come home, mother where Mba ?"

"Mom again dating papa, just pray they can be together again." My words were greeted by the laughter of the mbok .

"I'm here to give souvenirs for mbok and mbak in the boutique." I said while offering 3 parcels.

"Thank you, Kia."

"Yes mbok I'm sleepy new until , can you sleep no?"

"O please mbak, just sleep in Raka's mas room !

"Thank you, ma'am" I said as I walked towards Raka's room.

Because I was still sleepy and tired I immediately slept soundly. When adzan dhuhur I just woke up .

"Let's have lunch with the others !" Said the mbok when he saw me who just came out of the room.

"Yes mbok."

We had lunch three with small talk. My phone I accidentally turned off, if I turn it on then easily Raka will trace it to my current homepage.

If I stay here for sure the mbok and 2 boutique employees will be suspicious, so after lunch I decided to leave with the car I stayed at Raka's house.

"I'm a nyopir males so the car I put here huh mbok?"

"Do you want to be escorted by an online taxi driver subscribed by mom? His house is next to the house !"

"No need to mbok, I miss taking the city transport. Assalamualaikum!" After saying goodbye, I walked out onto the highway.

At this hour the house is empty of servants at home if the work is done. Mama, papa and Arvin still haven't come home, did I just go home. I can sleep as much as possible. I don't know why I come back from kangaroo country I like to sleep.

My guess is that when I came home lonely there was no one. That's why I can go home and sleep.

Until the breath of someone behind me disturbed my sleep . The breath hunting in my neck area, made me believe he had just arrived.

"Let's announce our wedding this month, don't wait 5 months 2 weeks !"

"Before I still want to sleep don't disturb me !"

"Well I'll shut up and keep you asleep." Raka said, rubbing my head and occasionally kissing my hair, until I fell asleep again.