Love, Let it Get Lost

True story

The next day he was back at the office. I'm so busy taking care of employees for the end of the month. Today I wear an orange skirt and a light yellow shirt, my hair comes to the tail of the horse so as not to block my view, and so that my shoulders can feel the fresh air of his tired work today.

My phone is ringing in my hand. I saw the name on my phone screen.

Mom Ben. I dropped my bow once I saw who was bothering me at this busy time, but I wonder what the purpose was to get back to my personal number.

“Hallo” greet me with cold.

“Hallo Faw”

“Iya what's wrong Ma, euh aunty sorry” said I corrected my call which like her is no longer appropriate I call her with Mama.

“Faw. Mama needs to talk”

I raised my halis, because her tone was so slow, and she called herself Mama to me instead. Whereas if I remember, the last time we met he asked me to no longer call him ‘Mama’.

“Sorry, I'm busy, we can talk later”

“Faw. Mom beg”

This is the thing I hate the most. Namely a plea from a mother, I feel ‘mohon’ greeting from Mother to the child is very inappropriate, because the child should be able to follow the wishes of Mother without having to be forced and begging.

“Good. Please talk”

“Mama can not talk by phone, we have to talk in person, today after work you can see Mama?”

I bit my lower lip to think for a moment. If I see Mama Ben of course I have to talk to Nicko first, and I have to ask his permission so I can go alone.

“Good. Where will we meet?”

“In Astre Caffe , contact Mama if you are done working”

“Baik”

I walked straight to Nicko's room. He seemed so busy working by rounding up the files in front of him, and looking at his computer screen. I closed Nicko's door and walked in doubtfully.

Nicko just stared at me for a while and went back to his busy life.

“Today can I go home early?”

Nicko just looked at me with a frown and looked back at his file.

“Why?”

“I have promise”

“With?”

“Mother Irene”

Nicko fell silent, he closed his file and looked at me seriously.

“Mother Iren?”

“Iya” I replied clumsy.

“Why did Irene's mother ask to meet you outside of your working hours?”

“Like her she won't discuss about work”

“Then?”

“It's about Ben”

Nicko stared at me.

“I just need to finish all this with her family. I want them to forget our problems”

“But why alone ?”

“I have to finish this myself Nicko, believe me I can handle his own”

Nicko looked at me doubtfully.

I smiled at him, then left the room.

I sat at my desk and breathed heavily. I have to solve all my problems before I start a new life with Nicko. I need to know what Mama Ben is going to say and ask them to forget all our problems before her.

I immediately informed Mama Ben for hours to meet us.

Then around 17:00 I have arrived at the cafe that has been determined by Mama Ben. Mama Ben has been seen sitting on one of the chairs with so elegant and so formal clothes. He looked alone, there was not a single personal servant who as usual accompanied him there. I walked over to Mama Ben and continued to carry my little bag.

“Sore Ma” greet me with cold.

Mama Ben looked at me with a smile so happy. Honestly, this time I was greeted warmly by her, even like this was the first time Mama Ben exuded her smile just for me.

“Hallo Fawnia's. Sitting” her pinta.

I sat in front of him.

“What message do you want?” Ask Mama Ben enthusiastically.

“I order warm milk only”

“Baik” then Mama Ben raised his hand to the waiter who was ready to wait for orders from Mama Ben.

This cafe is very classy and also magnificent, and I see a ceiling even seems like this cafe is only used for people who are very important just not a place to just hang out young mudi. And it's fitting that Mama Ben ask me to meet here, because it's far from the crowd.

“What's up?” Ask me directly without a stale ado.

“Fawnia. Mama wants to apologize” said Mama Ben finally.

I don't know what has possessed her, but her apology sounds so strange to my ears.

“Mama would like to apologize for everything that has happened with you”

I still did not answer him, I could only turn my face to hide my disgust in front of him given my suffering all this time. I wonder, is he acting ? Or amnesia ?

“Mama knows Mama is wrong, Mama knows not her shoes Mama behaved like that all this time”

“What do Mama want?” Ask me cynically and avoid this stale base.

Mama Ben silently looked at me with a jerk.

“I know Mama has a purpose to behave like this, because I'm sure Mama will never want to say sorry if Mama has no intention”

“Fawnia, Mama sincerely apologizes to you”

I shook my head so confidently.

“Ma. If Mama is sincere to apologize, Mama must have done it a long time ago, although I rarely met Mama, but I know exactly what kind of character Mama. All this time Mama never once wanted to think of me as a daughter-in-law even to make Mama's child happy Mama never wanted to glance at me. Why would Mom apologize now? What was? Is all this because Ben is still alive?” Ask her to urge her.

mama Ben looked so sad, she bowed her head.

“Ben just told her all, she just said all her stories with details. The problems she suffered until now, all because of Mama. Mama and Papa don't know if Ben is healing in a way that could hurt him. Ben never once told me. She was so tormented, that Mama and Papa urged her to get married”

Mama began to cry, her sobs were heard even though she bowed her head.

“Mama fear Faw. Mama's afraid that no one can accept Ben”'s shortcomings

I feel sorry to hear Mama Ben's sadness. I remembered Mama Nicko who also had the same fear as him, Mama Nicko was afraid that no woman could accept Nicko's deficiency with his illness.

“Ben gets angry when we find out we scolded you Faw. Ben is angry and blames us because you left him”

“My journey is not full because of you, even if at this time I do not have problems with you, I will still leave Ben because he has dared to leave me for 4 years by pretending to die”

“Fawnia, you should know. Ben had to do that”

“Whatever the reason, Ben can't lie to his own wife Ma, let alone he has promised to look after me with my son”

“Fawnia, Ben almost killed in Kalimantan while he was checking his coal mine” I was astonished to hear Mama's words.

“His coal mine was almost destroyed, there was that sabotage of Ben's work, but Ben could finally save her well. Then a few days later, the mine had a fire, he had a big loss, someone almost killed Ben alive there, but the guy didn't make it, he said, and Ben is convinced if that guy fails to kill Ben he'll keep destroying his coal mine. Eventually Ben with his confidants makes a scenario, to fake Ben's death, and coincidentally the plane that Ben was about to board had an accident. She asks people to immediately fake her death, although the choice is very heavy, because when you give birth, she must first save her company Fawnia, she said, because he bears a lot of the responsibilities of his employees who are so much there. He did not sacrifice you, but he left you for a few years to accompany you forever”

I continued to listen seriously to Mama's story with eyes that started to water. Because I never knew what Ben was going through in Kalimantan, and until now I never wanted to listen to any explanation from Ben.