Love, Let it Get Lost

My little angel

I stayed at my desk with a still uncertain feeling.

I'm still thinking about what Papa said about Nicko. He believes Nicko so much that he doesn't want to imagine if what happened to Ben's parents happened to them. If only Papa knew I wasn't pregnant by Ben, and Ben's parents were angry about it. Papa would be mad at me too Nicko.

Nicko walked into my room with a worried look on my face.

“I've spoken to Papa” Nicko said.

I still daydream at my desk, staring blankly at the computer in front of me.

“Your father trusts you so much Nicko”, I said regardless of his words.

I glanced at Nicko who looked confused.

“She very much does not want her son to do such an embarrassing thing. How now?” Ask me with eyes that are getting wet again.

“What should we do? Are we still going to keep telling them the truth?” I shake my head so confused.

“I don't want them to hate me Nicko”

Nicko came up to me at the desk and he knelt beside me.

“Listen to me carefully”

“I promised you, never to leave you no matter what. Even if Papa would hate me, I wouldn't care about Fawnia. We'll get through this together, I can't live my life without you” Nicko said.

I kept quiet and didn't answer. I am still confused about my situation. I don't want to disappoint Papa, but I feel sure that all these secrets will be revealed to Nicko's parents sooner or later. I can't see their disappointment.

In the evening I went home to my apartment with a very chaotic feeling. I saw Keysa in my living room with Kara playing next to her.

“Mamaa” greet Kara as usual while running towards me.

I tried to smile for him.

“Hay dear, how was your day?” Ask me.

“Seru Ma, at school Kara learned to draw, and Kara was great at school”

“O yeah? Yes already back to play, Mama want to change first ya” shirt

Then Kara ran back to where she was playing, and Keysa looked at me with a strange look.

“Hay Key” greet me with limp.

“Why lo? Tangle very much face” led Keysa by just turning his head saw me walk past him.

“Later I told you, I changed clothes” answered me without glancing at him and went into the room.

I replaced my clothes with a plain oversize shirt made of soft and thin white with a picture of a cat in the middle. And wear peach-colored shorts so my legs can freely walk at home.

I walked out of the room tying my hair and sat at the pantry table. Keysa approached me.

I told all my stories these past few days to Keysa. Because I haven't had time to tell her because she's got a job out of town organizing her business, and I don't want to tell her all these great things over the phone.

“How much does ?” Ask Keysa when I've come to tell her about Papa Nicko.

“Gue ga tau Key. I'm even more afraid to be honest with Nicko's family about Kara”

“Gue knows Faw. When you've been dapetin again Nicko family, now even there is still one problem that is so big that you could have lost them again”

Keysa was right again.

“Gue always thought, if only I had been honest with them about Kara. I definitely don't need to marry Ben and the Ben” family

“Hey. You did not help Ben at that time. You know Ben can't have kids”

“But finally Ben left me before he could see the boy in my birth Key. Is it free of all the work we do? Ben has lied to his family, I have also left the Nicko family, and I was not so suicidal at that time” said me unconsciously, what has possessed me can say like that.

“Crazy yes lo!” Keysa said with annoyance.

“Lo look back! Kara's Clay!” Pinta Keysa with emotion.

I glanced behind me and saw Kara playing at the living room table. I watched him closely, his innocence, his beauty, his kindness, made me lucky to have him.

“The story is not sinful. He ain't got nothing wrong. He doesn't take care of all the suffering lo Faw. You expect your suicide to happen back then?” Keysa didn't believe what I said.

“And you have the heart, how did Kara die before she felt the beauty of life?” Ask Keysa. Makes me think and think again.

“Udahlah Faw, Do not continue to blame the past. Without you knowing it, Ben has helped Kara to be born into this world. And you also have more happiness over the birth of Kara right?” I silently confirmed Keysa's words.

“Kalo lo did not want to get dizzy from the first time. Why do you love Kara to Ben's family when they ask Kara as a baby, and keep secrets about Kara's real father. You will not be dizzy with the facts that you have yourself. You don't need to worry about Nicko, you don't need to worry about the enemies of the Ben family, you don't need to fear Nicko's parents know the truth. Se simple it really” Keysa said by shrugging both shoulders.

“But you don't want Faw?” Keysa asked with a sharp look at me.

“Iya. I don't want to lose Kara” I replied.

Then I glanced back at Kara behind me sadly.

“When I first found out there was a baby in my stomach. I was frustrated with Key, but the longer I felt there was strength given by Kara in my stomach. I felt Kara was a new force for me, she was an angel that God sent to accompany me. And indeed, he was a problem-treater in my life until now”

My eyes began to get wet, but I held him back from coming out. Because today I shed too many tears.

“Whatever will happen in front of you, I hope you can hold it, and you can accept all the consequences. Believe me, the storm must have passed. And not forever what you fear is happening Faw” said Keysa full of appreciation.

I smiled at the only friend I had. Besides Kara, Keysa is my life booster who is always there in my time of need. I hugged Keysa with haru.

“Thank ya Key, have wanted to be my best friend all this time”

“It’s Ok. I will always be there for Elo Faw”