Love, Let it Get Lost

Trying to steal Nicko's heart

After Kara and Nicko are satisfied to learn to swim. Nicko wrapped around Kara's body with a towel, and she dried her body with her kimono towel. After feeling lost, Nicko took Kara upstairs to meet me and change Kara's clothes.

When Nicko and Kara walked into my room, they found me opening my closet and dabbling in my old clothes while I was in school and college.

“Hay dear” greet me to Kara who ran over to me.

I crouched down to greet her.

“Have finished his swim?” Ask me with a smile trying to toughen up.

“Already Ma” reply Kara.

“Then we change the shirt first ya”

I walked to the bed to carry Kara's bag of clothes.

With a smile on my face and as if nothing had happened, I changed Kara's clothes and kept a close eye on Nicko standing before me. I'm sure he just wants to see me.

“You why aren't you wearing a shirt?” I looked at Nicko ketus.

But Nicko kept staring at me coldly, as if he knew I was trying to look okay.

“Come Nicko. Wear your clothes first, from yesterday you have not changed clothes right?” Ask me to remind you of that.

Kara was done I put on a pink baby doll outfit, then I combed her hair while humming her favorite singing.

Then Kara looks for something around her.

“Oh yes tie Kara's hair behind, let Kara bring it down first yes Ma” said Kara while leaving us both quickly,

“Kara..” Call me to chase after him, because I don't want to be left alone with Nicko in a situation like this.

Again Nicko pulled my hand, and let Kara go out of the room leaving us both.

Our eyes meet. Nicko looked at me coldly, and I stared at him bitterly remembering his mother's words.

“Do not try hard in front of me” Nicko said as he continued to hold my arm.

“I'm not trying hard for you. But for Kara” I said denying the prejudice.

My sadness I can't cover anymore. I looked at Nicko so sad.

“I know your heart hurts to hear what Mama said. I also feel the same way Faw” said Nicko with a sincere look.

“I'm also sad Mama didn't know if she actually already had a granddaughter from me. And the grandson has been cherished his now”

I'm starting to feel sad to remember that.

“Why don't we tell the truth now ? So we can calm”

I shook my head slowly staring at her so sadly.

“Not to the stagnation I would get if we said everything now. But it was a deep disappointment, Nicko. I don't want to lose them, and I'd rather sacrifice my feelings than I have to lose them again” I said so grievously.

Nicko looked surprised to hear my words. She frowned in disbelief.

“Corpling feeling?” His question repeated my words.

“You mean? You want to see me obey my parents' wishes? You want to see me marry another woman? You want Kara to forever not know about her biological father?” I heard a disappointed tone from Nicko's words.

“What do you think Fawnia?” Her question was unexpected.

I was silent and could not answer. I was so upset, I didn't know what to do. All I want is to have a replacement for my parents who can love me with all their love without any hatred. And I've been getting it from Nicko's parents all this time. But I only made one mistake, a terrible mistake until I feared losing them, loving Nicko, their only child.

“I'll never let that happen. I will never marry anyone else, even if you will disappear again from my life, or you will never consider me Kara's father, or even you will marry again. I would never want to marry another woman other than you”, Nicko sharpened his last sentence.

Then he let go of his grasp and left me alone in the room. I started crying, I was so sad to hear what Nicko said. I once left because I thought with my departure, Nicko could obey his parents to get married, but in fact my efforts were in vain. And now, he's pressing it back, if until I disappear again, the situation won't change, he'll stay firm to his stance, he said, and maybe Mama will hate me more because I disappeared again.

I wiped my tears and washed my face in the sink to hide my sadness in front of everyone. I have to work hard, for Kara's sake.

I went down after everyone at the dinner table. Kirana also sat down to eat next to Nicko by being sweet in front of Nicko's parents.

“Honey here we start eating” welcome Mama ask me to sit down immediately.

“Come to eat. Kirana help Mama cook loh” said Mama with her pride.

But Nicko did not look excited to hear Mama's words.

“Oh yes? Kirana can cook?” Tanya Papa appreciated Kirana's efforts.

“Slight Om. But I'm learning to cook. So that later if I marry Nicko, I can cook her favorite food”, Kirana said with a twinkle staring at Nicko.

Nicko still doesn't ignore it. And his speech was only responded with a smile by Mama and Papa Nicko.

“And you Faw?” Ask Papa to look at me.

“Ya”

“You still like to cook?” Tanya Papa recalled that I often helped Mama Nicko cook in the kitchen.

“Still Pa” answer me briefly.

“Then Papa wants you to cook some more chicken balado for Papa Ya?” Said Papa with a smile.

“Iya Faw's. Mama also misses in helping you cook”, said Mama to talk.

I just smiled faintly in response to their request. I glanced at Kirana who was looking at me with her dislike gaze, but I didn't care about her. I know, Kirana must have been sultry with what Mama and Papa Nicko were talking about, but it's not my fault if she felt uncomfortable, because I didn't ask Nicko's parents to praise me.

Kara looked at me sadly.

“why?” Ask me slowly.

His mouth did not answer but his eyes glanced at something that was so bothersome to him.

“What?” I asked still whispering.

Kara gives the code with her eyes towards the dining table.

Clear spinach in a large bowl so much, now presented again in front of Kara. I understand what that means. Earlier this morning Kara had just been forced to eat spinach, and now at Oma and her Opa she's in suguhi again vegetable spinach.

“OK. Kara does not need to eat spinach yes, Kara want nuggets and sausages only?” Ask me.

Fearfully Kara nodded her head.

“Why not eat spinach?” Ask Kara.

It turned out that Papa was watching both of us and eavesdropping on my conversation.

Kara looks really scared. Maybe he thinks his Opa will help force Kara to go back to eating spinach.

“Kara..” said I was looking for other reasons besides the same reason as Nicko.

I don't want to make them realize that Kara and Nicko have something in common.

“So morning I've made spinach vegetables for Kara, and maybe Kara bored Pa so she was reluctant to go back to eating spinach” said I quibble.

“Oh it's okay Kara can eat her other ya”

“Thanks Opa” replied Kara with a sweet.

And all immediately drain his food onto the plate, including Nicko who only brought rice and his side dishes black pepper beef as well as nuggets like Kara.

“You don't want to try Nick's spinach?” Kirana asked in surprise.

Nicko did not respond to Kirana just glanced at her for a moment and looked at her Mama.

“Tante forgot to say yes” said Mama Nicko while preparing food for Papa.

“Nicko does not like to eat leaf-shaped vegetables like that”

Kirana again lapsed weakly, with what she just learned again about Nicko.

“Because when he was a child Nicko had seen caterpillars in spinach and his caterpillars are not ordinary vegetable caterpillars, but like caterpillars that make him itch,keep his body so bentol-bentol that all day. So, until big like this, he still has difficulty eating vegetables”, Mama Nicko explained to Kirana.

Then Kirana just lowered her bow with a disappointed look. It was as if he felt that it was in vain that he had helped make a spinach vegetable dedicated to Nicko. I wanted to laugh, but I held him back. And I looked at Kara who could only be serious with food in her presence.