Love, Let it Get Lost

Incompetent

At night, Kara and I prepared in our pajamas to go to bed. We wear matching blue tosca pajamas and curl our hair. We brushed our teeth and washed our faces, it was time to go to bed.

Tomorrow is Kara's first day of school, and I can take her first to school and leave her to Keysa's brother who is both attending school in the same place as Kara. Brother Keysa is so good-natured, and he's willing to look after Kara until I get a nanny for Kara. Because until now I still can not get a baby sitter that is right for her. Luckily, Keysa's good brother wanted to help me find a trusted babby sitter.

“Maa..” call Kara when I lay her on the bed.

“Iya dear” answered me while lying next to her.

“What's Papa handsome?” Her question made me gasp in silence to think about which Papa Kara meant. Nicko or Ben?

“Papa handsome. Like prince”, I tried to smile in my grief.

Then she smiled so happily.

Until now I never showed Kara who her real father was. I never even showed that Ben was his Papa. Every time Kara asks about Ben's photo on my phone, I always answer if Ben is a good person. I don't want to say Ben is his father because he will grow up someday, and it will be very painful if he has grown up and knows about his true nature. Unlike the story if Ben is still alive, it is certain that I will always cover this harsh reality for our happiness. But this is all our destiny.

I fell asleep hugging her and forgetting all the sadness we had just been through these few days.

The next day at work. I just got to my study but the HR head called me. He asked me to come into his room.

That morning I wore a soft pink shirt, and a short gray span. My hair is tied to a ponytail, wavy to make it look more voluminous.

“Excuse Me. Mom call me?” Ask me when I enter her room.

The head of HR still serves under Nicko. But he's also my boss, this HR head named Vionna, he looks a little older than me. And she's a woman stamped so fierce in this company, so many employees are talking about Vionna's ugliness in this office, even Bima also told me if Vionna is not reluctant to fire people just because the employee looks careless once without giving him a warning before him. Yes he is cruel.

“Do you know why you were called here?” Her question was so sniffy.

“No Bu” replied me who was standing before his work desk.

“You know yesterday Mba Kirana came here and she wants to meet Mr Ferdy?”

Oh about Kirana. I murmured in my heart.

“Iya Ma'am. I prevented him from entering. Because Mr. Ferdy advised no one to bother him until lunchtime” I replied quoting Nicko's words yesterday.

“You know if he is her fiance Mr Ferdy?”

“Know Bu” answer me.

“And you know. Parents Mbak Kirana is the best partner with this company?”

I stared at him coldly. I already knew the way he was going to talk where he was going.

“Do not know right?” Ask her again by sitting so casually on her chair.

“He yesterday complained about your attitude of serving him. He was very unhappy with your unfriendly behavior”

“Sorry Mom. Not as friendly as what do you mean?” My question was so bold that he rounded his eyes to look at me.

“I explained yesterday in the best possible tone, and with such polite words. But this Mba Kirana insisted on entering Mr. Ferdy's room. I was sent a message by him not to disturb him. Am I wrong?” Ask me so coldly.

“Dare ya you said like that to me!” Ask her in annoyance.

“I just explained it to Mom. If I just do my job right, if you want to blame my attitude yesterday,I can ask Mr. Ferdy directly why he told me not to bother him first yesterday” he started staring at me so sharply.

“You have only been here a few days and have been disrespectful to me and others. Why can Mr Ferdy hire someone like you?!” Her question made me stare at her coldly as if not caring.

“Pack your things and get out of this office. You're fired!” His words made me not surprised at all.

“Good. Thank you ” answered me and then out of the room so haughty.

I came out of the room and slammed the door as soon as I closed it back, I'm sure Vionna's mother was getting annoyed looking at my lack of teachings, but I didn't care.

I don't care about this job anymore. For my reasons for working like her no longer exist. Kara is mine, and my savings are still enough to support me and Kara. I'm sure I'll be able to find another job out there, or I can make my own business even if it starts at the smallest, no problem.

I walked back to my room. I cleaned up the stuff that was there and put it into the box that was stored under the table. Just a few weeks I've been working here, I've had to be surprised by the things that make me not feel at home here, the boss that sucks, the work environment that always seems to dislike me, Nicko's engagement, Nicko's engagement,and now it has to have an HR head like that lion ? I'd rather get out of this company.

A phone came into my office phone while I was packing my things. I just stared at him and ignored him because I knew it was from Nicko. I don't want to glance at Nicko's room inside, I already don't care about him. The phone rang so loud that I was reluctant to pick it up, because I was officially fired from this office.

Nicko came out of his room with a look of annoyance, he was standing in the doorway to my eyes that looked busy at my desk.

“Why not pick up the phone from me?” Her question is still in the doorway.

I didn't answer him and kept cleaning up my stuff. Nicko saw what I was doing, he frowned and approached me.

“What do you do?” Ask him what I still care about.

Nicko walked into my desk and stopped my activities by pulling out a cardboard box that had my belongings. I looked into her eyes so sharply.

“Why are you cleaning up your stuff?” He asked so curiously and kept pulling my box.

“I want to go from here. I do not need to work in a place that involves linking personal problems into my work” answered me so firmly.

“What do you mean?” Ask Nicko in surprise.

I tried again to take my dus that was in Nicko's hands, but Nicko avoided it.

“You certainly know the company rules that will fine anyone who comes out without him carrying a letter of resignation 1 month before his?” Her question reminds me of her company's rules.

I looked into Nicko's eyes in annoyance.

“I don't need to pay a fine. Because I did not resign, but I was fired by your HR, replied me by glaring at him.

“Acquired ? On whose orders did he fire you ? What's the reason?”

I looked back at him sharply full of vengeance.

“Because I've not been nice to your fiancee” replied me by pressing my last sentence to corner her.

“then I was fired. Funny for the reason?” Continue me while smiling my cynical smile.

I violently snatched my box back from his hands and returned to tidy up my things.

He seemed to think for a moment, then Nicko walked quickly out of the room and he went somewhere. I don't care anymore.

I checked my office computer first, and deleted the archive files that were inside my work computer. I don't want to leave a single problem when I get out of this office. I finish. Goodbye again Nicko,