Love, Let it Get Lost

Key witness

Mama and Papa Ben were so shocked to hear my confession. They threw eyes at each other with faces so shocked.

I'm sure Keysa was so shocked to hear my confession.

“What do you mean? You want to try to fool us?” Mama Ben asked with a very annoyed expression.

I silently held back my tears staring at them and remembered Ben. I feel guilty about having to do this to them. But this is the only way for them to no longer try to separate me from Kara.

“Key. Can you take Kara out?” I said without turning my body, because I didn't want Kara to see me grieving like this.

“Oke” reply Keysa. Then Keysa's steps and the sound of Kara's small steps came out of the living room.

“Do not try to make a lie Fawnia, otherwise you will know the consequences!” Threaten Papa Ben by pointing at me with emotion.

“I'm not lying. Kara is not Ben's child, it's the reality” I said once again with a sad hold of me.

“What?! How could?! It was clear you were pregnant when you married Ben!” Mom Ben asked not to accept my words.

“I met with Ben when I was pregnant and it wasn't because Ben” replied I was trying to be honest.

“What?!” Her mother was so surprised and almost approached me with her fists that seemed to be itching to hit me but Papa Ben held her back.

“Ma already, we listen to the explanation first. This must be another reason why Ben did this”

“No Pa, from the beginning this woman was not a good woman, she used Ben to be responsible when she was pregnant with someone else. Your outrageousness! You've influenced Ben to marry you, and now Ben is also leaving this world because of you, why are you so desperate to do that?!” Mama Ben said with yelling and unstoppable emotions.

“I have heart? Mama says I have the heart?” Ask me in a tone that is still so low.

“It is precisely you who made Ben slump like that and he was forced to marry me because you guys are demanding her to get married right?” I continued with a bit of screaming and passionate emotions.

“Don't make up for you! We never asked Ben to get married soon, let alone marry a woman like you!” Mama Ben's lips made me look at her with anger.

“You forgot ? You're the one who forced Ben to get married when he didn't want to, and you're the one who kept pushing Ben to find a life partner even though Ben has often said he's not ready. You never know the real reason Ben didn't want to get married for what? You also definitely do not know what problem befell Ben to the point that Ben continues to fall ill and so weak before meeting me?” My question made Mama and Papa Ben silent not to answer.

They just stood listening to my babble and stared at me so sharply.

Before meeting me, Ben once told me that he was often sick. She was always stressed by her parents' request to get married, Ben felt depressed but Ben could not vent his frustration, eventually he fell ill and felt weak before marrying me.

“Because Ben has a disease that can't make him have a child” answered me so sadly given that.

Mama and Papa Ben round their eyes to hear my words. I have to tell them the truth, they have to know the secret about Ben for the rest of his life. So that they understand and no longer blame me.

“No, that's impossible. Ben never said this”

“What did he say to Mama ? To embarrass Mama? Or to make Mama keep worrying, right, Ben? Ben never had the heart to do that Ma” replied me.

“No. You must be lying, my son can't possibly have such a disease. She must be healthy. It's your only reason to get custody of Kara right?” Mama Ben's question couldn't accept the fact I said.

“Mama remember the treatment of prostate cancer that Ben did after undergoing gland removal surgery?” My question was trying to remind them of what happened years ago before Ben met me again.

“Because of the treatment, Ben so can not have fertility anymore” Mama and her Papa are unceasingly surprised by all the reality I tell.

“I met Ben when 5 years ago, when I was going to check my content,and met with Ben who was undergoing regular check-ups that he did every 1 month at Husada Hospital. Don't you know Ben's routine schedule to undergo his treatment?” Her mother was silent with her breath still looking so heavy.

“Mama knows that, but Mama does not know about the problems that exist due to the treatment is not Ma?” My face with a very convincing face.

“For 3 years Ben went through that treatment and at the same time therapy for his fertility, but still the doctor said he would not have fertility”

“He never said that, because he was sure Mama and Papa would worry about him, and Ben thought that you guys would hate him. Because of your one-on-one son, can't give you a grandson”

I kept quiet and didn't answer. Because it's useless I explained, I'm sure they won't be able to accept it.

“Pa expel this woman pa, drive her from here, Mama does not want to see her again” Mama told Papa while crying.

“Excuse Bu” said a security man standing in the doorway.

“There is a Doctor Mr Teguh said he wants to see Mother” said security that makes Mama and Papa squint forehead.

“I invited her. Let him come in” answered me without looking back.

The security did not argue and immediately ran to let the guest in.

“Ma still remember with Mr Teguh?” I asked him to try to return his memories to a few years ago.

“He is the doctor who handles Ben du” continued me sharply considering about Mr Teguh to both of them.

“Good morning” greet Pak Teguh by approaching us.

I immediately greeted him with a very warm handshake, then Mr. Teguh continued to shake hands with Ben's parents.

Mr. Teguh must have felt the tension between me and Ben's parents, and he would have guessed if the debate had been going on.

“Thank you for coming Mr. Teguh”, I said with a sweet smile to him.

“It's okay if this is for your good and Ben” replied him.

“Sorry Sir. What do you need to do here?” Ask Papa Ben.

“Iya Ma'am. I was asked by Fawnia to help her prove that when Ben was on medication a few years ago it was true. And when the treatment, Ben in the verdict will not be able to have offspring because the effect that was caused by prostate cancer treatment at that time was the irregularity that Ben had experienced for approximately two years during treatment it” said Mr. Teguh with so authoritative.

“No. This is impossible. You must be conspiring with this woman right?” Mama Ben asked in denial.

“I told you the truth Mom. My profession as a doctor is so at stake in circumstances like this” replied Mr Teguh calmly.

Then he pulled out a file so much in his bag and gave it to Ben's parents.

“This was Ben's medical record at the time. I still keep it inside my computer” Mama and Papa Ben started reading the contents of the medical record and was so shocked when reading it.

“When Ben was convicted if he did not have a child. Ben asked me never to tell you this, because he was sure he would be cured. I certainly do not want to discourage him by saying if it is very unlikely, because it is unlikely that people will return fertile after undergoing prostate treatment. But Ben still believes that he will recover”

Papa Ben looked at me in disbelief. Then he looked at Mr. Teguh in annoyance.

“But you are a doctor. Why can't you take action for my son to get back to healing” asked his Papa to speak.

“I have as much as possible to restore Ben Pak's health. And with the longevity that Ben has received, he is already very grateful when it”

Mama started to get hysterical again by crying as much as possible.

“Bennn” shouted her weakly drooping Mama.

“Maa.. quiet Ma” Papa Ben continues to support his wife's body. Then some helpers came to help Mama Ben and put her in the chair

I could only stare at her by standing at my place.

My tears started to drip down my cheeks seeing Mama Ben crying helplessly like that.

“I'm sorry Ma”