Love, Let it Get Lost

Back to our house

The next morning, Kara is allowed to go home by a doctor. Nicko carried Kara into the car. I accompanied Kara in the back seat, and Nicko sat alone in the front. Kara just kept leaning on my shoulder, and I kept keeping Kara's head from bumping. I'm still afraid if his head hurts again.

When on the way Nicko's phone rings.

“Please see who called?” Pinta Nicko with eyes fixed on the streets.

I reached into Nicko's bag which was in his side seat. Then look for a phone that keeps ringing.

“Mama” answered me when I saw Mama's name plastered on her phone screen.

“Thank you, loudspeaker” pinta Nicko.

I picked up the phone.

“Hallo Ma” greet me.

“Hallo, Fawnia?”

“Iya Ma, it's me”

“Kara can go home, right? Why not contact Mama?”

“Iya Ma, Sorry. Nicko and I went straight from the hospital because Kara was whining to go home”

“Then where are you?”

“I'm on my way home Ma”

“Come back, right?”

I silently momentarily glanced at Nicko in the inner rearview mirror.

“Ke apartment I” answer me finally.

“Why ? Kara's still sick baby, who will take care of her there?”

“I will ask for leave to my boss later” said I by glancing back at Nicko who was in front of me.

He glanced at me in the rearview mirror inside of him.

“Can't, Mama and Papa ask, you and Kara are now here!” Pinta Mama with creepy.

“Oma!!” Kara screamed when she realized that the one who was calling was her Oma.

“Hallo darling” greet Mama happily.

I brought the phone closer to Kara.

“Oma, can Kara go home to Oma?”

“Oo yes can dong dear. Instead Mama told Mama and Om Nicko to ask Kara to go home Oma”

“Not Om Nicko Oma, but Papa” said Kara confirmed his Oma speech.

Nicko seemed to be smiling at the wheel, and I smiled at him.

“Oh yes. Papa's. Tell Papa Kara, if Kara wants to go to the house of Oma ya” said Mama persuaded Kara to take us to her house.

“Good Ma” said Nicko replied by himself.

“But my clothes and Kara's still in Nicko”'s apartment I told Nicko.

“That's easy, I just ask people to take care of your things in the apartment and move them to Mama”'s house Nicko said to provide a solution.

“Good if it is, Mama wait at home. Bye Kara”

“Bye Oma”

Then Mama turned off her phone.

“We want to stay at home Oma ya Ma?” Kara asked me a glance.

I was just about to answer Nicko ahead of me to answer.

“We do not stay dear, but we will move home to the house of Oma” said Nicko.

“Moving? So Kara can bobo the same Oma and Opa?” Kara asked so happy.

“Iya”

Then Kara looked happy and clapped her own hands.

I looked at him confused.

“Iya dear” answered me even though I am not sure of their wishes.

I can't get rid of her happy face. Maybe now is the time for Kara to be able to live with her family, and she feels the love of her Oma Opa that she has never felt before. I can't get in Kara's way if she wants to stay in our old house. It's for her happiness, I'll obey everything that's best for her.

We arrived at Mama's house and have been welcomed warmly in front of the house with so happy. Papa immediately approached Kara and held her.

“Hallo Opa” greet Kara with sweet.

“Hallo Opa's grandson. Chief Kara how? No longer sick?”

“It healed Opa. The doctor said tomorrow the bandage on Kara's head can be removed, as long as Kara is well obedient to Mama and Papa” said Kara.

I still feel alien to Nicko's new call from Kara's mouth. I still didn't expect Kara to finally be able to call Papa to Nicko without difficulty and awkwardness.

“Oh great. Let's go inside” take Papa.

Then Mama came up to me and kissed me on the cheek.

“You seem tired, you take a shower then eat after it rest”

“No need Ma. I have to look after Kara, I can rest later”

“Fawnia. Kara has Mama and Papa and Nicko. Now is the time for us to take care of her, and the time for you to rest, let us take care of Kara as best we can, let's just say it's our turn to keep Kara after 5 years she was raised by mu” herself

I smiled when I heard it, and hugged Mama tightly.

“Thank you, for receiving Kara in the middle of you”

Mama nodded and smiled so sincerely. I immediately carried my belongings upstairs to my old room.

I slowly opened the door of the room, this time my feelings were very different. After visiting this room a few times, this time I remembered all the memories in this house. I breathed a sigh of relief, because I actually missed this room and her memories. I kept my big bag on the bed and immediately went to the bathroom to clean my body.

After taking a shower I put on a kimono towel and a hair towel to dry my body, then I went out the bathroom and went straight to the closet next to my bathroom door.

I feel back to my youth, I became like a teenager again in this house. Some clothes no longer fit on my body, and some look no longer suitable I wear because it is too childish. Then I found one of the clothes in the hanger among the others, it was a mustard knit and long-sleeved garment, and then the pants I found in the folds of the clothes, her pants made from a dark brown jersey that still fit on my waist. I looked at myself in front of the mirror with a happy smile looking at me who was like a child again in this house, even though I was already a mother with one child.

Then I sat down at my dresser and looked at myself in front of the mirror. I'm still confused what to do in this house, I still feel strange when I come back here, even though this is actually my favorite room if I want to be alone. This room is a living witness to how I grew up in this house.

I walked to my bed and lay on top of it. I looked at the ceiling of my house, and began with what I was going to do now, and then I remembered Nicko's room. I sat down and thought about visiting her room.

I stood up and looked around outside my room. Nicko's room was right in front of my room, then I approached Nicko's door and opened it slowly.

Looks like Nicko is not in the room, because it is so quiet and neat this room with white walls and a bed in black sheets. Nicko does prefer dark and he makes the theme of his room into a monocrom like this. I looked around again, there was nothing interesting, the room was so quiet, there were no wall hangings, there were no items on the table, only laptops and tvs, and there's no more pictures of me on the walls of his room. It makes me very upset, why can my photo disappear in his room. She said she always loved me, she said I never forgot me, but where ? My photo is no longer in his room.

“What are you looking for?” Ask the voice of the man standing in the doorway with a long cream-colored t-shirt, and the old ash oversize pants.

“Nothing” answered me with a ketus then came out through it just like that.

I'm too proud to ask that. Nicko pulled my hand when I had just stepped a few feet from his room, and he snatched away my phone in my pants pocket. I was surprised by his attitude.

“You what?” Ask me.

But Nicko just kept quiet and didn't answer, he fiddled with my phone. And show me something on my phone screen.

It was a cctv screen that she had downloaded on my phone, but what did she show me my apartment cctv for? I looked back at the room inside my phone screen. That's not my apartment.

“Whose house is this?” Ask me while taking over my phone and continue researching the room.

“Home ku” answered..

I was surprised to see him.

“Don't you ever say, it's not fair that only I can monitor you through cctv. I've downloaded my cctv on your phone so you can watch me, but it looks like it's useless” Nicko said disappointedly.

I looked at him in annoyance at once.

“When do I know this is on my phone ?” Ask me with a kettle.

“See in my room, there is anything there” Nicko said coldly, then he left me alone upstairs.

I frowned, and tried to tinker with the cctv's palication, then looked for the cctv installed in his room.

“This is he” I said when I found it.

I enlarged the screen in her room, and then saw a lot of photos on the wall of her bed. There was even one big doll that was no stranger to me on the sofa in her room. It was a panda doll just like mine. Then I ran back to my room and looked for the panda doll, and it was true that my beloved big panda doll was not among the other dolls, I didn't realize the doll was missing in my room.

I smiled happily. It turns out Nicko still really loves me.