Love, Let it Get Lost

Karaa !!

“For this Fawnia hide about.”

Prraaannngggg

The sound of impact following the fall of an object was heard from the direction of my room. The three of us looked straight into the room, and Nicko and I immediately ran into the room,Nicko opened the door to my room faster and saw Kara lying on the floor with my chair and desk dropped.

“Kara!” I shouted when I saw Kara who was not moving at all on the floor.

Nicko quickly takes Kara and checks if she is injured, Kara's head looks immediately bruised as if Kara had a hard impact on her head that made her unconscious.

“Karaaa!” Shouted me hysterically.

Nicko quickly picks up Kara and takes Kara out of the room. The panicked mother also followed Nicko.

“Grandson Oma, why do you love?” mama said so sad.

I grabbed my bag on the table and followed Mama and Nicko while closing the door to my apartment.

I saw Nicko so panicked because Kara was drooping so limp in his sling. Me, Mama and Nicko got into Nicko's car. Mama sat down next to Nicko and I sat behind Kara's arm lying on my lawn.

“Honey, wake up I said while crying.

Nicko didn't speak in the slightest, he continued to drive his car quickly to the hospital.

“Quick Nak, Mama can not forgive herself Mama if anything happens with Kara” said Mama.

I kept stroking Kara's cheek hoping she would wake up crying. I would never forgive myself if something happened to him.

“Kara Iangg.. wake up my love” while continuing to cry.

Mama was so worried looking kept glancing at the back seat. Mama also held Kara's hand while shedding tears. I felt so much, no matter how angry Mama was with me or Nicko, Mama would always love us, let alone Kara.

We got in front of the IGD and Nicko ran to get Kara out of the car and handed her over to the nurse who was also in a hurry to bring a patient cage. Nicko laid her on that push bed and she parked her car quickly in the parking lot.

The three of us frantically followed Kara into the ICU room, and when we were about to enter the ICU room the sisters held us back.

“Please wait here, we will check it well” said the white-clothed sister then she closed the ICU door.

I kept crying watching Kara come into the ICU room. This is the first time I can neglect to pay attention to Kara. This is my biggest faux pas by not asking Kara to stay in the room and do nothing. Since I didn't have time to ask Kara to wait well in the room, I was too fixated on my debate with Mama.

I put my back on the wall and cried so scared. Nicko kept pacing back and forth to get rid of his fear, while Mama sat down on the chair next to me with her eyes closed and prayed.

A few hours passed, after many nurses who came out into the ICU room in a hurry, carrying tools, blood samples and others, he said,finally this time the doctor came out of the ICU room by removing the mask to meet us, and the three of us immediately stormed it.

“Who are his parents?” Ask the doctor firmly.

“I”

“I” answer me and Nicko simultaneously.

Mama who was next to me looked astonished at Nicko.

“Who has thalassemia?” Ask her again.

I frowned hearing a strange disease in my ears.

“I” said Nicko by continuing to look at the doctor.

This time I was surprised to look at Nicko.

It turns out there's still a secret I don't know about Nicko. All I remember was that Nicko used to check up with the doctor with his mom, but I never knew what they were doing to keep checking health at the hospital. I just thought it was a regular health check-up, because Mama often did things to me every month, just that I was not tired quickly or a lot of sick like Nicko used to be. I never knew Nicko had an illness. Is it dangerous disease ?

Mama looked confused and seemed to think about something so hard, while I could only be silent.

“Follow me” pinta doctor to Nicko.

Then Nicko and the doctor left me and Mama, who were still shocked, not believing what she was hearing. I leaned back against the wall sadly and waited for Mama to ask.

My mother looked at me disappointed. He approached me slowly.

“Kara is Nicko's son?” Mama asked in a tone so heavy as to hold back her cries.

I couldn't answer it and kept turning my face away with tears.

“Is Kara really Mama's grandson?” Mom started crying.

I really don't know what to answer. Mama's question is exactly what Nicko said when he first found out Kara was his biological daughter.

“Why can Mama just know this Fawnia? Why are you hiding it from Mama?” Mama said disappointedly.

I looked at Mama for a moment with sadness. I couldn't start telling him.

“I do not know with my pregnancy at that time Ma, the beginning I went from home and will return after the state of the house improved. But it turns out I knew I was pregnant, pregnant with Nicko's child. I know what I did with Nicko was out of bounds, I know I made a mistake with Nicko when we both ran away from home. But all of them have already been done, and it turns out I was pregnant mah, I was pregnant when I ran away from home” My speech was so painful.

“What should I do Ma? What if I told Mama the truth first, Mama would forgive me?”

“Mama insisted on marrying Nicko to the woman of Mama's choice, Mama clearly said that Mama was very against our relationship and would never approve of our relationship. I'm confused Ma, I was also frustrated living his”

And Mama just listened intently and followed in disbelief.

“I was almost desperate, I felt my life was no longer useful when I found out I was pregnant with Nicko's child. I could not bear the disappointment of Mama and Papa who trusted me so much, I would rather die after my parents in heaven, than I have to bear all the heavy risks. But eventually I gave birth and raised this child until now. I don't know what I'm doing either, but I feel like Kara is my life booster up until now”

Mama began to cry with thoughts that were either angry, disappointed or still in disbelief.

“I never expected Dad's figure for Kara Ma, because I was sure, I could raise her myself, and actually from the beginning I didn't want Kara to know whose real father she was, who,I just want Kara to know that Ben is her real father. But fate brought me together with Nicko, and fate also made Nicko know if Kara was his child, all not because of my desire Ma, maybe this is the way for Kara to find her rights as Nicko”'s son

It's hard for me to tell Mama the truth, but I have to do this, because it's all gone.

Mama still silently looked at me still crying, I saw the deep disappointment of Mama. He closed his mouth to hold back his surprise.

“I know Mama will be disappointed. I know what Nicko and I did was wrong, but I didn't want Ma either, nor did I ever imagine that I could have a child from Nicko”

My mother remained silent and did not answer.

I took a deep breath before I spoke again.

“If Mama asks me to go with Kara, I'll go. I will sacrifice everything in your honor. I know Mama wants the best for Nicko, I understand so much Ma, I will do anything for you. But this time I beg you, if I go never look for me and Kara” again