Love, Let it Get Lost

Always arguing

After the public announcement, it was announced. Nicko dragged me back into the room.

“You are crazy ya” maki me with annoyance while releasing his hand grip.

Nicko shut the door of his room, and started to face my babble.

“Are you not afraid, with everyone knowing our marriage will be a bad impact ?”

Nicko kept staring at me coldly.

“What kind of bad impact?” Ask him calmly.

“Finally they will know as well, I just don't want them to be shocked when they find out in pelaminan” Nicko continued.

“Yes but not now” said I keep evading with anxious face.

“What are you afraid of?” Nicko asked me to look into my face.

I frowned at me.

“I only.”

to be honest, I also had a hard time finding a reason why I was so objected to my earlier marriage recognition to all employees.

“Do you not want if Bima knows about our marriage?” Nicko's question made me surprised to stare at him in confusion.

“What ? Milky ?”

“I saw you talking to Bima in the hallway earlier, and you didn't in the least admit about our relationship” I was astonished by Nicko's remark.

“Why? You already have feelings for her?” The question made me wonder when I heard the question.

“What feeling?” Ask me not to accept.

“Yes I don't know, you feel it. If there is no feeling whatsoever, why do you still cover up about our marriage?”

I glanced my eyes in annoyance.

“I didn't cover his”

“Then why don't you just tell me if the one who gave you the ring was me”

“I haven't said anything about it to Bima, doesn't mean I have feelings for her right?”

“Then why?”

“I appreciate the feeling she”

Nicko was silent to my words.

“He is the only person I consider a friend in this office, because I don't have a single person I can trust as a friend other than him. Everything I know here they're all two-faced, I hate that. And only Bima who sincerely wants to be my friend in this office, even though in the end he put his heart on me,but he didn't at all demand me to like his back” I tried to explain as best I could to Nicko so he could understand.

“I know he likes you” Nicko said.

I'm shaking my shoulder.

“He did say that he had no problem I refused him. But like her it's hard for her to accept her”

I looked into Nicko's eyes so deeply.

“I appreciate her not because I have feelings for her. But I, do not want him to be surprised, if the reason I can not accept him because my heart has been owned by his superior”, I said with a smile to Nicko.

Nicko's face immediately changed, from the origin so tense so more relaxed even though he did not look a smile on his lips.

“Nicko Line. I don't want your chemistry with Bima to be lost just because I” my request.

“As long as he doesn't approach you with any other intention again, I will behave as usual to his”

“It looks like he's been doing that all this time” my ledek.

Then I could finally see a smile on Nicko's lips. And I smiled seeing him.

At night at home, Kara and I were playing in our bedroom before we went to bed. I braided Kara's hair and Kara played with her pretty big barbie doll.

“Ma”

“Hm” muttered I greeted his call.

“What does Mama marry Papa like with Papa Ben?” Kara's question kept me glued for a moment.

“Iya. But if now Mama married really, if in the past with Papa Ben only lies”

Then Kara glanced back at me.

“Memang married can boongan ya Ma?”

“There. Mama and Papa Ben just acting married”

“Rich in movies?”

“Iya” answered me then Kara looked back to the front and combed her doll.

“Ma”

“Later after Mama married Papa Nicko, is Kara still in love Mama?”

I laughed at her question.

“Ya sure. Kara is forever Mama's love. Mama and Papa will always love Kara until Kara matures later”

“But Oma said, Mama and Papa get married later can make a sister for Kara”

I was stunned, my eyes were round, I was so shocked by Kara's words.

“Oma say what?” Ask me to make sure what I heard wasn't wrong.

“Iya. Oma says Mama and Papa will soon make a sister for Kara”

I scratched my non-itchy hair, and I was at a loss how to answer it.

“No dear”

“Mama won't make sister for Kara?” His question clarified my statement.

“Not like that” said I was so confused to answer Kara's innocence.

Because what's on his mind with my head is very different.

“Goodnight, Angel Papa”, Nicko said as he walked into my room without excuse by using his plain dark purple pajamas.

“Papa!” Call Kara so cheerful.

Nicko immediately lay in front of Kara who was still braided by me.

“Pa” call Kara.

“Iya”

“Pa says Oma, later Mama and Papa will make a sister for Kara?” Kara asked innocently questioning things that would only make Nicko and me clumsy.

Nicko's face was no less surprised by me. He rounded his eyes and turned to look at me behind Kara. I pretended not to notice her and continued to play Kara's hair.

“How have you asked Mama?”

“Sudah”

“What's the answer?”

“Not” replied Kara so honestly.

Nicko glanced at me again.

“Do you not want Kara to have a sister?”

Nicko asked, starting an argument with me.

I took my hand off Kara's hair I hadn't finished taking care of and was breathing so weakly looking at Nicko.

“Kara was a little Nicko”

“Umur Kara has wanted 5 years, it is appropriate Kara to be kaka”

“Ya but right.”

“Kara can also be released by itself, right?”

“Do we have to discuss this now?”

“Why do you want to have a sister?” Nicko's question makes Kara his shield.

“Mau” says Kara makes Nicko more powerful.

“Heard right? Kara just wants her”

“I still want to take care of the company first”

“No. After marriage you must obey all my wishes

I opened my mouth wide to hear his rant.

“You are not aware, all this time I have complied with all your wishes, even from small”

“And after getting married, you should more obey me”

I breathed in annoyance.

“I just want you to be my whole wife for me. I don't want you to work with your own company, I don't want to be made second by you. I want to be just me in your mind, and I want you to always be next to me” Nicko said seriously.

The point is, I'm not allowed to work alone by her unless working beside her.