Love, Let it Get Lost

Persist

Nicko and I went home feeling so bad. I was still thinking about Ben, and Nicko was worried to see my situation like this.

When I got to the parking lot, I opened the car door so limp. Nicko followed me walking right behind me, he kept staring at me anxiously.

I opened the door and walked into my room. And passing through the living room that looks crowded.

“Mama...” cried Kara made my mood change instantly.

“Hay dear..” reply me with a happy look on my face when I see Kara running towards me.

Kara immediately hugged me and I immediately carried her. I tried to smile in front of Kara.

“Mama why? How to glue Mah?” Kara's question realized that my weak attitude was not as usual.

“Gold? Kayak mama kecapean, because Mama's work is a lot in the office” answered me to give an excuse.

“Then Mama rest first ya” said Kara with so attention.

I smile at her and kiss Kara on the forehead gently. I love him so much, I still feel lucky to have him. I'd be very sorry if I decided to commit suicide, and lost it.

“Kara wait here with Oma ya” said Mama who is still sitting on the sofa.

“Iya Oma” Reply Kara.

I dropped Kara. And Kara's back playing with her Oma. Nicko embraced me and massaged my arms.

“We change clothes first” Nicko said.

I nodded my head weakly, and he took me upstairs to take a shower and change my clothes.

I immediately took a shower cooling my head and changed my clothes to a home shirt, then I sat down in front of the dressing table and looked at my face in the reflection of the mirror.

I heard footsteps approaching my room.

“I'll talk to Papa” said Nicko who has been standing at the door with a change of clothes.

I looked at Nicko at my dresser, thinking for a moment. Is explaining now to Papa the right time? But I also do not want to delay again about this new problem, let Nicko explain to Papa about Ben who was still alive, and then disputed the status of me who is still his wife.

I nodded my head. Then Nicko went straight downstairs and met Papa in his study. I looked at myself in the mirror and prepared myself to meet Mama and talk to her.

I went downstairs to meet Kara and Mama who were in the living room. Kara and Mama were playing snake stairs on the table with laughter and happiness. I approached them with a smiling face hiding my grief.

“Ianggg” my greeting to Kara.

“Mama.. here Ma, Kara is taught to play snake ladder with Oma” said Kara so happy her.

Then I sat down next to my mom.

“Can?” Ask me.

“Can dong Ma. Kara is smart” said Kara.

My mother kept looking at my face. I looked at Mama awkwardly.

“What's up?” Ask Mama who can guess the look on my face like I have a burden of trouble.

“Talk to Mama? What's the problem?” Ask her again.

“It's about Ben Ma” answer me.

Mama frowned her.

“What's with Ben?”

“Ben...” said I was so heavy saying it.

“Ben is still alive Ma, he came to our office” said I was sad to remember that.

Mom opened her mouth in surprise. He certainly did not believe what I said, but that was the way things were.

“Why?? Why can Ben.”

Mama looks hard to put words together.

“Iya Ma. That's also what I'm trying to figure out with Nicko, why Ben faked his death”

“Is he having problems?” Ask Mama.

“That's Ma, I'm not sure , but Ben used to say if his stone quarry was having problems. But I don't know exactly what her problem is like, it's just that Ben looks panicked and she went to Kalimantan exactly 1 month before I gave birth”

“Then?”

“Then 1 month later me and his family heard the news he died”

“Didn't you say you heard Ben died because he was in a plane crash back then? Did you and Ben's family get any evidence that Ben was on that plane?”

“Which I remember back then, only Mama Ben showed me the photo evidence of Ben's ticket before Ben came home to Jakarta, it was just as I was about to give birth to Kara in the hospital. And the plane that crashed was exactly the same as the plane that Ben” was going to take

My mom seemed confused to hear my story. He held his head and thought about it.

“Then did you guys have time to talk about the reason Ben did that?”

I shook my head.

“I was too angry earlier, I really hate her Ma. Because for 4 years I was made miserable by him, I continue to be accused by the Ben family of his death. Not to mention his company was destroyed, they wronged me and made it difficult for me to get a job. Do I still have to be able to hear her reason for pretending to be dead? While I'm tormented because of him?” My words are so sad.

Mama looks so sorry for me. He held my hand tightly.

“You don't have to worry. You already have Mama, Papa, Nicko and Kara. Let Ben problem you forget, now we will build your happiness back ya”

“But Ma. Ben said if I was still his wife, and he wouldn't let me marry another man including Nicko”

Mama held my cheek gently, then looked at me so deeply.

“Sayang. You know how Nicko is, you know Nicko better than we do. Believe me, Nicko will not let anyone get in the way of his happiness. Moreover, you know how great Nicko loves you right?” Mama tried to wake me up.

“Mama sure, if Nicko can not be blocked by anyone, he will not be possible to let others will hinder our happiness”

“What you must always believe in Nicko. Nikco knows how to protect you. Mama can trust it nak”

I digest what Mom says. Mama's right, Nicko loves me so much, he can't possibly be that easy to fall for just Ben's threats. Nicko will definitely be able to cope with Ben, and our marriage will be smooth as expected.