Love, Let it Get Lost

Job call

5 Years ago.

I was accidentally reunited with Ben at a big hospital. Ben was my friend in college, but Ben's intelligence helped him graduate faster than any of his other friends including me.

During college Ben often shows excessive attention to me, but I always respond to him with ordinary course. For several years Ben had been my friend in college, and he used to say that he loved me and just wanted to be around me. She didn't ask me to be her boyfriend, because she knew I would definitely refuse and stay away from her if she demanded that relationship status. Ben was one of my friends who understood me and my problems. Ben was looking for me when I suddenly disappeared on campus and he couldn't find me anywhere. She was so worried and curious about what had happened to me back then, but neither she nor Keysa got an answer to my disappearance. And I found Ben in the hospital when I almost ended my life.

And it was then that we exchanged stories and we ended up getting closer and Ben felt sorry for the journey of my life. Ben let me stay in his apartment and gave me everything I needed there. He is my life saver and I will never forget that. And a few weeks have passed Ben asked me to go see his family and tell him what really happened.

“Ben I'm afraid” I said to him.

“It’s Okay I'm here” said Ben clasping my hands tightly as we walked into his house and met his parents.

We sit at the table in the living room and the debate begins. Ben's parents look so angry with what has happened, they don't believe what Ben said and they are so angry and anxious.

“How many months has it been?” Mama Ben asked looking at me hatefully.

I just fell silent in fear and continued squeezing both my hands nervously.

“1 months, we just checked it today” said Ben answered his Mama's question.

His papa continued to stand firmly with his waist dabbling and gazed out the window restraining his anger.

“Papa did ask you to marry Ben immediately, but not in this way, but not in this way, Papa asks you to finish your new job you choose a woman who is well” said Papa Ben without turning to us.

“Pa. Fawnia is a fine woman precisely Ben who is not okay!” Shouted Ben defending me.

“If she was a good woman there would be no way she was like this!”

“This is all because I'm Pa! I forced her, because I love Fawnia” cried Ben by constantly trying to protect me. While I was just speechless and frightened with tears constantly dripping down my cheeks.

And finally Ben's parents gave up. They finally want to accept me as his daughter-in-law even though I am a girl. They seem forced to bless us for Ben's happiness, even though they still can't do me any good, but I understand them all and hope their nature will melt when our baby is born.

But my suffering was not finished, until 8 months of my marriage with Ben, I still have to continue my grief with the departure of Ben which coincided with the birth of our son. Of course all that adds to the wrath of the Ben family and they blame me for everything that has happened. After Ben's departure, his parents asked for Ben's property to be returned to his family and they didn't allow me to get a cent of Ben's inheritance. They want me to suffer.

But since the apartment and the small company had already changed hands to be my name before Ben died, his parents could not force to take it all. Let Ben's car and assets be taken over by his family, for me to have an apartment is enough to raise my son.

I woke up from my nightmare and managed my breathing calmly. I rubbed my eyes and looked at the ceiling to gather all my life. I have nightmares about my past. Maybe this is all because of the stress that continues to torture me, so that it makes me unable to sleep well.

This morning I was wearing white oversized pajamas with pants so short that my white legs looked so beautiful and smooth. I rolled up my long hair and opened the fridge which was higher than my height.

I take out the ready-to-eat food and fruits in the fridge and keep them in the pantry. I immediately made breakfast and fruit juice for me and Kara. I brewed my caramel milk first to accompany my activities in the morning. This caramel milk can always make me relax and warm. Caramel is one of the things I have loved since I was a kid. I will never forget the affection of my parents by always giving this caramel milk every day. I smiled as I remembered Papa and Mama and then took a sip back on the milk caramel.

After I finished preparing everything I sat down on my little sofa and just waited for Kara to wake up. I opened my laptop to check my application and hope today is my lucky day.

When I turned it on, there was a notification coming into my e-mail.

“Please,be good,plase be good” said I hope by continuing to shop atikan laptop and open the message that entered into my e-mail.

I’a first before I open the e-mail. Hope if it's a job offer for me. I read it carefully and clearly, then I rounded my eyes and continued to reread the message.

“Gue no interview?” Ask me not to believe.

“Gue no interview!!” Speak to me in a tone that is getting louder and happier.

I stood up quickly and continued to jump around excitedly and could not control my happiness.

“Yeaahhhh I have an interview !!” My yelling is getting hysterical.

Kara came out of her room with her eyes still soft and her hair was messy, she stood at the door and tried to watch me with eyes that still looked sleepy.

I woke up and fell silent to see Kara who had woken up because of my uproar.

“Sorry, Noisy mom huh?” Ask me to feel guilty.

Kara was still standing looking at me with sleepy eyes and nodding her head.

“Oh. Sorry” said I feel guilty.

I went straight to her and carried her to the bathroom to wash her face. I was so happy to get an interview offer at one of the property companies that I forgot what his name was. It's just an interview, but it's a good step for me to get this job. Because all this time the entire company was not interested in my application and my work experience with a status that was tarnished was not good. But this company tried to accept me for an interview first. I'm sure I'll be accepted into this company, I'm so sure, I don't know I'm just sure.