Love, Let it Get Lost

Flashback ‘first kiss’

I started to think of Nicko's parents as my parents too. I used to fight Nicko at the dinner table and Nicko always bullied me like he was working on his own sister.

In High School, we were still placed in the same school but this time we had different classes. Thankfully, I won't get bored of having to look at it all the time.

Even in High School, Nicko was always considered a school star because the older he was the more handsome, and his cold attitude never disappeared, but the women still liked him. All the students say that Nicko is like a Korean artist, which is true. I do realize Nicko is handsome and almost perfect, but maybe because every day I see his face, I become seeing him not too special.

The students at the school also did not come near me just because they wanted to know the information about Nicko. They know that Nicko and I live in one house, and we're considered to be a couple of sisters in the whole school. Yes of course they used me to know about Nicko. so annoying isn't it?

And even when High School, when I finally felt like a man, my closeness with the students at school was always failed by Nicko. She always bothered me when I was approaching other students, she didn't allow me to date, the reason being that she wasn't even dating,he wants me to focus on school and have good grades like him, but I'm sure, the reason is not just that.

The nature of him at school is just as annoying to me, he often pranks me or makes me angry to his snarl. But on the other hand, she always kept me in school, always around me making sure I was okay, even she always insisted on studying in the same class as me, she said,the reason for him was that he helped to record his duties, but surely the Teachers who realized it would immediately drive Nicko away.

I walked down the school hall, to catch up with Keysa and the others in the cafeteria.

“Hay Faw” greet a male student who suddenly in front of me among his many students passing by.

Gery's my classmate, but different. We met a lot at the OSIS organization and he used to look at me quietly and then smile when I looked back at him.

“Oh Hay” greet me with a sweet and shy blush.

“Later graduation ceremony, you have friends for prom?” Ask Gery.

Actually, Gery is no less handsome than Nicko. He often played basketball on the court and became the center of attention of all students there. A lot of people were after Gery, but I saw Gery a lot and stole a look at me.

I shake my head shyly.

“But” answered me with a thin smile and misbehavior.

“Then it..”

“Fawnia go same I” Nicko snatched our conversation.

He grabbed my neck without excuse. Irritatedly I stared at him lazily.

Why does he always know where I am. Thought I was then.

“Gue by Fawnia yes, not elo!” gerry said with annoyance.

“Whatever Fawnia answers, she will still go the same I” cold Nicko so cynically then she pulls my hand away from that student.

I looked at Nicko sharply, but Nicko ignored my gaze. I continued to embrace Nicko and walked away from Gery, I poked my head back at Gery who could only be silent in his place staring at me with a face I could not describe,I waved to Gery with a smile but Nicko grew his embrace made me almost choked and I hit Nicko's hand.

After Nicko dragged me far enough away, I removed his hand from my neck in annoyance.

“You know why the hell ?” Ask me annoyed.

“You have any problem with Gery?”

“I don't like to see Gery deketin you”

“What's the reason?” I asked him, hoping that he would answer according to my expectations.

Nicko looks silent staring at me so deeply.

“Because I don't like him”

I narrowed my forehead and smiled cynically.

“You don't like Gery because you don't know him yet Nick. You should find another reason for not liking Gery”

Nicko put both hands in his pants pocket and looked at me cynically.

“He looks sucks”

I shook my head, still unsatisfied with his answer.

“That's not Nicko's excuse, it's just your problem and his problem. I have nothing to interfere with your opinion of others” annoyed me.

Nicko looked at me disappointedly and then he just left me. I looked at him in annoyance as well. I wanted her to express her true feelings to me, I also wanted to hear her love me too, but it felt so hard for her to open up to me.

Graduation finally arrived.

This graduation ceremony was celebrated at night, and held a dance, so we had to wear dresses and shirts.

Mama Nicko bought me a nice dress in blue, and Nicko's suit also goes in blue. We look so good when we see ourselves in the mirror. My dress is short on my knees, with off shoulder making both my shoulders look beautiful, and the wavy hair that makes me even more beautiful. I've never seen my face this pretty in my entire life and Nicko must have seen it this time.*

We both came to school in Nicko's car that Papa gave him when he was in the 2nd grade of High School as a birthday gift from his Papa. And Nicko strictly forbade me to learn the car so that I did not run around a lot alone and could only be picked up by him.

We both got to school. The atmosphere of the night in the school was so crowded, the twinkling lights were already so coloring our school. Students pass by wearing their dresses with boisterous people talking.

Nicko and I walked into the school hall looking for our friends.

“Fawniaaa” shouted Keysa approaching me.

Keysa wears a beautiful pink dress and short hair in a pink bandana.

“Hay Key”

“Such beauty lo”

“Elo also” reply me.

“Elo is also very handsome Nick” said Keysa by staring in admiration Nicko.

“Thank you” said Nicko with a faint smile.

I could only look him in the eye so confident Nicko.

“Let's class sit there” said Keysa pulled my arm.

“I went there ya” told Nicko.

Nicko did not answer, he just looked at me who was walking away from him, then he walked over to his classmates.

I sat down with some of my friends at one of the big tables and greeted them one by one and praised them with the nice clothes they were wearing. After that, we took pictures together for a memento. Suddenly someone approached me.

“Hay Fawnia” greeting Gery who is so handsome with a black shirt, and his neat crest.

“Hay Ger” greet me with a sweet smile.

I open my hair behind my ears nervously.

My friends who noticed I looked so happy and teased me made me even more awkward.

“Beautiful to you tonight” said Gery staring at me in amazement.

“Thank you” I replied in a boisterous voice followed by a friend of mine who liked my closeness with Gery.

“In there is an exhibition of paintings of art members of my art friends” said Gery offered me to walk alone with him.

Keysa nudged my arm. He signaled with his eyes, I saw what Keysa wanted to show me.

Nickos. She was sitting with her friends, but her sitting position was facing straight towards me with her sharp eyes constantly watching me as if saying ‘don't be all sorts of’

I don't understand why I'm so scared of Nicko's look like that.

“Mmh.. I'm just here, along with other friends” replied me unkindly rejecting him.

I kept glancing at Nicko with my tail eyes, noticing if he was still watching me or not.

Gery nodded his head in disappointment.

“OK. Then I'm into ya”

“OK”

Gery left me.

I looked at Nicko cynically, he was still watching me intently, then I turned my eyeballs lazily and went back to talking to all my friends.

Keysa is the only person who knows so much about me and Nicko. Keysa also knows how possessive Nicko is to me, he always says if he always feels that Nicko has feelings for me, but I always deny it and quibble if we are in the house always fighting. Although my feelings are always calm around him, what is his name if not love ?

The dance began. I guess who I'm going to dance with that night.

Nicko's hand was thrust right in front of my face. I lazily clasped his hands and followed him to join all his other students dancing in the middle of the vast and romantic field with the colorful lights that lit up the night.

Nicko wrapped one hand around my waist, and the other hand held my hand. She pulled me attached to her body until there was no distance between us, I kept staring at her with her cynical. Nicko and I started dancing to soft music.

“Why? Disappointed not being able to dance with Gery?” Nicko asked me who kept bending my face.

“I'm just astonished. Why in so many women here do you even choose to dance with me?” Ask me annoyed.

“You don't want to?”

“Not want. But try to accept some women around you, so you can feel dating in school. Our school days are over, and even if you've never tried to date, isn't that weird?” Ask me, continue talking like a duck.

“How about you ?” Ask Nicko to quip me.

“Until now you have never been seen dating anyone else” said Nicko made me round my eyes not believing what he said.

She was unconscious or pretending not to realize, that I was like this because of her.

“How can I be close to other men if you are always around me?” I said so firmly.

Nicko just looked at me so deeply.

“You can't ignore me right?”nicko made me think.

“With your stubbornness, you should not care about me”

yes Nicko is right. If I wanted to, I could have a boyfriend right now regardless of Nicko always bothering me. But I chose not to do it.

“Why Faw?” Ask Nicko.

I still silently looked into Nicko's eyes waiting for my answer.

“You yourself what's the reason?” Ask me to back offend her.

“You can actually find a girlfriend with an ideal woman like what you want?”

“Why haven't you ever tried looking for her?”

Nicko was silent for a while looking me in the eye.

“Because you have closed the door of my heart Faw” replied, making my eyes not blink staring at him.

Our conversation has been so serious, supported by soothing, subtle music. The atmosphere around it is so calm, also the cold of the night that makes us want to always be attached and warm like this.

“I never know when these feelings arise. But I feel this feeling growing every day”

I still stared silently at Nicko hearing every word that came out of his mouth.

“Since childhood I have always been happy to be by your side. I always calm down whenever you're around me. I'm worried that I haven't seen you in a day. And I guess this feeling is just a casual feeling, but it turns out I was wrong”

“The more days I'm even happier to see you smile. I'm so happy to make you laugh, I'm sad to see you sick, I'm afraid you're not next to me, I don't even accept that there's another man approaching you, my feelings only got worse when I saw you starting to open your heart to others. I'm in love with Faw”

My eyes shone on Nicko's confession.

“And I'm sure, you also have the same feeling as me”

Turns out Nicko could feel my feelings all along. And it turns out what I think is true. We've been in love all this time.

I remembered my current position, which was already a kara and had only two Nicko parents who had been willing to raise me until now. What happens if they know if their biological children even love their foster children.

“Nick. It'll be hard”

“I know. But I can deal with it” answered him with full confidence.

“You know your parents will definitely not agree with the feelings we have. They think too much of us a pair of Sister Brother”

“I don't care about my parents' response. The only one who has this feeling is me, I have the right to decide where I feel is myself, and I choose you”

“Nick ..” ogled me.

Nicko held my lips with his finger, he asked me to be quiet don't talk much anymore.

Nicko brought his face so close that I could feel his breath.

“Don't Nicko” said I warned him.

I bowed my head, trying not to get carried away and remembered that none of this would work.

“I love you Fawnia” her softness makes my heart so vibrate and my breath feels heavy.

I looked back at Nicko, and the lights went out to darken our school. Nicko immediately kissed my lips in the middle of the dark around us and the boisterous cheer of all the students because of the electrical cohesiveness. She kept her lips on mine, taking advantage of the darkness and not caring about the surroundings that could see us even in the depths of the night. Both of my hands were already coiled around his neck and both of Nicko's hands were already hugging me so tightly. And before the lights came on I had already let go of the kiss.

The lights finally light up. Nicko and I looked at each other with happy smiles on our faces. First kiss's. This is my first kiss, and I don't know how much this kiss is for Nicko. But I was so happy to get that kiss from someone I loved so much for so long.

All the way home, Nicko was unceasingly holding my hand. I could feel how dear she was to me, because I had never seen her face this bright in my entire life.

“We still together?” He asked her while sticking his index finger at me in the car.

I smiled happily and then greeted her with my index finger. I nodded my head so confidently at this promise and we both smiled happily and then kissed back.

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