Love, Let it Get Lost

So tired

Her day at work.

I just came out of the HR room to provide company data. And it's like today it's so tiring, either because of the work, or because there's too much thought in my head.

I'm not excited about working. It looks like I'm so limp and messy. However, I still have to finish my work as usual.

“Fawnia” someone called me from the left aisle.

That's Bima, she's wearing a black shirt and a blue suit. He ran towards me in a hurry.

“Hay Bim” greet me with sweet.

Then Bima walked beside me.

“Not you meeting this afternoon?” Ask me still with no spirit.

Bima put a hand in her pants pocket.

“Iya. Meeting her quickly finished” replied Bima.

I just kept hugging my work file on my chest. Bima looked at my hand and then she smiled.

“Like her there was just engaged” Syindir Bima.

I frowned hearing Bima's words, then I glanced at her.

“I have always watched you, I have never seen a circular ring on your finger like now” his satire makes me stop stepping and realize what Bima said.

I immediately saw my finger and clenched my hand trying to hide it even though it was too late.

“Oh it. Yes.” I was brick to answer.

I don't know what to say, because my marriage to Nicko like his has not been widely circulated in the office.

“Like her you already get a partner to attend the wedding of Mr. Ferdy” said Bima increasingly confused me.

“What?” Ask me so I don't understand.

“Pak Ferdy is getting married. You haven't heard that?” Ask Bima.

Of course I know about Nicko's marriage, because it's with me that he's getting married.

I blinked my eyes and glanced around me to relieve my anxiety.

“Bim. I have to go to my room” said I avoid conversations that will only make me dizzy.

I was still confused how I would spread this news in the office, even to Bima I was still awkward to tell her.

I broke into my room and kept the files on the table rough. I sat down on my chair limply, I rubbed my face and tried to calm myself down. I need to be able to focus in order to get home quickly, I don't want to linger long at work which only adds to my fatigue.

Someone came into my room, and when I saw who came into my room, I felt tired and became worse and more lazy when I faced him.

Kirana. Dressed in her bicycle dress and long-sleeved, her hair visible in the beautiful hanging curls, she entered my room with a face so upset and a glare so sharp to me. I lazily serve him with a professional.

“There can be helped by Ms Kirana?” Ask me kindly and smile sweetly.

“Mana Nicko!” Ask her cynically.

“Pak Ferdy is having a guest in the meeting room, he cannot be disturbed”

“Tell him, if I want to talk! Now !” Say it with pressure.

His teeth were clashing with each other when he spoke, he looked so upset, he would still want to discuss about his marriage that had failed. And I also want Nicko to immediately solve this problem, so that one by one my problems disappear.

“Good Maid. In wait , I tried his assistant phone” said me.

Kirana no longer spoke, she just tried to be patient and also threw her face away from me. I immediately contacted Bima with the office phone on my desk.

“Hallo Bim”

“Iya Faw”

“Bim is meeting Mr Ferdy done?”

“Please convey to Mr. Ferdy there is Mba Kirana want to meet with his”

“Good, I convey”

“Thanks Bim”

“Sama-sama Faw”

I hung up the phone and looked back at Kirana.

“I have conveyed to his assistant, please wait a minute”, I said sweetly to him.

Kirana looked at me sharply. I know he still doesn't like me, but I know there's nothing he can do for me.

Nicko finally came, and he came into my room. Kirana who saw the arrival of Nicko immediately stood up and approached Nicko. I could only glance at them stealthily, pretending to focus on the computer that was in front of me.

“What else is it?” Nicko asked who sounded tired.

“What do you mean Nicko! Our marriage has failed, while I get news if you are getting married soon!” Kirana shouted with emotion.

He looked so angry, his eyes were wet, he glared at Nicko with a look of disappointment.

I hid my hand behind my back, so Kirana didn't see the ring Nicko had on my finger.

“Then why? What's your business?” Nick asked in a dislike tone.

“Why?” Kirana asked so dramatically.

I continued to listen to their discussion which was so clearly heard before me.

“Why did you say? You've hurt me Nicko, you've also made my parents disapprove of our relationship with that bullshit story!”

I remember the incident some time ago when the Kirana family came to the house and the Kirana family got a story about Nicko's secret.

“It's not nonsense. Everything my family says is true, and I don't care if your parents will accept it or not”

Kirana shook her head, she did not accept Nicko's statement.

She starts to get emotional, she starts to cry but Nicko just stares at her coldly. Kirana gripped Nicko's suit with both hands.

“You can play me Nicko. You can do this bad!” kirana said by shouting and rocking Nicko's body.

He looked at Nicko so sharply, I felt how disappointed Kirana was to Nicko.

I massaged my forehead, being so tired of seeing their drama unfolding so pitifully before me. I was confused as to why Nicko did not drag Kirana into his room, he argued before me, making me dizzy and my ears hurt.

“Since the beginning I've told you, I never had any feelings for you right? Who forced her to get engaged ? Ye. You also said, you will survive until you can make me fall in love with you, but what is the result? I still can't have any feelings for you. You must accept that, even after your parents know with the illness that I suffered, like his they so objected to accept me as his family”

Kirana held onto Nicko's cheek crying so sadly.

“Nicko. If it's my parents' blessing you think, I can handle it Nick. Please, don't hurt me, marry me Nick, I love you so much”

“I told you, I can't love anyone anymore, I've only loved one woman, and now I'm going to marry her”

Kirana looked at Nicko in surprise.

“You're going to marry the woman you've always loved?” Kirana asked in disbelief.

“Yes. The woman I loved so long ago”

Kirana investigates Nicko's face by trying to figure out who he means. I could only remain motionless and try to act ordinary.

“Don't tell me if that woman is a woman who is in your past” Kirana said as she glanced at me.

“He is not my past, he is my future, Nicko replied as he continued to stare coldly at Kirana.

Kirana's getting more convinced that the woman Nicko meant was me. Kirana looked at me with emotion, then I followed her with binging. I don't know what to do, and I don't really want to interfere in this debate, but I'm the culprit of their problem.

Kirana quickly approached me and Nicko did not realize what Kirana was going to do.

Platyp!!!