Love, Let it Get Lost

A moving meeting

This house has changed a lot since I left it last time but the memories inside it will never be lost. And then the memories of my life came back to my mind. I remember how Nicko and I used to be together in this house every day. How ignorant he is, how considerate he is, how he treats me so special in this house, I so vividly remember my sweet memories with Nicko in this house.

“How to want to walk around Opa house no?” Ask Kara.

“Mau” replied Kara without hesitation and also awkwardly.

I'm happy because Kara is so easy to approach with her Opa and Oma.

“Ya already, then we go for a walk in the house Opa ya later we eat ice cream, Kara likes?”

“Like Opa” Fun Kara.

“Then we go around first. Bye bye Mama and Oma” Papa told us both.

Then Kara obeyed her Opa remark, she immediately waved to the two of us with a face that was so cheerful.

“Bye. byee”

“Bye bye darling. Don't be naughty ya”

“Oke Ma”

Then stay the two of me with Mama sitting together with my feelings are still awkward. My face instantly turned nervous as I suddenly felt the tension of facing back to Mama Nicko, remembering the last time I left her with her state of annoyance.

“Sayang” call Mama Nicko touch my hand.

“Try telling Mama, what actually happened? Why did you leave the house, and getting married did not tell us?” Mom asked so sad and curious.

“The story is very long Ma” said me while downcast sad, because there is no way I tell all to Mama now. I hesitated to tell them the truth.

“Me and my husband Ben , married by force. Ben is sick, and he needs to get married” I said in outline, just like what I told Papa

“He's sick? What pain?” Ask her.

I kept quiet, looking for an excuse to lie to him. Because my honesty will only raise questions about Kara.

“She had cancer, and she asked her parents to get married. Then we met when I ran away from home, and a month later we got married. Sorry Mah, I didn't tell Mama because Ben's parents didn't approve of us, and Ben wants to get married. I've known Ben since we were in college, he's my college friend”

“Parent Ben doesn't approve of you?” Mom tried to understand my story.

“Iya. Ben's parents think I'm a woman who's not okay” says I'm stammered.

“Why can her parents think like that? What do they know about you? They can't insult Mama's child like that!” Mama's words sounded so upset, her children were treated like that.

But I tried to suppress his emotions.

“Ma. It's over, since Ben left, I've never wanted to admit they were like family again. And they'll never bother me again”

“Then why don't you go home, baby? Why do you have to go like that? Mama feels guilty to Jenny Your mother for not being able to take good care of you”

I immediately shook my head, not wanting Mama Nicko to feel that way. I feel sad because Mama Nicko mentioned my birth mother's name.

“Not Ma. I left because I thought it was enough to trouble you. You guys have been too good to me, you already want to send me to college and can work like now, it's all enough Ma”

Mama looked at me with grief.

“Fawnia. We are both your parents, although we are not your biological parents, but you should still respect us as your parents. No parent feels enough to take care of his child, even though his child has been a great success. Children are one of the biggest responsibilities of parents until we die. So you should never think if you trouble us. You are the only promise you have to Jenny, your mother, so please, help Mama to keep that promise”

I immediately hugged Mama Nicko so sad, I cried in her arms.

I'm sorry Ma. I've let you down. I've crossed my line with Nicko. I hope you can forgive me someday.

Then we let go of our embrace. I wiped my tears on my cheeks and rubbed my snot that was about to come out.

“How about Nicko? What happened to her wedding first?” Ask me, considering the events that caused Nicko and I to run away from home.

Mama seemed to be sighing, and she recalled the incident.

“Since your departure, Nicko continues to blame Mama because you never came back. He's been relentlessly looking for you. She resolutely rejected the matchmaking that Mama had asked for. In fact, he punished Mama by never talking to Mama until a few months Nak. Mama's so confused, what's wrong with you, and why Nicko won't lose you. Mama knows she loves you very much, but Mama just wants the best for her Son, Mama hope you understand”, Mama Nicko said with so dramatic.

“Ma. I left because I felt guilty to Mama, Nicko loved me too much Ma, he no longer considered me as his sister. Our feelings have grown into love, we are not children anymore, we are not siblings, our feelings cannot be forced. Therefore, I chose to leave, because I do not want Mama disappointed with Nicko, and I think with my departure, Nicko will obey Mama”'s will

Mama wiped the tears on her cheek and took her breath. Then he shook his head slowly.

“Nicko depression” said Mama made me round my eyes.

“Nicko was depressed after she searched for you for weeks. At first he fell ill and stayed in the room too unwilling to eat. When we took him to the doctor, the doctor suggested taking Nicko to a psychiatrist. And the psychiatrist said Nicko was depressed, he had to undergo treatment” said Mama increasingly made me surprised and guilty.

“I'm sorry Maa. I didn't know this whole thing was gonna be like this. I don't know if Nicko is still looking for me, please forgive me” I said by holding both hands Mama.

“Nak. You're innocent, the wrong mom. Mama should not force Nicko which resulted in Nicko being a lot of burden like that. But now Nicko is healed, even though not completely, but he is willing to farm his life better. And he is now finally willing to continue the company Papa as President Director” said Mama with pride.

“I know Ma” I said with a careful.

My mom looked at me confused.

“I work as his secretary Nicko”.

“You're Nicko's secretary?” My mom doesn't seem to believe what she's hearing.

I nodded my head while smiling.

“How long has it been?” Ask your mom, still looking confused.

“Not too long ago. And I met Papa last week at Nicko”'s office

“Why did Nicko never tell Mama?”

“Maybe Nicko waits for the right time to say his Ma. Or maybe he wants me to come to Mama like this”

Mama Nicko smiled again and gently stroked my hair.

“Then you go back home, son. Stay here, so that this house back to life” pinta Mama Nicko make me smile wryly.

“No Ma. I'm a mother now, and I want to take care of my own son at home”

“But you only live alone with Kara, if you live here, Mama can have friends here Faw, Mama can take care of Kara, Kara so no need babysitter.”

“Ma. I beg. It's not that I don't appreciate Mama and Papa, but I just want to carry out my role as a Mother, I don't want to bother my parents about that. And I also Kara will definitely visit you guys here often”

“Do not just visit. Stay here, accompany Mama and Papa” pinta Mama so sad.

“Alright” I replied with a smile to him.