Love, Let it Get Lost

Mama Nicko's Longing

The meal is over.

Kara and I packed our things in my room to get back to the apartment.

“Mah. Whose aunt Kirana is it?” Kara's question made me look at her for a moment and fold her clothes that had just been washed.

“Tante Kirana the friend of his Om Nicko dear. Why ?” I asked Kara who was thinking something.

“Tante Kirana won't take Om Nicko away right?”

I was surprised to hear Kara's question.

“Why does Kara ask like that?” Ask me.

“Kara dear Om Nicko, Kara does not want Om Nicko taken by others” Kara said sadly, as she understood the situation she saw.

I stared at him with grief. Even Kara felt the same fear as me, but not necessarily she understood our problems.

I held Kara's two cheeks gently. To calm the pouting Kara.

“Om Nicko will never leave Kara. He will not be taken by anyone, he only belongs to Kara”, I said so deeply staring at both eyes.

“Really?” Ask Kara doesn't believe it.

“Iya”

Kara smiled at me and then she hugged me.

“Kara Darling Mama and Om Nicko” said in my arms.

“Mama also dear Kara. And Om Nicko” answered me with haru.

I was sad to hear Kara who loved her own father so much in this situation. Keysa was right, this Kara is an innocent child, she shouldn't feel the consequences of the mistake that Nicko and I made. He deserves to be happy.

“Aduh romanticya” said Mama Nicko who stood in the doorway with a smile.

“Hey Ma. Here go in”

Mama walked up to us and sat down next to Kara.

“You want to go home Faw?”

I nodded my head with a sweet smile.

“Iya Ma. I haven't prepared for tomorrow, Kara has to go to school and I have to work”

I said with a smile and put Kara's clothes back in my big bag.

“Have you thought about coming back here?” Mama's question kept me quiet for a moment to digest her question.

“Indeed why? Why does Mama insist on me coming back to live here?” Ask me sweetly.

“Mama Lonely Faw” replied Mama with a sad face.

I looked at Mama seriously, I was afraid to see her sad, I didn't want to see her cry for the umpteenth time.

“Mama miss home atmosphere that used to”

My face turned cold.

“What kind of home atmosphere does Mama mean?” Ask me without expression.

“Warm atmosphere with you and Nicko. With his bustling in the afternoon, his many stories on the dining table, and there is always something special every week his” replied with so happy to imagine the thing he remembered.

I would love to tell him that the happiness he experienced back then was the happiness I had designed with Nicko to cover up our relationship. I've always been indifferent to Nicko, and Nicko always pranks me like a brother in front of his parents just to cover up our relationship. But I swallowed those memories.

“Ma. Please understand lah” said me while holding Mama's hand on her lap.

“Not that I don't want to go back to this house. But I've only grown up Mah, and I've felt a comfort zone with living alone with my son. I promise you, I won't make you lonely again. Kara and I will always visit Mama”.

Mama looked at me with a smile.

“Oma don't be sad. Kara later joined sad” said Kara looked at her Oma with pity.

“Oh dear” Mama directly herded Kara into her embrace.

“Oma is no longer sad. Oma's just afraid Kara doesn't play here anymore”

“No dong Oma. Kara and Mama will continue to come here Temenin Oma, so that Oma is not lonely anymore”

“Janji” Kara raised her right index finger to Oma.

Mama was surprised to see the promise made by Kara.

“Wah this is the appointment that is always done Mama Fawnia and Om Nicko” said Mama still remembers it.

“OK Kara has promised ya” Mama said while hooking her index finger on Kara's tiny index finger.

The three of us came down the stairs and we found Kirana and Nicko talking in the living room. Kirana looked solemnly speaking to Nicko who was just bowing his head while sitting down leisurely.

“Om Nicko” exclaims Kara while running towards Nicko.

Nicko turned his head and smiled when he saw Kara approaching him. Nicko immediately took Kara to his biennial.

“Have finished changing her clothes?” Nicko asked sweetly to Kara.

“Sudah”

Kirana seemed unhappy with Kara's presence among them. I feel sorry to see Kirana who continues to feel uncomfortable like that.

“Kara ayo” said I invite Kara to get off Nicko's lap.

“We go home now?” Nicko asked looking at me with his flat face.

“Yes Kara and I will go home now”

“Alright,ayo” I'm holding Nicko.

“Eum no Nicko. I've ordered cab”

Nicko looked at me confused.

“Cancel his taxi” pinta Nicko by ketus.

“My taxi is already in front of Nicko!” answer me with annoyance.

“Let Fawnia go home by taxi. Some of you will still have Kirana here, when you want to leave Kirana just like” said Mama.

Nicko just kept staring me in the eye.

“Me and Kirana are done talking” Nicko said coldly.

Then she walked away from us all, holding Kara. I shook my head looking at his stubborn behavior. Mama also sighed so deeply to see her son who was still like that.

I went after Nicko and saw what he was going to do. Nicko seemed to talk to the taxi driver I ordered, he took some money to the taxi driver and then the taxi just left Nicko's house.

“Loh. Where's the taxi going?!” I cried with surprise and tried to run after a taxi that would not be overtaken.

“Why did you tell the taxi to go?” Ask me to be upset with Nicko.

“I told you I'd take you back home” replied Nicko infuriatingly.

She walks back into her yard and puts Kara in her car. She also keeps her belongings in the back seat along with Kara. Mama and I could only watch Nicko who was out of control.

“Nicko” call Kirana.

“Nicko really you can stay in me anyway Nick!” Kirana shouted dramatically.

“We can talk about it again later” replied Nicko.

That it? Ask me in my heart what Nicko means. That's what they've been talking about.

“You coming home or not?” Nicko asked me curtly, before he got in his car.

“If you want to keep ordering a taxi please. Kara stays with me”, Nicko said, making Mama amazed by Nicko's attitude.

Then Nicko got into his car with a very upset face.

I immediately approached Mama and kissed the back of her hand.

“Ma I came home ya”

“Iya. Sorry Nicko ya nak” said Mama representing her son who was so annoying.

Like her Mama also felt if Nicko still had the same feelings as before for me.

I nodded my head, and I glanced at Kirana once more. He still threw his face at me, I knew he was starting to get hotter. But I don't want to be influenced by his attitude, let him not like me. I don't care about his presence either.