Love, Let it Get Lost

Flashback ‘traveling Parents ku’

A few years ago. When I was 5 years old with Nicko, I always played with him in the house garden near our house.

Nicko is my only peer and since our baby we have always been met by our parents who are so friendly. Moreover, my Mama and Mama Nicko, so friendly since they were teenagers until they married and had a child together. My birth and Nicko were only 3 months apart, so we were both the same age.

Nicko has always been a big brother to me, and even our parents always thought we were twins. Our house was only a few blocks different, so it was no wonder we met almost every day. My parents started making business for the future of my family, because it is said that my parents had been dumped by my grandparents because their marriage was not approved. That's how I heard that story from Papa Nicko or Om Rio.

Papa's business is starting to go. Papa started to have a small office for his business. Luckily Papa has high intelligence and knowledge that he took from his family, so Papa can easily change the fate of his family quickly. Then Papa helped Papa Nicko to join the business, and eventually their business was getting stronger. My papa taught Papa Nicko how to run his company, because he wanted his company to be held by Papa Nicko. Maybe Papa already has a bad feeling for his future.

Since sitting in the elementary school, Nicko and I have always been in the same school, so that when we were little Mama we could take us to school together. Mama Nicko didn't have a car, so always go with my Mama's car.

And after graduating from Elementary School, we are still in the same First High School even we can one class. So when there is homework, we always do it together, just like what happened on that terrible night.

When I was playing games in my room, Mama still looked so busy here and there preparing to sleep.

“Fawniaaa” call Mama gently when entering the room and clean my dirty clothes scattered and clean up the things I store anywhere.

Mama wore red sleeping pajamas, and her hair was so short as a shoulder. The skin is so smooth and still looks youthful for a mother model who already has one child.

“Hmmm” answered me with eyes so busy staring at the computer screen.

“Tomorrow Wednesday right?” Ask Mama.

“Iyaaa” answer me.

“Sports clothes have been put in the bag ?”

“Sudah”

“There is unfinished homework?” Ask Mama.

“Already Ma”

“Bener?” Ask Mama to doubt.

Then I remembered something.

“Tagaa” said to me in surprise.

“Nah kaannn” ledek Mama so know with the attitude of her son who is forgetful and careless.

“I have PR Physics Maaa, I promise I want to do it at Nicko” home I said and immediately got off my seat quickly looking for my physics book.

“Pelan darling ways if like that will not meet her book” nagel Mama help me find my book.

“Inii” Mama found my book.

“His note book?” Ask me.

“This” again he found her.

Then I kissed her cheek and suddenly just wanted to hug her.

“Thanks Mom. I love Mama” I said by hugging her so tightly.

“Mama also love you Son, will always love you”

Then we let go of his embrace and I ran out of the room in a hurry. I saw Papa sitting at the family room table with a newspaper in his hand. His tall, stout, white face, thin beards and glasses make him so dashing and dignified even in the house.

“Where do you go, baby?” He asked when he saw me coming down the stairs.

“I forgot there was PR Pah, and promised to do it at Nicko”'s house

“Need in between Mbak not?”

“No need I dare myself” said I and directly approached Papa and also kissed his cheek.

“I love Papa”

“Papa also love you Nak”

Then I ran back out of the house and headed for Nicko's house.

I opened the gate and ran towards Nicko's door. I pressed the doorbell until someone opened the door.

A few moments later, someone opened the door.

“Fawniaa” greet Mama Nicko with black nightgown and her hair rolled back. Her face is no less beautiful with Mama, they both really like to take care of their beauty since long ago.

“Hallo aunt. I have PR physics that I forgot to do. Nicko is there?” Ask me.

“PR ? Wah like his Nicko also forgot there was PR, because he had from earlier no work on any tasks”

I smiled hearing her. That's how Nicko is, if I don't do the job, Nicko will not do it either.

“Sana samperin her in her room”

“Thank you aunt” I immediately ran back upstairs to Nicko's room.

It's true Nicko is still lying in his bed with his cell phone in his hand. He was surprised to see me enter his room and I immediately lie down next to him with breath still panting.

“Why?” Ask her by continuing to play games on her mobile phone.

I put this physics book in Nicko's face.

“There is PR Physics in kumpulin tomorrow” I said by continuing to regulate my breath.

Nicko sidestepped my physics book and continued to focus on playing games.

“Ya already you are working on” his word coldly.

I woke up from my sleep and squinted my eyes at her who was still lying down with her relaxed.

“You think I'm your maid!” Say it with annoyance.

But he still doesn't care about me.

“Yes I've just gone home, I want to do it myself at home” threatened me while about to stand leaving her.

“Ehh don't don't don't do” said Nicko as he ended his game and kept his phone next to him.

“Iyaa let's work together” said Nicko lazily.

He went to the bookshelf to look for his notebooks. I got off Nicko's bed and sat on his floor carpet.

We started doing homework together in Nicko's room. Sometimes I solve the PR problem, and Nicko also check it. We laugh together, gossip together, and tell stories about events that we just went through with happiness. Nicko and I always spend time like this together until we forget, if we've grown up and can already feel how love is.

I always admired Nicko in silence, I always saw the change in Nicko's face that more and more looks handsome and so cool. In school, Nicko was always a school artist and admired many students there. But Nicko never responded, because Nicko is also famous for his cold and ketusnya attitude in school. In school even Nicko always followed me where I went, even he often accompanied me to eat in the cafeteria with my girl friends. Sometimes I feel that Nicko is my brother, but sometimes I always feel that Nicko is my protector.

I fell asleep as we were about to finish our task. I fell asleep on Nicko's carpet with a deep sleep right then and there, maybe the drowsiness that had attacked me was difficult for me to bear again. So that I can fall asleep like this. I actually felt my body lift, but my eyes were so heavy to open them, and I suddenly felt a bed so soft and a blanket so warm and comfortable, until it put me back to sleep. I felt a kiss on my forehead when I almost fell asleep, I was reluctant to see who it was, because suddenly I had entered into a dream.

I dreamt of Mama. He hugged me in a large meadow. And he was wearing all-white clothes to meet me.

“Part yourself well baby. You will find your happiness. Be patient, said Mama with a smile full of pain.

“Mama where to go?” Ask me so scared.

“Mama wants to go” Mama replied as she slowly moved away from me.

My leg's stuck, I can't catch up. Mama kept moving away while looking at me with her tears.

“Maa..Mom...Mamaaa!!!” My screams instantly woke up from my sleep with breath so breathless.

I sat down anxiously holding my head trying to give my life back. Suddenly Nicko came up to me and sat down next to me.

“Why?” Her question sounded so worried.

“I dream Mama go” I said frantically looking at Nicko.

Nicko rubbed my back.

“Already. It was just a dream. Back to sleep” pinta Nikco with her cold face.

I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself. Nicko returned to the sofa beside the window and was about to go back to sleep but I heard rapid footsteps from outside the room.

It was Mama Nicko in a panic she was standing in the doorway staring at me so sadly. His tears had already flowed so fast, he was silent it was difficult to open his mouth.

Nicko and I quietly looked at the old man who was just crying in the doorway.

“Faw... home mu” says Aunt Shinta.

“Why Ma?” Nicko asked his mother.

“Home Fawnia” mama Nicko looks so heavy to speak.

“Why my aunt's house?” I asked impatiently hearing her continuation.

“Your house Fire dear” said Mama Nicko made me round my eyes and get out of bed quickly.

I ran past Nicko and his Mama who could only be silent in disbelief.

I ran towards my house. I can't believe what Mama Nicko said. I kept running towards my house with a heart that was already pounding violently. I ran barefoot and kept touching the cold asphalt. From far away I have seen a fire so high, but I really hope that it is not my home.

The closer I get, the more scared. It was seen that many people had swarmed the house and some people were trying to extinguish it. But the closer I get, the more I can see my house that has been devoured by fire.

“Tidaaaakkkk!!!” I cried hysterically and in disbelief.

I ran to get into the fire looking for Mama and Papa, but Om Rio, Papa Nicko immediately let go of the water hose and caught me quickly before I managed to hit the fire.

“Mamaaaa... Papaa” shouted me by forcing me to go into my house which was devoured by the fire.

I cried so well, in Om Rio's arms and I kept fighting to get into the house.

“No, let go of me om release!” My cry to Om Rio tried to let go of me but he still tried to hug me.

“Fawniaa, relax, relax”

“Not Om no, I want to be with Mama Papa Om to feel me, please let go of my hysterical om” that forced me to enter my house.

“Honey please calm” said Papa Nicko heard he was sad to see my situation now.

“Let me go let go” yells me so hysterically.

“Fawniaaa” call Nicko who calms me down.

I glanced at Nicko behind me.

She was so worried about walking up to me, she also looked teary-eyed.

“Mama and Papa in Nick, Mama and Papa I was sleeping in” I said while grieving to Nicko and then I sat limply on the asphalt of the road.

I cried so much that there, I covered my face with my hands, unable to stand the reality before me.

Nicko hugged me tightly. He said nothing, just hugged me and calmed me down. I kept crying hysterically.

“Mama and papa inside Nick”

Nicko just hugged me tightly and kept stroking my hair.

“Only those I have Nick, I have no one else but them” I said with so much pain considering that I have no biological family other than them in this world.

“There is still me” whispered Nicko in my ear so deeply.

“I'll be next to you forever”

Whether it's a promise or just to calm me down.

He stuck out his index finger at me, with my still-great sobbing I tied my index finger tightly together.

Nicko's promise made me really calm.

Since then. I was taken care of by Nicko's parents. And they promised in front of my parents' funeral that they would take care of me and take care of me as best they could. And they really did. They took care of me like their own child and didn't differentiate themselves from Nicko. Nicko's parents asked me to call them Papa and Mama so that I could think of them as my parents, even though it was difficult at first,but in the end I can get used to call them Papa and Mama. At least I could feel my parents' presence in them.