Love, Let it Get Lost

Always waiting for me

After such a long conversation, Papa and Kara finally returned.

Kara ran quickly towards me and immediately hugged me.

“Have his walks?” Ask Mama Nicko sweetly to Kara.

“Oma Already. The house is very big, Kara was also playing to Mama's room first, and Opa said later Kara will sleep there, right Opa?” Kara's question made me glance at Papa in confusion.

“My room still exists?” My question was so silly that they both laughed.

“You think we can move her where?” Said Papa laughing.

“Surely your room is still intact from the moment you left. We always ask your room to be cleaned and make sure all the goods are not lost, because Mama is so sure, one time you will definitely return” said Papa while sitting next to Mama.

I am so touched by the kindness of this family. They still love me so much even though I've left them behind and done the mess, but they act like everything's okay.

My eyes started to tear.

“Ma. Kara also saw the pool, can't Kara swim?” Kara asked with her face.

“Sayang. You will not bring clothes again, next time we play here bring clothes to swim ya”

Kara's face turned so sad.

“Why want to swim?” Ask Mama to Kara.

Kara nodded with her sad face.

“Then let's go swimming, let Oma buy Kara a swimsuit at the shirt store near here”ujar Mamanya.

“No need Ma. Later if we come here again I will bring clothes for Kara”

“Sayang. Do you have the heart to see your child sad like this, let alone the first time Mama met him, Mama does not want to see him immediately disappointed like this” said again to make me touched.

“Already. Mama will buy Kara first clothes in front, there is a kok child clothes store near here in front of cluster”

“Kara can come?” Kara asked so innocently.

“Why you want to come?”

“Mau Oma” exclaims Kara with a happy smile.

“Alright then”

“Ma. Is it not a hassle?”

“Fawnia. Kara's Mama's granddaughter, nothing troublesome. The troublesome is you, too worried about us”

I was filled with words Mama,’Kara Mama’'s grandson.

“Alright” answer me with a smile.

“Let's buy a swimsuit” invite Mama Nicko to hold Kara's hand.

“Ayo Oma”

Then they went out of the house.

I looked at Papa Nicko who was sitting next to me laying down on the sofa.

“Pa. Can I see my room?” Ask me slowly.

“Whose house do you think this is?” Papa's words surprised me.

“Do not consider yourself a guest here, this is also your home, you are free to roam here without asking anyone's permission, continued his that makes me breathe a sigh of relief, because I think he had time to curse me.

I smiled back at her babbling. Then go from there and walk to the top floor, where my room and Nicko's were.

I held the door handle and opened it slowly. My bedroom was so bright from the light outside the window, my bed was so neatly arranged with a doll next to it. This room has been approximately 8 years I lived, and 5 years more I left it was never changed in the slightest.

The theme of the room is pink, ranging from sprai, blankets, sofas, study tables, paint rooms and other decorations are also pink. I approached my desk and saw the laptop and the books that were still stored there, and then I approached my large closet and opened it, all my clothes are also still neatly arranged in the closet with a fragrant fragrance that is so stinging, it looks like my clothes are always washed even though they were never used.

Then I walked up to the bed and stared at the table that had a photo on it. Fhoto both my parents, I sat next to him and rubbed the photos of my parents. I smile to see them in the photo, they look so happy taking pictures with a hug, I remember their togetherness which often looks romantic in front of me. I miss them.

Then I remembered my photo and Nicko on the wall right behind me. I stood up and turned my body, I saw so many photos that I put on the wall near my bed, that every time I woke up I stared at all the photos. I was really happy to take pictures with Nicko, then I printed and I put it on the wall of my bed.

I looked at the photos one by one. There are photos of us when we were 5 years old in the park, there are also photos of us using schools from SD, SMP, and High School, there is also a photo box that I paste there,and there are many more photos of the two of us with every moment together that I capture on the walls of this room.

Then I looked at a photo of myself and Nicko at our graduation, I took the photo and turned my body to see more clearly from the light coming from the door. In the photo I was wearing a blue dress and Nicko was wearing a blue suit, the photo was taken candidly or unconsciously when Nicko and I were dancing with happiness emanating from our faces. In the photo I was wrapping my hands around Nicko's neck and Nicko was holding my waist with his hands, we were looking with a smile and our friend was secretly taking pictures of us,and I remember exactly that was the first time Nicko kissed my lips and expressed his feelings to me.

Suddenly a smile of sadness emerged from my face. I smiled to remember the incident but I was sad to remember it all. I held back my tears and raised my head, suddenly I saw a male figure standing outside the room wearing a brown shirt, black cotton pants and leather shoes,standing so straight looking at me. I was surprised to see it as if I had seen a ghost.

Nickos. He looked at me coldly and did not speak in the slightest. Immediately I was panicked, embarrassed that Nicko had caught me smiling at the photo of us both,then I kept our photo back on the wall and kept silent and kept my back to Nicko hiding my awkwardness to him.

I heard Nicko's footsteps approaching me, but I kept quiet where I stood behind him.

“Why?” He asked her who was standing next to me and looked at the photo of us both.

“You remembered something about that photo?” Syndicated Nicko.

I kept quiet for a moment and tried not to look at her. I'm trying to find a reasonable reason to answer Nicko's question.

“Yes. I remember about our graduation at school” answered me looking for the right answer for her.

Then Nicko looked at me, but I kept throwing my face away not wanting to look at him.

“What Kara has come home with Mama?” Ask me to look for a diversion to avoid it.

I pretended to look for Kara at the door and was about to run away from Nicko's side but Nicko pulled my hand making me jerk into his embrace.

I was so surprised and stared at him with round eyes so wide, but he looked at me coldly.

“Why?” Ask her again.

“You remember our past?” His question made me silent.

“You missed her?” Nicko asked trying to read my mind.

I kept silently staring at his two eyes in confusion not knowing what to answer.

“Do you also still keep that feeling?”

I frowned and looked at him and laughed at his words.

“What do you mean?” Ask me while smiling very blandly.

“What feeling do you mean?” Ask me trying to calm down.

Nicko was still holding me, even though I was blocking our bodies with both hands, he just kept hugging me with one hand.

“Are you still going to keep playing like this Fawnia?” Her sharp question made me go back to silence and stare at her in fear.

“Until when will you pretend like this?”

I still locked my mouth, and looked at her nervously.

“I will wait for Faw, will always wait for you” said Nicko who made me more nervous.

Then suddenly she kissed my little lips making me jerk at her, then she let go of her embrace and left in front of me.

I was still stuck standing in my place and my mind started to waver with Nicko's words and attitude that he had just done. He kissed my lips, and said he would always wait for me. I started to get nervous and scared at the same time.