Love, Let it Get Lost

I'm sorry Pa

New day at the office. With new feelings and new happiness with Nicko. Finally I no longer need to pretend not to care about him and not ignore him, now I can smile at him at any time and can see Nicko with affection.

Today I wear a long-sleeved gray silk blouse shirt and wear a black sponge skirt on my knee. My hair is made wavy and tied to make my work super busy today easier.

When I was busy braining my computer someone walked into my room with a tall, dashing body, and wore dark blue office clothes. Papa Nicko's. I was surprised to see his presence and then I stood up and greeted him politely.

“Papa want to talk to you also Nicko” said Papa with a very serious face.

I'm getting tense. I remember my problem with Ben's parents the day after tomorrow, does this have anything to do with it?

I walked into Nicko's room following Papa. Papa sat down on the sofa by removing his suit button and sighed so deeply. Nicko and I threw eyes at each other and sat on the sofa side by side in front of Papa.

“Why did Prawira company cancel its cooperation?” Papa's question made me close my eyes so embarrassed.

It turns out this is about Ben's parents. I said in my heart while bowing my head.

“Yesterday Mr. Bowo called Papa and said if our cooperation is canceled. And when Papa asked what the problem was, he asked Papa to ask you directly” I kept bowing my head so scared to look at Papa Nicko.

I'm ashamed to have messed up their business, I'm afraid this will be a big deal for our company, but I'm more afraid that Papa knows what really happened.

“Pak Bowo and Bu Irene are the former in-laws of Fawnia Pa”.

Papa looked at me confused.

“Truely Faw?” Ask Papa.

I nodded slowly, continuing to bow my head.

“Then what's the problem? Why can they not cooperate with our company? Do you have any personal problems with them ?” Ask Papa to interrogate me seriously.

“They were shouting at Fawnia in front of everyone Pa, even Irene's mother said that if Fawnia wasn't a good woman, she also related about Ben's death in front of everyone,is it appropriate for Fawnia to be treated like that in front of everyone?” Nicko replied with annoyance given yesterday's events.

“Why can her Mama talk like that to you, son, what have you done to the point of making her that angry?”

I clenched my hands together, I couldn't come straight to Papa, I wasn't ready, I kept my head down to hide my panic. And I'm sure Nicko saw my fear.

“That's because..” said Nicko I don't know what he will explain.

“Because I was pregnant before Ben and I got married” answered me cutting off Nicko's words which I feared gave his Papa honesty.

“The mother also continues to blame me for Ben's death, she blames me because Ben died on the way when he was about to approach me who was giving birth, he said,even though Ben died on the plane he was on because there was a mistake in the engine of the plane and killed the entire crew, Papa must have seen the news 5 years ago, it's definitely not my fault,and plus they don't get custody of Kara Pa, either, because I had more right to take care of her on their appeal and it made them hate me more, said I began to shed tears because it hurt so much if I remember that time.

Papa was silent to my so pathetic explanation.

“I'm sorry if I messed up all of Pa, but from the beginning I was professional with them and said not to bring up our personal problems, but they told me everything in front of everyone, leaving me ashamed and cornered. Then I left there and Nicko chased me”

His papa leaned his body on the sofa and sighed so long. I kept clenching my hands to hold back my anxiety, I wiped the tears on my cheeks. Nicko helped wipe my tears, he looked so sad. He strengthened me with his profound gaze.

“They should not be like that to the child Papa” said he began to feel annoyed.

“Should they know attitude as a CEO. Personal problems should not be mixed with business problems!” His annoyance.

“Papa should talk to them!” Said Papa directly standing up from his sitting makes me panic and anxious.

“Papa going to where?” I asked so frantically to stand with Nicko.

“Papa should straighten this out with them. Shouldn't they treat you like that, who do they think they are? It can be as nice as saying if you are not a good woman, she should also blame her child for causing you to get pregnant !” I glanced at Nicko with the tail of my eyes, and Nicko was seen glancing at me.

I'm sure she felt overwhelmed by what her Papa said. Then I looked at Papa closely.

“What will Papa do if there is in their position ?” I ask carefully.

Papa looked at me with a frown. Then he looked at Nicko, the only boy he had so much faith in.

“There's no way Papa's son would do such an embarrassing thing”

My heart instantly became broken so to pieces hearing Papa trust Nicko so much like that.

“Nicko is certainly well-educated by us and he would not have possibly put us in a position like Ben” parents.

I tried to hold myself back. My breath feels so heavy. My heart started pounding so fast, now the fear came back to attack me.

Papa immediately walked quickly outside the room and was chased by Nicko. Nicko tries to stop Papa and persuades Papa not to mess with Ben's family. Of course Nicko also had to stop his Papa from seeing Ben's parents, because if that happens, Ben's parents will definitely explain everything in detail. And Kara's secret will finally be revealed.

I dropped myself on the couch and started crying. I'm more afraid to tell them the truth about Kara, I'm afraid they're going to hate me like Ben's parents were under different circumstances. I don't want to hate a lot of people anymore. I want to live in peace, I don't want to be hated by the people I love.