Love, Let it Get Lost

Cctv works well

I was so sick to hear Mama's words.

“Ma. Didn't you realize that Nicko and I were growing up?” Ask me by looking into her eyes.

Mama Nicko looked at me all over.

“The atmosphere of the house that Mama misses is the atmosphere that has actually been lost for a long time. All this time the hustle and warmth that Mama witnessed in the house was just a pretend an to cover my feelings and Nicko” said me by holding back my sadness.

“Me and Nicko, it's been a long time since we've harbored the feelings of each Ma, but we're trying to cover it up for each other, because of what? Because we both respect Mama and Papa who continue to think of us as if we are Kaka's sister Blak” said I began to shed tears.

My mother looked at me sadly.

“I know Mama loves me so much, and so do I, I love Mama as much as I love my own Mama. I have so much respect for you, because other parents don't necessarily want to treat me like their own biological child”

“But we are also ordinary people Ma, can not escape from mistakes, I also can not avoid the mistakes I feel since I grew up, which is to love Nicko. I don't know since when I've loved her, ever since I was a kid, since I went to school, or when Nicko and I were together everywhere, nor do I know when that feeling grew. But I feel like it's Ma's fault, believe me. I also feel like I shouldn't have loved Nicko. I tried to suppress the feelings I had for Nicko, I instead tried to throw this feeling away”

“But it turns out Nicko looks a lot in love with me right Ma? She was instead willing to fight with you guys just because of me, she was depressed because of me, she lost her spirit of life because of me”

“Mama shouldn't look at me from the bad side. I left home for those 5 years for you. I left Nicko for those 5 years because I wanted to honor Mama. When Mama asked me for help to make Nicko comply with Mama's wishes, all I had in mind at the time was to just walk away from her. Mama knows for herself what kind of hard character Nicko, do not be by me, by her own Mama she always explain Ma”

“After 5 years I tried to leave Nicko it turns out that even now Mama has not succeeded in making Nicko obey Mama's wishes right?” I really can't stand all this anymore. I have to make Mama aware of everything that has happened this is not entirely my fault.

My mother was silent as if confirming my words.

“This is Mama's fault, Mama should realize that after all, you are not siblings, you should know if you will grow up and have feelings that can not be controlled,and Mama shouldn't have brought you together like this. Raising you in one roof, and making you even fall in love with each other” said Mama with pain.

I was getting sick listening to Mama's words as if there was regret from her words.

“What now Mama regrets having taken care of me ?”

Ask me to confirm my understanding of Mom's words.

“Entah Mama is just confused, Mama can not disappoint Jenny who has helped Mama” a lot

My mom looks very confused.

“If all Mama has done so far is to return the favor of my Lady of the Heart, Mama has done it. I've grown up, I've been educated, I've had a decent education and life with you, and now I've grown up, I've been able to make my own money and I can live independently. Mama no longer needs to be confused to think about the kindness of my Miss Bladder who is gone. Mama has already paid her”

Then not long ago the sound of door codes was heard from inside the house. Someone tried to get into my apartment by pressing the door code, and the door opened wide.

Nickos. He only wears a white shirt and dark blue cotton pants, it looks like he is about to go to work but is in a hurry to come here.

“Nicko” Mama was so surprised to see the presence of Nicko.

“What are you doing here?” Ask Mama while turning her body.

“I'm supposed to ask, what's Mama here?” Nick asked with a sharp look.

“Mama wants to talk to Fawnia Nak, did you know Mama came here from Bima?” Tanya Mama suspects Bima.

“Not” replied Nicko.

I remembered about the cctv that Nicko installed yesterday, I glanced at the Cctv that was at the top of this room. Turns out his cctv worked well for her.

“Mama what do I need here? Want to ask Fawnia to go again?” Sindir her coldly.

“Mama never asked Fawnia to leave, Mama just wanted her to help our family Nicko”

“Help what?! Help my wedding and Kirana?”

“This is for your good!” Say to your mom again and again.

“That's your kindness is not for my good!” Annoyed Nicko.

“Mama don't remember I was depressed because of this? This is not Fawnia's fault, but Mama's and Papa's!”'s fault nicko said with emotion.

I saw my room making sure the door was still tightly closed, I hope Kara doesn't hear this debate.

“I did this engagement, because I was tired of hearing your babble that was like using me for the benefit of your company. I got engaged to Kirana just to keep Mama quiet, I'm tired of being constantly lectured on the same thing by y'all”

Her mother was silent and upset by her son's words.

“I don't want to marry Kirana”

“Then who do you want to marry? With Fawnia?!” Shouted Mama as if she did not accept it.

Mama looked at me and Nicko in turn.

“Why are you so selfish with your feelings? Can't you care about us who just want the best for you?” Mama said with a swirl.

“This is also for the good of Fawnia Nicko, if we succeed someday Fawnia will also feel the results. And if you attach importance to your ego and force yourself to defend your love, your company will never move forward. And do you want to disappoint your parents who are gone Fawnia?” Mom asked to offend my dead parents.

“Company built desperately by your Papa, do you want to destroy it just like that?”

“But not by sacrificing me as your victim right Ma?” Ask Nicko who is getting upset.

Mama was so surprised by what Nicko said, as well as I was immediately overwhelmed to hear his words that were too excessive. Mama approached Nicko with a facial expression that was so upset.

“Do not talk carelessly Nicko, Mama does this also for you”

“By sacrificing my happiness?” Ask Nicko.

Plaakkk

Tightly Mama slapped Nicko's cheek. My eyes accidentally closed because the sound of Mama's slap being so loud shocked me.

“Mama is tired of continuing to argue like this” said Mama with so sadness. I'm sure Mama certainly did not have the heart to slap Nicko, but because of his annoyance that had peaked finally his hand floated on Nicko's cheek.

Nicko looked into her Mama's eyes filled with anger. She held her cheeks while continuing to look into both of her Mama's eyes which were already equally emotional.

“There is something that my mother did not know so far” said Nicko made me back round my eyes looking at Nicko.

From Nicko's facial expression, I'm afraid that he's going to unlock the secret of Kara.

“Nicko!” Shouts me warning him.

“There is something Fawnia hid from Mama and Papa for several years this”

“Nicko! Please!” I said so softly and pleaded, for this is not the time to speak the truth.