Love, Let it Get Lost

All for Kara

One more day. I woke up to the anxiety that has haunted me every day. Since my company went bankrupt and there is nothing else I can defend in my husband's legacy,I should've struggled to find a job out there for the sake of my son Kara and for the sake of my survival.

There are so many companies that refuse my application, because my name has been blacklisted throughout the property company. I must swallow this reality bitterly. I have to endure all the consequences I have not done at all. But I received it with a spacious chest, because I was sure, one day my fate would turn out to be good as my name was wrapped with do’a by my parents.

I glanced to my left side, and saw my little angel still sleeping soundly. I stroked her cheeks gently and kissed her forehead.

“Good morning my little angel” whispered to Kara who was still asleep.

He slightly moved with his eyes closed, yet he again fell silent and let out a long sigh inside his sleep. I opened the blanket and covered her tiny body, then slowly climbed down from the bed.

I came out with a way to sneak noiseless and occasionally glanced at Kara afraid if she woke up. I don't want to interrupt his mornings that look so good.

I went into the kitchen pantry and made a warm tea for myself. The sound of the house door security code sounded something pressing and I just glanced at it for a while then returned to my warm tea. I'm not surprised who came, because only one person knows my apartment's security code.

Keysa opened the door with a face so tangled.

“Why lo? Early in the morning I was aja” said me by continuing to stir my tea.

Keysa blinked his eyes when he looked at me, he opened his high heels and went into the apartment and sat on my living room couch so lazily.

I walked up to her and sat down next to her.

“Why the hell?” Ask me again.

“Lamaran lo rejected again” replied Keysa with a face that was so upset.

I leaned back on the couch lazily when I found out what had made Keysa's day so bad so early.

“Ya lah” said me resignedly.

Keysa suddenly looked at me in surprise and looked at me with a frown.

“What's wrong with ?” Ask her with emotion.

“Faw, inget yes, your savings stay a little longer, one time Kara must go to school and you have to live your life so you are not displaced. You want to find money when if ga from now on?” Keysa asked again to remind me of the bleak future that awaited me.

“Belom again in-law lo the rese. You want Kara's custody to be taken with them and you won't have anything else!” Her determination again made me even more afraid.

Then Keysa tried to control his emotions and tried to be calm to me.

“Gue is not a billionaire who can help you forever Faw. Someday I will get married, and I will definitely join my husband and leave you also Kara”

I breathed so deeply.

“Ya already married, you can lift me as a lo” chirps me make Keysa more frown.

Then she threw the sofa cushion beside her in annoyance at me, and made me laugh loudly.

“Lo nih yes I'm serious also”

“Ya really, if I become your maid, you don't need to stay I” said I can't see Keysa seriously.

“Faw. Life must go on. So please, you should be able to find a way out” said Keysa gently and seriously looking into my eyes.

I turned to sit beside Keysa while keeping my cup and held Keysa's hands gently. I stared into Keysa's eyes so deeply to make him calmer.

“Key, I'm sure, I'll get a job, and I'm also sure that I won't lose Kara. You have to believe me, everything will be ok” said I was so sure.

“Faw. I don't believe you, but I'm worried that everything won't go the way we expected”

“Key. Mindset is important too. Inget, if your positive thoughts will all go well, but if your negative thoughts are rich in gini, yes everything will go like what you are thinking Key. So stop to worry about me and Kara excessively”

“Yes I'm rich because.”.

“Because you love the same we” cut me who already knows the continuation of that sentence.

Keysa sighed.

“Gue know you love very much the two of us, as well as me and Kara, I'm really the same lo, but I don't want you constantly and worry rich gini with our situation Key. Trust me, I can definitely get a job, the idea will be a way out, and I'm sure, Kara will always be next to me”

Keysa just kept staring at me worriedly.

“But I also need lo, to support me and Kara. I only have elo, and you always have to believe in me and me as well as Kara”

Keysa thought for a moment while looking into my eyes, then he smiled so heavily at me that we hugged and strengthened each other.

Keysa is like my diary who knows all my problems and my life every day and I write in that diary, he is a good listener,she is the only person I trust to date, she is not only a friend to me and Kara, she is also like part of our family.

Every time she visits my apartment and plays with Kara, she even helps me if I'm bullied by Ben's family who haunts me all the time. Ben's family still hates me. They don't want to admit that I'm part of their family, and all they want is Kara. Ben's parents have started hiring lawyers to take custody of Kara for reasons I don't have anything and can't raise Kara well. But until now I am still trying to defend Kara by asking for 1 more month to prove I will find a decent job for Kara.

Her night. Keysa and I were busy in the kitchen preparing our dinner. During the day Keysa works and comes home from work she always stops by to see me and Kara for dinner together before she goes home by herself.

“Lo won't ask for help Om Rio?” Keysa asked as she dismembered the vegetables in her hands

“Key, dong already. I don't want to be in touch with them anymore. I would never ask them for help. I've been missing them for years, and I don't want to suddenly go back to the Om Rio family and ask for his help. How do you feel their reaction is like ? The person they had taken care of from childhood, and after adulthood he left the family without.

“But Faw, if the road is deadlocked , Om Rio is one way for you to save custody Kara” said Keysa behind me. I immediately turned to look at Keysa so tired he heard the discussion about Om Rio.

“Stop Okay, we discussed this. I'm sure there are still many ways for me to make money” said me by restraining my emotions and go from the kitchen while carrying food on a plate.

I approached Kara who was sitting sweetly at our round dining table. Kara looked out the window and stared at the city lights that were far below.

My apartment is on the 15th floor, and it's downtown. This apartment is so magnificent has 2 rooms, 1 living room, 1 family room, kitchen pantry and a round-shaped dining table enough for the three of us. Our window was so big that we could see freely out of the apartment without having to go to the balcony.

“Karaaa, ready-p” food exclamation me.

I tried to forget my argument with Keysa in front of Kara. I don't want Kara to see our tangled faces.

“Yeee eat” screams her cute and adorable.

“Sini Mama first her hair”

Her hair was so long that her waist and hair were straight and black just like me. I tied Kara's hair like a ponytail and confirmed her messy bangs.

Keysa caught up with us and brought 2 more dishes of side dishes for our dinner.

“Waaa fried chicken!” Kara's eyes were so rounded when she saw her favorite food brought by Keysa.

“Yes fried chicken, Kara seneng?” Keysa asked in her tone like a child.

“Seneng Aunty” answered her funnyly.

“Today well not same Mama?” Ask Keysa.

“OK. Kara today is good right Ma?” Kara asked me with a serious look.

“Iya Kara well today, ga recalcitrant, ga crybaby, and nurut same Mama”

“Tuh right, Kara is not recalcitrant today Aunty” replied so proud of the answer I gave.

Keysa continued to smile at the behavior of my son who was always adorable.

“Then Aunty has a surprise for Kara”

“Surprise?!” Her question was so enthusiastic.

Kara seemed impatient with the surprise that Aunty would give her to Kara.

Keysa reached into the bag behind her and picked up something inside the brown bag she was carrying from the morning.

Then he showed me a jar of light brown candy inside.

“Taraaaa..

Kara looked so happy and immediately took over the small jar from Keysa's hands.

“Waaa Kara” favorite candy said by continuing to look at the jar with a very very very happy expression.

“Tell me what Aunty Keysa” said I remember.

“Thanks Aunty” said Kara adorable.

“Sama-sama Kara's. Now we eat first yes already eat us brush our teeth and sleep, continue to eat his candy can when?” Keysa asked her to test her memory.

“Tomorrow lunch, and can only eat 2 a day, because if many teeth Kara damaged continue toothless Kara can not eat again”

Kara's words immediately made me and Keysa laugh because of her adorable answer. He's a kid who's grown up, and he's getting smarter.