Love, Let it Get Lost

Ghost to me !

Nicko glanced at me in surprise when he heard the name I had said even though he could slowly hear it. Then Nicko came back to see the man I kept looking at in disbelief.

My eyes kept wide open to see Ben walking towards me in the follow with 2 other people in neat suits walking behind him. Ben walked towards me with a very different face and a more manly posture. He looked so different now, he was more dignified, more handsome, and more muscular. He looked at me with such a happy face.

Devina was also confused to see me who continued to look at Ben as if he had seen a ghost. But it's true, I have seen a ghost in front of me. I saw the man I thought was dead now walking towards me.

After realizing I immediately cleaned up my things that had fallen on the floor, Devina helped me with confusion but she did not speak anything at that time. Then we stood back up. I bowed my head hiding my fret at seeing Ben really in front of me, and this time not in a dream.

“Good morning Mr. Ferdy” greet Ben to Nicko after he gets in front of us.

He reached out to Nicko for a handshake, and Nicko greeted Ben's hand in confusion.

“Pagi” reply Nicko with cold.

Of course Nicko and Ben certainly know each other, because in college they had met several times on campus when Nicko invited me home. But this stale base is only as their professional nature.

“Sorry Mr. Ferdy I came to your office so early, because there are important things that I have to talk about our cooperation” said Ben.

Nicko glanced at me. I still look at Ben in disbelief. Because the man I had considered dead for four years, was now standing before me.

“Sorry sir, I have a meeting now, I have been waiting, maybe we will reschedule our meeting. Or we can meet according to the schedule that has been set” said Nicko because indeed Nicko's presence has been very much awaited by his employees in the meeting room.

“Oh then may I discuss all these things with secretary Mr Ferdy?” Ben looked at me with a hopeful smile.

Ben certainly knows, if the thing that will be conveyed is important, of course Nicko will certainly represent me to hear all the problems about our cooperation.

“Fawnia?” Call Nicko wake me up from the confusion.

“Sorry I have to accompany Mr. Ferdy for the meeting. I will call Bima to accompany you to discuss”, I said while staring at her with cynicism even though my heart was still turbulent staring at Ben in front of me.

“Come Sir. We have been in wait” said I asked Nicko to step away immediately.

Nicko just followed me, he nodded pseudo to Ben, and Ben could only return the nod with resignation.

Ben looks disappointed in me. He was eager to hold me back, yet he couldn't because this was the scope of work. So he could only stare at me disappearing from the elevator. After the elevator doors closed, my breathing was like tightness, I was like a confused person seeing Ben suddenly appear.

“Faw” call Nicko he stares at me with worry.

I looked at Nicko with fear.

“That's Ben, Nicko, that's Ben!” I said I was trying to convince Nicko that it was Ben we knew was dead.

“But why..?? Didn't you say she...?” Said Nicko like it's hard to string words together, but I quite understand what he means.

“Iya it is, it's information that I know all along. And Ben's parents believe in that death, you see for yourself, don't you see how Ben's parents blame me for Ben's death?” I convinced her by reminding Nicko of what happened at Ben's parents' office.

“Then why did he suddenly come back to life?”

“I also still can't believe he's alive” I said in a panic.

Nicko held my hand tightly.

“It’s Okay. We'll find out what his destination is”

I could only watch Nicko calm me down. Because I'm actually still very worried about seeing Ben alive, I'm afraid that it's going to be a new problem for me and Nicko. After everything is done, after finally me and Nicko will live happily, why should there be new problems that arise in my life? Is the suffering I'm going through still not finished?

During the meeting, Nicko and I seemed unfocused on our meeting. Nicko tried to focus on seeing the percentage of his employees who were in front, while I could not focus on this meeting at all. I still look so scared and confused. Nicko was worried about seeing me.

“Stop Milen” pinta Nicko to Milen his finance department.

“Iya Pak” Milen replied and then stopped his percentage.

“Sorry for today I will leave this meeting to Zayden and Bima. All meeting results you can leave to them, and if there is a discussion you can discuss to them for a while”

Everyone in there threw eyes at each other. But none of them can voice to just ask ‘what is it?’.

I could only shut up, too, because I knew Nicko was so worried about me, and he got distracted thinking about Ben, my ex-husband.

“Ayo” take Nicko to me.

I nodded my head at Nicko, and tried to hide my confused facial expression in front of everyone. I packed my laptop and meeting luggage into my bag and went out with Nicko.

Nicko walked so quickly outside the room and he immediately went to the elevator to take us back to our room.

I leaned against the elevator wall and stared blankly in front of me. Nicko approached me he held my arm.

“Faw. You need to talk to him” Nicko said with a heavy heart.

I'm sure Nicko doesn't want to see me talking to Ben, the man who helped me a long time ago and wants to marry me. But he had to let it go, and fight his ego, so that all my problems and Ben could be solved. Not to mention we're going to have a wedding soon, I don't want Ben to bring trouble to my household that I haven't built yet.

“Yes. I know” answered me with a dazed look.

“You should immediately discuss about Kara, about me, and also you”

I let out a breath of hearing Nicko say.

“I just need one discussion with his” timpal me without turning Nicko and imagining Ben.

“Talking about my suffering so far that has been made by his” continued me cynically.

I was so angry with Ben, because he's been putting so much pain away as long as he's not around. He has brought me down because of his death, and now he is present again in my life by acting as if nothing has happened. I hate him so much.