Love, Let it Get Lost

Nightmares

I was in such a large meadow, I glanced back and forth and there was not a single person in sight. I kept walking around looking for someone I could ask for help but there didn't seem to be anyone here.

“Hallo, can anyone help me?” I started to scream with fear.

“Hallo!!” Shouted me by starting to cry while continuing to walk so limped.

“Fawnia” call a man's voice out of nowhere.

I glanced here and there looking for the source of that voice.

“Iya I'm here” I answer to people who don't know where.

“Fawnia where are you?” Shouted the man's voice that I can't yet guess whose voice it was, but I was hoping it was Nicko.

“Fawnia!” Shouts that voice again.

I kept circling the meadow looking for the source of the sound it came from.

“Iya. A. I'm here” I screamed in reply.

Then from far away was a man who walked quickly to me.

His face has not been seen so clearly because the sun's light makes his face glare.

I smiled as the man approached me, even though I didn't know who he was yet. But I kept believing it was Nicko and I walked up to the man.

But I was so surprised when I saw the face of the man who was walking towards me. My steps stopped.

“Ben!” Call me slowly.

Yes he is Ben, he walks quickly and frantically approaches me.

“Fawnia” call her.

“Ben” then we embrace with sadness.

Then I let go of her hug and looked at Ben's face carefully making sure if it was her.

“Ben, where have you been? I'm worried waiting for you”

“I'm fine Fawnia, I've been somewhere”

I kept staring at her with sadness and happiness.

“How's our son's caramel? Is our child grown?” Ask Ben.

My face turned confused, I forgot that Kara had met her real father.

“Surely her face is beautiful like yours right?”

I was so confused how to explain it to Ben that he didn't look disappointed.

“Kara's... Kara's been living with her birth father” I said carefully.

Ben was surprised to hear what I said.

“What? Kara's been with Nicko?” Her question looks once she can't accept it.

“Ben, Nicko is his birth father”

“But you promised to make Kara my son”

“But you go Ben, Kara needs the figure of a Daddy”

Ben shook his head with all his might.

“No.. You broke your promise Fawnia”

“Ben listen, you just disappeared after Kara was born I can't keep lying to Kara, and make Kara live without Daddy”

“No, you promised to make Karamel my son” Ben really look so worried, he did not accept my decision.

“Ben please understand, this is not easy for ku”

I keep trying to keep Ben quiet.

“No.. no.. I have to find Caramel!” Ben said with annoyance and panic.

He let go of my grasp and ran somewhere.

“Ben... ben!” Call me keep trying to call Ben and chase him before he gets Kara.

“Ben!!” Shouted me with fear.

Then I woke up. My heart was beating so fast, I immediately sat down and held my head. It was all a dream, but it all seemed real. I glanced at the clock already showing at 13:00. I adjusted my breathing and closed my eyes to make me feel calm.

I washed my face before I went downstairs to see all of her. I looked for Kara and I found her in the back garden, sitting in the middle of the flower garden with her Opa. Opa is seen showing some flowers around her to Kara, and Kara looks so calm there with her Opa.

I still remember my nightmares. All of a sudden I was afraid that Ben would take away the happiness I already had, but I immediately fended off all the nonsense that was on my mind. Maybe the dead can come back to life. Then I walked with a smile towards Kara and Papa.

“Aduuhhhh, very exciting like” said I made them both compact to see my arrival.

I sat down next to Kara while putting on my sweet smile to her.

“Iya Ma, Opa is telling me about Mama and Papa as a child in this park” Kara said with her sweetness.

“O yes?” I asked with a smile while looking at Papa.

“Iya Ma, said Opa, Mama Sama Papa as a child is very happy to play water in the park, keep Papa's shirt with Mama wet”

I laughed at the story, and then remembered how funny I and Nicko were as kids.

“Iya darling”

“Ma” call Kara.

I looked at him with a smile.

“Mama, have you ever told me about Papa Nicko to Kara?” Ask her innocently.

I was shocked to hear his question. I looked at Papa confusedly.

“That's because Mama wants Kara to know from Opa-Ju” answered me so convincingly.

“Iya. Mama would have forgotten, if Opa will have a strong memory” replied Papa helped me answer.

Then Kara laughed.

“Yes already, now is the time for Kara to rest yes dear, Kara must recede, let Kara Cepet heal” persuade me.

Kara shook her head with a frown.

“Kara still wants to be with Opa” she said while advancing her lips so adorable the way she sulked.

Papa smiled at Kara's words, she stroked Kara's hair.

“Kara darling. Kara has to rest first, actually said Mama, so that Kara is healthy and we can play again” said Papa.

“If Kara has healed, we swim again yes Opa” pinta Kara with cute.

Papa nodded his head while smilingly looking at Kara.

“Promise Opa?” Kara again issued her index finger to pledge their promise.

Papa directly pulled out his index finger as well and hooked it on Kara's finger.

“Janji”

Then they both smiled together.

“Ayo” take me while carrying Kara who already feels this heavier.

“Ma?”

“Mmm” I murmured to scowl her.

I lie down next to Kara.

“Is Papa Nicko right Papa Kara?” Ask Kara who is still curious about Nicko.

Kara's curiosity is so strong, she must be confused by the presence of Nicko who suddenly became her Papa.

I tilted my body towards Kara and propped my head up with my hands.

“Iya dear, Papa Nicko it is Papa Kara”

“Then why papa Nicko just came now? Papa Nicko left Kara?” Ask her with her innocent face.

I was so excited to hear his question. I still can't explain anything to Kara, because she's too early.

“No darling. Papa Nicko has never left Kara or Mama, but Papa Nicko is just busy working”

“Really?”

“Iya”

“Then now Papa Nicko do not work, let Papa Nicko not leave Kara again”

I shifted my body closer to Kara and stroked her head.

“Papa Nicko, will no longer leave Kara. Now Papa Nicko will be here with Kara, Oma,Opa and Mama”

Kara's face turned happy.

“We'll stay here Ma?” Tanya Kara looks so happy.

I saw her so happy she could know she was gonna stay here.

“Iya”

“Together Oma and Opa?”

“Iya. Kara happy?”

“Happy Ma, Thank you Mama, I Love You”

“I Love you too dear”

Then we hugged.

After I put Kara to bed, I went straight back downstairs. I saw Mama in the kitchen accompanied by her housekeeper who was busy washing dishes.

“Hay Ma” greet me to Mama who is busy slicing meat.

“Oh you finally came. Kara's asleep?

“Sudah”

“Help Mama to prepare this lunch is too late”

“Did Mama ask me to come back to this house just to help Mama cook?” My face with a very lazy face.

Mama clucked and looked at me with annoyance.

“You know, since long ago Mama never wanted to help anyone to cook except you”

“You were taught by Mama to be smart to cook, and our family will eat the dishes you make yourself with a happy feeling, he said,anyway if you want to cook our feelings it must be good if our feelings are again ugly, no doubt the taste of his cooking will be chaotic ”

I smiled at his advice, while helping to slice the onions.

“Do you not want to be loved in-laws if you help cook?” Ledek Mama made me stare at her and digest her speech again.

In-law?

“Mamaaa..” call me lethargic, because he might joke like that.

“Why? You will be the son and daughter-in-law of Mama, you should also help Mama cook right for your husband?”

Mama kept on teasing me, but I kept putting my pouting face on her.

“ayo fast” pinta Mama with hands constantly busy cutting meat.

I cut back the vegetables that seemed to have been prepared for my part and we both cooked together like we used to.

When the food was ready, Mama called Nicko and Papa who were in Papa's private study.

The two of them came together and immediately sat down at the dining table. Papa sits at the end of the table, Mama sits next to him, Nicko sits on the other side of Papa and I beside Nicko. We started eating.

“Wah, the food is very good, this must be Fawnia also help cook right?” papa praised me.

“Of course, he should start cooking again in this house” said Mama.

I smiled at them.

“Then you must immediately find a new secretary to replace Fawnia Nicko” said Papa made me surprised to look at him.

“What? I'm replaced?” Ask me with an unacceptable face.

All silent did not answer, and Nicko just looked at me as if he did not want to interfere with Papa's wishes.

“Pa. Let me just work ya” pinta me with memelas.

“Why?”

“Yes let me have a work”

“Your job is taking care of Kara at home” said Mama helped Papa while preparing food for her husband.

“Pa,Ma please, I still want to work, I still want to feel busy working in the office, after so long I just home with Kara”.

They remained silent not answering.

“Nick” I tried to ask Nicko for help, but he just shrugged his shoulders as if he really couldn't help me.

“Ia. Papa let you work” Papa said at last.

The expression immediately turned happy.

“But you have another Papa office? Working as a boss” said Papa makes me smile.

I never have a problem going to work anywhere as long as I do not stay home, I still have to help the company of Papa Nicko and my late Papa so that the business continues forward with my intervention.

“No!” Nicko said firmly, making all his staring confused.

“If Fawnia wants to work, she can only work with me, I don't want her to work alone to take care of everything”

“Why?” Ask Papa

“Ya because.” Nicko looked confused to answer her.

“Because Fawnia is not necessarily able to take off her own hands Pa, she still needs to explore everything first, she could be sloppy”

I frowned in annoyance at her. Because as nice as he was talking like that, when compared to him, I was smarter about managing his work.

Papa nods his head justifying Nicko's words.

“Good. In that case, teach Fawnia as best you can, if it is ready, tell Papa, so that Papa can directly move Fawnia to another place”

“Oke” replied Nicko coldly and returned to eating.

I kept looking at him suspiciously. I'm sure that's not the only reason he won't let me move out of his office.