Love, Let it Get Lost

Bima's hidden conversation

After arriving at the office, Bima and I drove Nicko up to his room and I handed him some files and then I went back outside and walked into my desk.

Bima also stopped in my room and she approached me.

“Faw. You hungry?” Ask Bima.

I looked at him and nodded my head with a smile.

“I'm hungry too. Because all our work is done and Mr. Ferdy is also resting, how about we go to the cafeteria first” take Bima.

I nodded so in agreement with his invitation.

“Alright” answered me and I first saved all my maps on the table and left with Bima.

I don't know if Nicko noticed my departure with Bima or not, but I tried not to glance at her room and quickly left from there.

Until we are in the cafeteria on the ground floor of this office. This canteen is outside and looks like a small restaurant that serves some kind of heavy food to snacks for all employees who work.

Bima and I sat at one of the round tables and waited for our order to come.

“Faw. Actually, it has been a long time I want to discuss this with you”, said Bima made me tense.

I was very suspicious of what talk Bima wanted to convey. This must be about Nicko. Because Bima is the only person who is always with me also Nicko. Even he also knew how the good attitude Nicko gave me was so different, to the point of making Bima always look confused.

I immediately drank my lemon juice to moisten my esophagus which was starting to dry.

“I liked you the first time we met”

I choked on what Bima said. Until I almost spouted the drinking water that was in my mouth.

“Faw..Faw!” panicked Bima held my back.

“It’s Ok. It’s ok.. I'm fine” said I blocked his hand that was holding my back.

“Sorry. I was surprised by what you said as I gulped, and rubbed my lips with tissue.

“Iya I know, this is too rush”

“Very Bim” timpal me.

“But I really can no longer hide these feelings for you Faw”

I looked at him confused.

“When I first met you, I already felt that if you were a good woman, you were beautiful as well. And as time went on I felt more and more that I had fallen in love with you, you were persistent in work, you were friendly to anyone, even.”

“Bim stop!” My words stopped her nagging which would only make me nauseous to hear her.

I exposed my hair behind my ears before I was ready to speak seriously to Bima. I confirmed my sitting position and shifted my body to be closer to Bima.

“We don't know each other very well. You don't really know me yet, what my background is, how my life is, what my problems are, and how I actually behave outside the office, you haven't seen all that

“That you know is only me acting as a secretary to Mr. Ferdy, and how I carry out my profession. You don't know my role outside how right?” I tried to make Bima understand.

“But we can get to know each other while living his”

“It won't be easy Bim”

“How do you know if we just haven't tried his”

I shook my head while rubbing my forehead which started to get dizzy with Bima's words.

“Bim. If you bring me here just want to talk about the heart. I better go” said I threatened her by about to stand but Bima held my hand.

“Faw wait.. briefly” his panic.

“OK I'm sorry. I didn't mean to force it, just that I liked you too much Bima's face turned grim.

I feel bad for Bima. But I can't keep talking about his feelings that will only make the situation more complicated.

“Bim. The likes you have may be natural. But as good as it is, our relationship is maintained like this. I never expected to have a more serious relationship within my scope of work. Because it will greatly complicate my work” said I try to make Bima understand.

Bima was still silent, whatever he was thinking, he looked disappointed and confused.

I touched Bima's hand on the table so gently.

“We can be a good working partner without special relationship. You may keep the feelings you have, but don't demand me to reciprocate his” pinta I stare at him so deeply, while continuing to hold his hand on the table.

“Please Bim. You're the only friend I trust here, and to be honest I never expected anything to do with you more than a coworker. So please, don't make your feelings any further yes, and make me disappointed with you” I said so expectantly.

Bima smiled again even though she looked heavy, but she seemed to be able to accept my answer.

“Good. Thank you for not berating me when you reject her” Bima said making me smile at her speech.

“Ekheemmmm” sounds someone throttling beside us.

Nickos. He stood firmly beside us with his hands inserted into his pants pocket and stared at Bima so sharply.

Bima immediately let go of my hand and stood up to greet Nicko.

“Sore Sir. Can I help you?” Ask her anxiously.

“What are you doing here?”

“We just want to eat Pak” replied Bima.

I sipped my drink again by not ignoring Nicko.

“You” said Nicko staring at me.

I stood up lazily and stood beside Bima.

“You forgot I asked you to prepare my suit?” Her question was so sharp

I looked at Nicko with a smile that was so sweet but so forced.

“Sorry Sir. I guess you are still resting” replied me sweetly.

“I'm asking for my suit now in prepare!” Pinta Nicko was so strict.

It is very desirable that I curse her at this time, because her selfish attitude that really never goes away. But I reminded myself again of who Nicko is here and what my job is for him.

Nicko turned his body and walked away from us. I looked at Bima.

“I am first Yes Bim. Sorry I can't accompany you. Next time we eat out”, I say I make Nicko stop his steps and glance at the two of us behind him cynically.

I feel like Nicko doesn't like seeing my closeness to Bima, but I don't care. I walked with Nicko to his study.

Arriving at Nicko's room, he immediately sat on his couch and looked at me coldly and sniffly. I kept ignoring her and walked towards her closet and took her shirt and suit for her to wear.

I showed him the suit he would wear for dinner later.

“I don't want, it's too bright” then I lazily go back to choosing his suit and shirt.

“I like his suit, but do not like his shirt” said by continuing to comment on the clothes that I often show him.

“Not”

“Not” he just keeps pranking me by rejecting my clothes of choice.

“Colah. If you feel that all these clothes are not suitable for you to wear, why are you still storing these clothes in the closet?” Ask me with annoyance.

“Because I want to save her” answered her casually.

“Ck” I clucked by squinting at him.

“Then why don't you just choose your own clothes for you to wear, why bother me if all my choices are not suitable? Or you can just phone your fiancee right to help you choose a suit?” I was annoyed with a little yelling at this boss of mine. I intentionally offended her fiance in this debate.

“What am I asking for his opinion?” Tighten it to me.

“Yes so he can choose which clothes you deserve to wear meet him tonight!” I was so upset that it sounded so scary.

Nicko turned his face lazily. Like her she was lazy to talk about Kirana. He has no comment at all.

With emotion I returned to choosing clothes for her. I picked a dark blue suit and a light blue shirt and I took it out of the closet, and I put it in the hanger near the file cabinet.

“I'm asking you to wear this. And if you refuse her again, you better choose yourself don't trouble me!” Threaten me with annoyance and walk straight to the door to get out.

“Where are you?” Ask her.

“You came out” answered me without turning her head and kept walking out.

“You are back to eat with Bima?” Her question sounded muddled.

I was annoyed to hear him ask like this, then I turned to look at him so sharply

“My appetite is gone. I want to make a drink” answered me by mendelikan eyes.

“Make caramel milk? Can you make it for me too?” Ask her carefully.

Actually he doesn't need to ask that question, considering he is a boss of course he can tell me as he pleases. I felt that I had oppressed him and made him dislike me.

I didn't answer and went straight from there. I made her both of our favorite caramel milk and the memories of the past come back to mind.