Love, Let it Get Lost

Finally uncovered

“You can't go anywhere” said the man who stood beside us gallantly and somehow since when he stood there.

Papa's. He stood in the middle of the hallway holding a bag and hanging a suit in his other hand.

I was surprised by Papa's presence, and Mama looked at her husband with tears still.

Papa came up to us and looked at me sharply. I could only look Papa in the eyes with tears in my eyes. I was so scared of his look. I'm afraid he's disappointed with what he's heard.

“Is what Papa heard right?” Ask Papa with an incredulous look.

I nodded my head weakly. My heart was beating so hard, I was afraid of Papa's gaze like that.

“Today Kara is Papa's grandson?” Ask Papa again. And I answered him with another nod of the head.

Mama was still silent behind Papa as if she was thinking out loud, whatever she was thinking.

“You raised Papa's grandson alone?” Ask her again.

“I'm sorry Pa”

“Today Kara is Papa's grandson and you hid her from us?” Ask Papa, looking in disbelief.

“Pa” I stared weakly at Papa.

“I know what I did with Nicko back then was a big mistake, I know what we did was really unforgivable. But I beg you..”

I paused my sentence to describe my sadness.

“Please don't hate me” I said so pitifully.

“Benar” says Mama finally makes a sound.

My mother looked at me disappointed.

“What you guys did it really can't be forgiven”

I was so limp to hear Mama start to be disappointed in me.

“You have done things beyond the reasonable limits, you are too annoying your ego just because of the feelings you have”

I was still sad to hear Mama's words.

“But the presence of Kara, is the best gift for Mama” he continued to make me round my eyes and look at Mama in disbelief.

Mama started to smile at me even with tears in her eyes, she could still smile.

“You know ? 5 years ago Mama once berTO’a so that Nicko get his love and get married, so Nicko can quickly give Mama a grandson who will warm the atmosphere of the house. Because Mama has started to feel lonely Fawnia, Nicko has grown up, and you too. Mama so more often alone at home without any warmers that accompany Mama”

“Mama is sick Faw, Jenny knows that. Mama can't get pregnant anymore”

I looked at Mama still not understanding.

“Mama has been sentenced to not be able to return to have children other than Nicko. Mama's womb is lifted for Mama's recovery, and Mama is so happy when Mama can take care of you. Mama already considers you her own biological child, Mama is so happy to be able to raise you with Nicko, until Mama often forget if you are not born from the womb of Mama. Mama never thought if you would grow up and would love each other”

“Maybe these are all answers from do’a-do’a Mama. Mama always ber’a for the good of Nicko, Mama always hope Nicko find his happiness. Mama is always worried if she can not find her own way of life, because Mama knows very well how Nicko's behavior is always cold to assume the future will be easy to face”

“He doesn't know how cruel his life is now, he doesn't know how Mama and Papa struggle to get at this point. But it turns out Mama salah”

I also became sad with the caress of Mama's hand that felt so sincere.

“Mama apologizes, son, because Mama is too selfish to be able to succeed Nicko and never understand your feelings. Mama shouldn't treat you like this”

I continued to grieve in both hands of Mama who kept holding both of my cheeks.

“Mama apologise. Mama was so guilty of Jenny. She will definitely be disappointed to see her child treated like this by her own best friend”

I shook my head with all my might.

“No Ma. My mom took good care of me. I am grateful that I was raised by you two” said I dismissed Mama's prejudice while looking at the two parents who stood before me.

Then the three of us hugged with a sense of haru and happy.

At last. All the secrets about Kara have been revealed . And it turns out, everything I was afraid of never happened. Keysa's right, Nicko's parents are much different than Ben's. Nicko's parents don't even berate me or hate me, they welcome me and Kara well. I shouldn't have been prejudiced about them, I should have been able to feel this happiness long ago. But maybe this is the fate God wrote for me.

The three of us sat down near the ICU room waiting for Nicko who was still gone to be taken by the doctor who handled Kara.

“Nicko does have thalassemia disease like Mama” said Mama by staring blankly ahead.

I glanced at Mama who was sitting next to me and I began to sharpen my hearing to hear Mama's story.

“The disease is a Faw-derived disease. Disease was brought down from his father Mama. And finally Nicko and Kara were affected by the impact of our disease” said Mama felt guilty.

“Then. Before marriage, Mama was so frustrated that she had to get a blood transfusion from the hospital once a month to survive and live a normal life. Mama was so tired of doing it all, until finally the doctor said if Mama did not get a blood transfusion, Mama's life will be threatened”

I kept quiet about this new story I knew.

“Until your mother Jenny finally brought Mama to Singapore to undergo treatment before she conceived you. She helps you to meet with the best doctors who can handle your illness. And the results are not 100% cured, Mama still has thalassemia disease with a minor category, or can be said to be harmless. But it's still a disease, right?”

“And Mama was also sad when Mama knew Mama was pregnant with Nicko, Mama had to accept the fact that Mama had lowered Mama's disease to Nicko. Mama frustrated and confused, Mama decided to lift the womb Mama, Mama is afraid all of Mama's children will suffer from the same disease as Mama. And finally Mama tried to bring Nicko to Singapore as well to prevent the disease lodged in her”

“But late. Thalassemia is already in Nicko, and cannot be cured. Although the disease is not visible, but the disease can go downhill, and if not treated immediately, it will actually get worse. Mama is also actually afraid that the disease will be passed down to the grandson of Mama later, because it will be very painful if Mama knows your grandchildren will have a painful disease. And it turns out that what Mama was afraid of happened. Kara is bearing the consequences of being born of our descendants. Mama is afraid, Mama is late to cure Kara”

I saw Mama feel so guilty. Papa stroked Mama's back lovingly. I also held Mama's hand to strengthen her.

“Ma. Kara is a strong boy. Even though she's a kid, but I'm sure Kara can get through all this. Kara has your blood, which is very strong. So I'm sure that Kara can definitely hold out for all of us”

My mother looked at me sadly.

“Mama..” said Mama like to say something but so heavy.

“Mama still does not expect if Kara is the grandson of Mama”

I smiled at him.

“I also never thought if I had a child from Nicko Mah. Every night I always look at him who is sound asleep beside me, and still feel if all this is just a dream” I said sadly.

“Thanks Nak. Thank you for giving birth to Kara into this world, and want to raise her own so far” said Papa with a smile.

“I never regretted giving birth to her Pa. Kara is my strength, she always makes me survive to live in the trouble I'm going through. She's my little angel”

“She was also a little angel Mama before Mama knew if Kara was Mama”'s biological granddaughter.

Then Mama returned a sweet smile to me with her face that still looks sad.