Love, Let it Get Lost

Nicko !

I immediately ran into my apartment and looked for Keysa and Kara.

“I nahaanggg” shouted me cheerfully.

I threw my little bag and greeted Kara who was already running wanting to hug me.

“Uh iannggg. Today good same aunty Keysa?” Ask Kara.

“Good dong Ma. Aunty Keysa ajakin Kara play snake ladder earlier”

“Kara pinter ga play?”

“Pinter dong”

Then Keysa approached us both. He walked looking weak and his face was so tangled. He doesn't seem excited.

“Hay Key” greet me with a smile that is not separated from my face and does not care about the tangled face of Keysa.

“Tau ga? I finally got the same interview with HRD. And tomorrow I will have an interview with the main director to know what I have not done for work there” said me with so proud.

“But I am sure very, if tomorrow also I can certainly pass the interview with the President Director. I'm sure 100%”

Keysa looked so anxious yet he forced a smile out of his lips.

“Lo why?” I asked her to look at her confused.

“Hah?” He looks so weird.

“Ngga. I'm nothing,gue just a kecapean aja” Keysa replied by pointing Kara.

“Iya yes sorry. Later if I really work there I will rent Baby Sitter for Kara”

“Iyaaa” Keysa replied still looks clumsy.

But I don't care about Keysa's weirdness because I'm too happy for now.

I gave the caramel to Kara as I promised. And I immediately changed my clothes in a casual dress and pinched my hair like a ponytail.

Keysa had gone home earlier this afternoon, and as usual only Kara and I were left in the apartment together. We spend time in the living room and play here and there with pleasure.

Then when the clock was showing at 21:00 I immediately tidied up the pantry table and Kara's toys.

“Karaa now what time is it?” Ask her to let her see if it's her time to enter the room.

But Kara still looks cool playing in the living room with her iPad.

“But Kara still draws Ma”

“OK. Mama count to 10 and drawing her must be finished ya” pinta me by giving her time to finish the drawing.

“1…2…3…4…5…6…7…8”

Kara looks very rushed to color the flowers she made on the ipad. Although it looks messy and abstark but the picture of the flower looks pretty shaped.

“9...10. okay times up” I said as I approached her and tidied up her ipad.

“Oke” answers without resisting or sad.

“We continue again tomorrow drawing it ya”

“Oke” answer again.

Then she followed me into the room and brushed my teeth in the bathroom.

I was so happy to see my beautiful little angel always looking so happy. It doesn't feel like he's getting older and older.

Why is time so fast ?

Ask me inside when we were brushing our teeth together in the bathroom sink. He went up to the table to keep up with my height and to be able to see himself in the mirror. I smiled at her anxiety and stroked her cheeks with my fingers. Kara was silent and so seriously brushed her teeth.

When we finished, we got ready for bed.

“Oke bedtime”

“What's up?” Ask me wonder.

“What will Mama stay in Kara?” Her questions made me feel full.

“Why does Kara talk so rich?” I asked her so worriedly and tried to calm her down.

“Because Mama is going to work, and Mama wants to save Kara with others”, she said so innocently.

I smiled hearing that and stroked her hair gently.

“Hey. Mama is not Kara. But during Mama's work, Mama can't take Kara to Mama's workplace, because later her boss Mama is angry with Mama, and Mama can't work there again, Mama can't work there, continue if Mama does not work Mama can not buy Kara toy dong”

“Kara do not what do Ma ga in buyin toys, from Mama ga di anurain boss Mama. If the boss Mama Mara later said Kara ya”

I smiled back to hear it. She's grown up too fast and it's getting scared of me losing her.

“Iya darling. Mama would say Kara”

Then she hugged me tightly and was full of affection.

“Love you Ma,good night”

“Love you too Kara, and good night sweetheart”

Then we both fell asleep hugging.

Tomorrow comes again. That day I rushed quickly to meet the Chief Director in his study on the 10th floor and in a different building.

I asked the receptionist for permission again and he asked me to sit outside the President Director's door.

I sat up sweet and sweet. Justifying my hair and my clothes to deal with this big boss. Then the receptionist's phone rang so loud, and the woman immediately picked her up.

“Hallo” said when the phone was stuck in her ear.

“Oh yes pak” answered who had received a call from whom. But he spoke while looking at me.

“Oh well sir sorry. Yes Pak”

Then he hung up the phone and stood looking at me.

“Mbak Fawnia”

“Iya Mbak” answered me while approaching him.

“Mbak has been waiting inside by Mr. Ferdy” said the receptionist.

“Oh okay well Mbak”

Mr. Ferdy is the name of the Director of this company. I thought in my heart.

Then I slowly opened the big door and went inside feeling nervous. It turned out that the room consisted of 2 doors, the first one I had just passed was a smaller, empty-looking workspace, with its many folders and files lined up on the desk and cupboards behind it. The table looked empty, I thought where the people were, so the table looked so neat untouched. Then the next door is the main Director's room door made of thick glass so I can see directly what the contents of the Director's room are like. My heart continued to beat as I entered this vast and magnificent room. And most of the walls were made of glass so I could see out the building beautifully.

Mr. Ferdy is receiving a phone call with his cell phone and staring out the window. And I just stood waiting for him to order me to sit down. He kept talking to someone on the phone, sounded so serious and kept turning his back on me. His stature is not much different from Mr. Zayden whom I met yesterday. But it looks like Mr. Ferdy is much more authoritative and very neat and handsome maybe, because I only see the back of it.

Finally, Mr. Ferdy looks to have finished talking to the person on his phone. I am ready to face it. He turned around with his face still down staring at his cell phone.

I probed Mr. Ferdy's face, I sharpened my vision, I was like seeing a ghost. My eyes began to widen to see clearly his face, without me noticing my mouth opened a little because I was so surprised to see the face of Mr. Ferdy. My heart was racing, as I felt my heart start to go wrong. His sharp nose, plump eyelashes, and white skin that was so smooth and handsome, made me easily recognize who he was.

Nicko !

Say me in my heart.

My eyes kept wide open in disbelief. My body is shaking violently. My hand squeezed the map I was holding, I immediately turned my gaze to the floor in panic.

The man I've been avoiding for years, now he's standing in front of me. He had already been so transformed into someone so gallant and dignified. Nicko, my childhood friend who I know today, is so mature and so handsome.

He put his cell phone on the table, then looked at me coldly by putting his hand in his pants pocket. He was not at all surprised to see me standing before him.

I'd love to run from there, and leave her back. But I'm stuck with my memory of Kara. And I still stood in front of Nicko again looking at his face that was so hard to believe.