Love, Let it Get Lost

I can !

He sat unbuttoned and looked at me coldly.

“Please sit” her pinta with such a professional attitude.

I was still confused and still nervous to be reunited with her, but I ventured to obey her orders. I sat down slowly, and made my sitting position comfortable to look more relaxed, but it seemed to be a waste, because I could not be calm at all at this time.

“Can I see his proposal?” Pinta Nicko by thrusting her hand.

I looked into Nicko's eyes once more clumsyly, then lifted the Map that I brought and slightly tangled it, slowly giving it to Nicko or known as Mr. Ferdy in this office. Then I saw the gold signboard stored on his desk.

“Main Director. Ferdyan Nickolas .M”

That's Nicko's real name. Since childhood I always called him Nicko because his parents also called him by that title, but it turns out in his office he is better known by the name Ferdy. Stupidly I didn't see the name of the president of the company. Because I thought, if I would be made an assistant for HRD like what was included in my job offer.

“Good. Ma'am Fawnia. Looks like you have not had any experience as a secretary” he said so stiff and really does not look like knowing me.

“Not Pak” answered me without seeing his eyes.

I know exactly what this interview should be like, eye contact is important in order to feel valued by each other. But I was still too nervous and afraid to see Nicko's eyes.

“Can see me?” Pinta.

My breath was getting heavier and my heart was pounding so hard when I saw his eyes.

Nicko also looks so forced to act ordinary, but I can see into the same group he felt.

He cleared his throat, and was seen gulping to return to interview me calmly.

“Did Mr Zayden have told you about the jobdesk that will be received by you?”

“But Sir. Mr. Zayden only tells you all the consequences that exist if I received in the company Bap”

Nicko seemed to nod and reopened my file. It's fitting that Mr. Zayden said I would face a boss who sucks and is loud, it turns out that Nicko was a stubborn and annoying person of course.

Then he was stunned when he read a history of my biodata that he seemed to have seen before him. Because he didn't seem too surprised by my current status.

“You're married?” She asked without looking at me and kept looking at my bio.

I nodded stiffly.

“Already Pak” answered me firmly.

“This is your status has become a single parent” he said while staring at me with a face so curious.

“My husband died 4 years ago” replied me without the slightest burden to tell the truth.

“4 years ago?” Ask her.

Then he remembered something. I'm sure he's remembering things from the past. Where I went to leave her and just disappeared.

“I do not have any experience as a secretary, but if you need someone who has experience as a secretary maybe not me his person.”

“You I received working here” said by cutting my conversation just like that. As if he knew I was starting to have no interest in the job he was going to give me.

I kept staring at him. I started to doubt and worry about everything. If at first I was so excited to work here, now I feel so limp and droop. But I remember Kara and Ben's parents who wanted to separate us.

“Thank you so much Pak” answer me finally.

“I will work as best as I can, and when can I start working?”

“Now” answers make me frown.

“Now?”

“Pak Zayden has said it right, if my company needs a secretary as fast as possible”

“Sorry Sir, but I have not prepared everything, nor have I prepared anyone to keep my child at home during my work”

“Child?” Nicko asked in surprise.

“Yah. Anak” answered me so proudly.

“You have a child?” Ask her to convince.

“Yes. Daughter” answered me so clearly that she knew about Kara.

“No. Absolutely not” his answer even makes me object.

“Then when can you enter work?”

“Tomorrow I can already start working Pak”

“Well then tomorrow you can start working. I wait 07.00 you are here and meet with Mr. Zayden back”

“Good Pak”

“Welcome to join our company Fawnia”, Nicko said.

I looked at his hand and then with all my courage, I greeted him professionally as possible.

“Thank you Mr. Ferdy” replied to me which made him jerk because he had mentioned his first name like never before.

I nodded my head at Nicko, stood up, then left the room as quickly as possible.

I'd love to get home and get to Keysa as I'm sure if he'd known this before.

I drove my car to the apartment quickly. When I got there I immediately went up to my apartment and opened the door looking for Keysa.

It looks like Keysa and Kara are playing in the living room with toys that are so scattered everywhere.

I was silent at the door staring at Keysa in annoyance. It makes Keysa and Kara confused. I walked up to them and sat down to Kara with a smile.

“Hay darling. Can Mama ask for help?” Say it sweetly.

Kara nodded with a face that was still confused.

“Mama can ask Kara to wait in the room?”

“Why?”

“Because Mama wants to talk first with aunty Key. This is adult talk and Kara can't be horrified first” Pinta I try to make her understand.

“But Kara can bring Kara's toys to the room?” answer her.

“Boleh” answered me by constantly smiling at him.

Then he looked so happy and happy. Kara picks up some of her toys at the table and runs into the room and closes her room.

I stood up and put my annoyed face back on Keysa when I saw that Kara had entered the room.

Keysa's face looked so panicked, he must have known what had upset me like this.

“why don't you say it's Nicko company?” Ask me directly without further ado.

Like what I said before. Keysa has been a true friend of mine ever since I was in Junior High, and he knows all my problems with Nicko and he should know how I tried so hard to disappear from Nicko's life.

“Sorry Faw's. I also do not know if it turns out that the company Nicko” replied Keysa looks so honest and guilty.

“Gue only knew yesterday when I was fusing to see the company's team management photo. I was also surprised when there was Nicko among them, I also know who Nicko's real name was during this”

Keysa's right. Indeed, all this time he never knew who Nicko's real name was, because since high school we his friends called him by the name of Nicko or Nick, because since we used to call him Nicko,and we weren't in a class with Nicko, and I and Keysa were in a different class.

“Yes but why did you say yesterday directly? Lo even let me meet again with him” annoyed me who is still emotional.

“At first I also want to say Faw, but yesterday I saw you very happy in the work, I do not want to break your spirit. And also you have promised Kara that you have started work and will not leave her, right? Do you want to disappoint him again ? And finally lose Kara?” Answer her by scolding me back.

“But ga with Nicko Key. I'm sure there are still a few possibilities out there that the company wants to accept I”

“Where ?!” Keysia asked with a face that was already emotional yet she held it off calmly.

“Lo want to find work where else ? Out of town? What's outside the island?” Tanya Keysa remembers me if in Jakarta here already almost all the companies that I visited did not offer me to work in their company.

“Lo don't be selfish Faw. Kara needs you, if you don't work you can lose her. It's time to count your days fighting Kara with your new in-laws. If you don't want to work at Nicko's company it's up to you, but I've helped you enough, I've cape”

Then Keysa pulled her bag on the table and left my apartment in a fit of annoyance.

I glanced at him with a guilty feeling.

Keysa's right. I can't be selfish. He helped me get a job and I had to think about Kara. I have to be able to, I have to endure.