Love, Let it Get Lost

I'm ready

When it's dinner time. The three of us headed downstairs to see Mama and Papa.

“Opa.!” Kara shouted as soon as she saw her Opa who was already sitting at the dining table.

He just ran to his Opa. And Papa greeted him happily. She had not met her Opa all day. I sat down with Nicko next to Papa.

“Opa just got home?” Kara asked as she had sat on Papa's lap.

“Iya Opa just returned home dear”

“Kara Kangen Opa”

“O yes?” Ask Papa not to believe it.

Kara nodded her head.

“Opa. When do we swim?” Ask Kara while pouting.

“Hmm Kara is still sick” said I commemorate her while bringing side dishes to my round plate.

Kara is getting sullen at my words.

“Why want to swim?” Ask Papa.

“Iya” answered her by still pursing her lips.

“OK. We swim yes, but later after Opa is not busy working, now his Opa still have to work at the office”

“Opa his work long time too?” Ask Kara.

“Iya. Opa will have to work hard, so buy a lot of toys for Kara”

“OK Opa” reply Kara back cheerful.

“Here already. Opa wants to eat first” pinta me.

Mama immediately took Kara first and sat her down next to her. Mama helped bring Kara food onto the plate.

“You slept here Nick?” Tanya Papa realized her son was sitting down to dinner with her.

“Iya Pa” replied Nicko while putting chicken meat into his mouth.

“Iya Opa's. Tonight Papa sleeps with Kara as Mama” said Kara innocently.

Instantly I fell silent. And glanced at Kara silently. I'm afraid Mama and Papa are thinking nothing of me and Nicko.

“Oh you guys will sleep together?” Ask Papa about me and Nicko.

“Not so Pa” dodged me awkwardly in embarrassment at what Papa thought.

“But Kara asked Nicko to accompany her to sleep tonight” I further confirmed.

“Loh why only tonight?” Ask Mama.

“Iya because..” said I think back.

“Because maybe tonight Kara kangen Papa nya” answer me who is still efficient.

“Nicko” call Papa to Nicko who is serious about eating.

“When will you move here?”

“Nanti” replied Nicko coldly.

“When later? Kasian Kara, she already wants to accompany her Papa”

“After I married Fawnia” her reply made me round my eyes and stare at her.

Mama and Papa looked at me in confusion while Kara continued to eat not understanding this confusing situation.

“So when will it be in motion?” Add Mama with a bright face.

I started to look stupid, when I was confused and clumsy.

“You must get married soon, Kara is getting bigger, Mama does not want your relationship continues to be unclear like this without this bond will affect Kara in the future her” pinta Mama start serious.

I glanced at Nicko who came quietly to hear Mama's babble.

“Front month” replied Nicko made me even more surprised and rounded his staring eyes.

“Good. Because Papa has prepared something for you, and Papa does not want this gift to be delayed longer?”

“Gift?” Ask me.

“Iya. Papa has prepared a gift for your wedding”

I can't dwell, I'm confused to have to deny what this is about. I'm upset with Nicko why he decided to get married next month, when we haven't talked about it.

After eating me, Nicko and Kara went back to the room to go to bed. The three of us brushed our teeth in the bathroom in front of the mirror. Every now and then I glanced at Nicko's reflection in the mirror in annoyance, and brushed my teeth so forcefully. After she finished, Nicko carried Kara back to my big bed and we started lying on top of her.

Kara's a barrier for me and Nicko. I waited for Kara to go to sleep until I was going to re-discuss the conversation at the dinner table. Nicko looks so fond of Kara, his eyes can not be separated looking at the face of Kara's tiny. She rubbed Kara's cheeks gently and then she kissed Kara's forehead. Kara was also soundly asleep.

I glanced at Nicko sharply.

“I want to talk” I said in a whisper.

“I know” answered her then she woke up from her sleep carefully and went to take me to the balcony to talk.

I closed the door and approached Nicko who was leaning against the balcony buffer handsomely. Yes he always makes kuterpana with his good looks.

I stood before him with an annoyed look.

“Why can you say that we are getting married next month?”

“When do you want?” Ask Nicko.

“Ya.. at least not too fast”

“I asked you when?”

I was quiet for a while.

“I don't know, I'm not ready” answered me finally so honestly.

Nicko put both hands in his parasitic pants pocket.

“If I wait for you to be ready, I'm sure you'll never be ready. I have to force you to get married, even if I don't know how you feel right now towards me”

I silently heard her words. Why can't he know how I feel about him after everything we've been through. Is it just because I look indifferent to him ? Or because I never said love to her again ?

“But if you can't do this for me now, do it for Kara. Since everything I do is for her only, I want us to take care of Kara together in the marriage bond” Nicko said so deeply.

I stared at the sincerity from within Nicko's gaze. He was so sincere and loved Kara. I can't resist her desire to make my child happy, and she should know that even if I never express my feelings, I still love her just as much as I used to, only, marriage? seems too fast.

I still kept silent thinking about his words. Nicko held my cheek gently.

“I also want to be happy for you, this is my childhood dream, marry you. You forgot that?” Nicko's asking makes me go back to our childhood.

When we were small and still in elementary school, I often asked Nicko to continue to accompany me at school, because I was a coward, and only Nicko was I always sheltering. Nicko always told me that he would accompany me all the time, until we got married. It was just our childhood speech, and even then we did not understand anything about marriage, but Nicko always said that one day we would be like Papa and Mama who were always together.

“I know maybe this is not the right time and atmosphere, but I thought about what you said in the office earlier. It shouldn't be like that I'm asking a woman to get married, not by pressuring her, or forcing her. And now I want to fix it”, Nicko said, making me tense.

He took something out of his pants pocket. It was a small red box, made of fine velvet. I was even more surprised to see Nicko kneel before me by holding the red box in his hand. The wind blows strong tonight, making the atmosphere more romantic.

“Fawnia. I have loved you for a long time and will always be like that. I want us to always be together, take care of Kara together, and live our future together. I don't want another woman, and I just want to be with you forever. Will you marry me?” Nicko said so sweetly.

I don't feel my tears just coming out and flowing down my cheeks. I cried because I didn't think this would happen. Nicko was my childhood friend, my first love even the love I felt, he had grown up with me and invited me to get married.

Nicko was waiting for me to speak, I held back my tears to answer him.

“I Do” answered me with a happy smile but with tears.

Nicko's tense face turned to surprise, he could not believe what he heard.

“What?” Ask him again.

“I want Nicko. I want to marry you” I replied so clearly and haru.

Nicko stood up and hugged me so tightly. He let go of his embrace and looked at me.

“You still loved me?” Her question examined my face.

“You think all this time I could just forget you ? Especially now that there's Kara in my life who always makes me see you in Kara. I still love you Nicko and will always be like that” replied me.

Nicko's face was happy again he was so happy then he immediately opened the red box. It was a one-eyed diamond ring, it was so beautiful and elegant, I don't know when Nicko prepared the ring.

She pinned the ring on my ring finger, and I saw so beautiful this ring on my finger. Then we embraced happily again.