Love, Let it Get Lost

Issue is not right about me

I went home to my apartment with a body that felt so tired. Because maybe this is my first time working in such a big, big office.

As I walked down the hallway of the apartment I saw from far away that the door of my apartment was wide open and someone was standing at the door. I was so shocked and immediately ran towards my apartment, I was afraid something might happen to Kara. And by the time I got to my doorstep, I had already seen some people in my house standing next to someone sitting talking to Kara.

“Mama” softly I saw my in-laws there in such elegant clothes and seemed to speak to the frightened Kara.

Kara immediately ran towards me and hugged my leg. I glanced at Keysa who was standing in the corner of the room with a face so confused and panicked to me.

“What is this?” Ask me.

“We both want to bring Kara” Papa said so seriously, making me round my eyes.

“Bringing Kara ? On what rights do you want to bring Kara ?” Ask me with such a sharp look.

“We are Grandpa Grandma, and we also have the right to be responsible for the continuity of the child from Ben”

I shook my head at Mama's annoying statement.

“Mama thought I couldn't afford to raise Kara?” I asked her with wet eyes wanting to cry but I tried to hold her back.

“I've started working Ma. I can raise Kara. And if you want to always meet Kara, you can visit my apartment whenever you want. No need like this” said me with still full of patience.

“Kalo we want to come here also we do not need to ask permission from you, because this is also Ben's apartment right ? We are still merciful to you to leave this place, it's all because Kara”'s great-grandson Mama Ben still makes me so sad with his words.

“And we do not need a decision from you to bring Kara. Tomorrow the day after tomorrow if you do not come to the trial, we will bring Kara forcibly” said Mama Ben who still insisted with his wishes.

“Maa, but Kara is my son!”

“And Ben is also our son!” Reply to her mother with a louder and so emotional scream.

I could only be speechless looking at her who was so emotionally staring at me filled with hatred. And my tears began to pour down my cheeks that I could no longer hold.

“Ben is my son Fawnia. My only child, and because of you, I lost my only child, Mama Ben said by pointing at me and crying.

I can't say anything anymore if Mama Ben's always talking about Ben's death. He always blames me, even to this day.

Then Papa Ben hugged him to appease his wife who was already sad to remember their son.

“Let's go home Ma” take Papa Ben while continuing to calm his wife who continues to cry.

“Tomorrow after tomorrow come to court, let the court that decided” pinta Papa Ben more calmly speak to me.

Then my in-laws walked out of my apartment following his aides. Papa Ben has actually been kind to me for as long as Ben and I were together, but when Ben died, Papa Ben blamed me and his nature became cold to me.

I immediately knelt down and held onto Kara's arms trying to smile even though a sobbing was still left in my nose.

“Honey, you will never leave Kara, no matter what happens”.

“Kara does not want to stay with Oma” he said sadly.

“No darling. Oma won't be able to take Kara from Mama” and then I hug her so tightly.

Then I looked at Keysa who was still standing where he was staring at me with a piteous look.

“It’s Ok” I told him so he wouldn't worry about me.

Keysa tried to smile even though he was still too panicked.

Then night came. I've changed clothes and sat next to my favorite spot window with caramel milk in my white cup. I was wearing a big long-sleeved shirt to cover my fingers, I rolled my hair with messy, and went back to drinking my caramel milk while staring out the window,look at the city lights from up here.

“Ben what is it time?” I said, staring out the window, still hoping Ben could listen in heaven.

“There's no other way Ben. I don't know what else to do, though, your secret is the only way I can keep Kara”, I said with great sadness given the sad secret that Ben and I have kept for five years.

I was so imagining what my life would be like after her if all those secrets were exposed to the Ben family. Then unconsciously my tears fell back and awakened me from the daydream of dark times.

The next day I reached my workplace in the morning and I saw some people watching me strangely inside the office. I just walked into the office, and some people were already whispering whispers past me staring at me. I frowned at those who looked strange with my presence. I stared at the clothes I was wearing, afraid that something was wrong or that there was dirt stuck, but nothing. I walked back to the elevator and headed straight for my room. Before approaching my room, I stared at the receptionist looking at me strangely as if they were staring at the strangeness inside me.

I immediately entered my room and did not care about them all. I sat quietly in my chair and tried not to think of those who had spoken of me in silence. I turned on my computer and immediately opened the files that had been stored on my desk.

Not long ago the sound of my phone vibrated in his follow incoming messages from Bima.

“Have seen this?” Bima asked by sending a photo in her message.

And so surprised I when I saw the news about myself in a web headline that read “CEO Kiara Company that was rumored to be corrupt, now working as a secretary at PT. Mahliga Property”'s

My eyes were round, my hands were shaking, holding my phone firmly and my breath was claustrophobic at the untrue gossip about me. I really had to endure the trouble for a mistake I never made. And now I'm the target of people in my office working who thought this news was true.

My office phone rings on the desk. With a still uncertain feeling I tried to calm down and pick up my phone.

“Hallo?” Ask me with a still trembling tone.

“To my room now” Nicko said so firmly and then he hung up his phone. I glanced at Nicko behind the window and saw he who looked serious paying attention to the computer before him.

I'm sure, Nicko will definitely discuss about the issue of my news that has been widespread. I'm so resigned to the situation now, I don't care anymore if I have to be really removed from here. I'm so tired of too much trouble.