Love, Let it Get Lost

Flashback ‘travelling Ben’

At that time my pregnancy was just 8 months old. My stomach was getting bigger, and the baby kick in my stomach was getting more active. Ben was very happy if he could feel the baby's movement in my stomach, he would look smiling and happy every time he felt his kick. Ben was waiting for my baby.

In the morning at the same apartment, I woke up wearing my negligee dress to make Ben breakfast before he went to his office. I made him pancakes and mango juice to eat his breakfast in the pantry.

“Pagi” greeted Ben as he exited the room and approached me.

“Pagi” greet me back.

He sat in the pantry and played his phone seriously. Ben already looks so neat with his blue shirt and pants and shoes that I have prepared before him. Every morning he went to an office not far from the apartment and would come home in the afternoon.

Ben has a coal mining company also in Kalimantan, but he can handle it from here, and occasionally if there is a precarious he will definitely go to Kalimantan for a while, but now that she has to accompany me who's pregnant, Ben so just monitor the mines there via his cell phone and keep his confidants there.

“What's up?” I asked when I saw Ben who was so serious about his cell phone.

“My coal has a problem” Ben said without turning my head.

“Yang in kalimantan?”

“Iya”

I poured the juice into Ben's glass, then kept it in Ben's presence.

“What people trust you can't handle?”

“This problem is big Faw” said Ben so seriously.

“Then?”

Ben still did not answer. She frowned her frown continuously typing on her mobile phone.

“Why don't you just go there Ben?” Ask me.

“I can't possibly leave you alone here”

“I'm fine. My gestational age is only 8 months, there is still approximately 6 weeks before the birth of ku”

Ben was staring at me.

“You won't go long right?” Ask me.

“No. I won't leave you, your circumstances are more important”

“But your company is also more important Ben”

“My confidants can handle everything” said Ben who insisted on not wanting to leave me.

“Alright” I give up.

I know Ben was so worried about me. Because my life has been so dependent on him. He's all I have, his family no one ever wants to see me. I only have Ben.

That night when Ben and I were asleep, Ben's cell phone was heard. Ben picked up his phone.

“Hallo”

“What?!” Ben said loudly, making me wake up and look at him.

Ben immediately stood up, he headed straight for the bathroom and changed his clothes.

“OK. I'm there”

Ben hangs up the phone and throws her into bed. He seemed to be in a hurry to change his clothes.

“What's up?” Ask me who's still sitting on my bed.

“There is a problem in the ku” coal mine

“What problems?”

“I can't explain it now. For sure I have to go there for a few days”

Ben quickly stuffed the clothes into his suitcase.

“What should now? Can't be delayed tomorrow morning? Let you prepare all of it calmly”

“Cannot”

Ben looked so worried too panicked. I don't know what problem he's going through, but I've never seen Ben se worry about this before.

“You have bought a ticket?”

“I can take care of later”

“Baik”

Ben zipped his suitcase. He put small things in his little bag. Then Ben approached me.

“I'm sorry. I have to go”

I nodded my head anxiously at her. Ben kissed my forehead gently.

“Tell me if there's anything”

“Iya”

“I'll be home soon”

“Iya Ben”

Then Ben dragged his suitcase out of the room. He glanced at me once more in the doorway then smiled pseudoly.

“Bye. Careful” said me.

Ben nodded his head and then he closed the door tightly. I was still sitting in my bed, thinking about what kind of trouble Ben was having. I’a berto so that Ben's problems can be quickly resolved properly and he quickly went home.

I called Keysa to accompany me to the apartment.

“Hallo Key”

“Hallo why?”

“Key. Can I please?”

“Where?”

“In apartment. Ben went because”

“Where?”

“Borneo. There's a problem in his coal mine”

“Trouble ? What problem?”

“Gue also does not know, do not understand. What is certain was that he was in such a hurry to go there. Lo here ya temenin this pregnant woman, kasian ka time you could make me pregnant again alone in apartment” said me with full of passion to be pityed by Keysa.

“Hustom deh, pregnancy lo di soin alesan. Yes I have come home from work there” annoyed Keysa who was so tired of hearing I made a pregnancy to make him pity me.

I laughed at Keysa's reply.

“Hehe okay”

“Bye Aunty Key, thank you”

Then I hung up the phone waiting for Keysa to come with me.

At night Keysa finally came carrying a bag containing food on both of his hands. We both sat on the living room couch and ate a pizza Keysa had brought. Keysa also looks so fond of my son, he always stroked my stomach and occasionally brought my baby to talk. I laughed when Keysa asked my baby to talk like an adult.

The next day, my phone rang on the dinner table when Keysa was tuning again on a tight speaker.

“Candles first!” My request to Keysa.

Then she took the remote and played down the volume of her song. I saw Ben's name on my phone screen.

“Hallo Ben”

“Hai” greet Ben by sounding so limp.

“How are you doing?”

“I'm good”

“Keysa still accompany you there?”

“Still. She is on holiday working, she wants to accompany me check up later”

“Greetings from me to Keysa”

“OK”

Then we were quiet for a while.

“How is your mine problem?” Ask me.

“I'm still coping with his”

“What's the problem too big?”

“Ya” answers her briefly.

I pursed my lips.

“I did’a so that your problem quickly finished and you can quickly go home”

“Iya. I hope to be able to come home soon and see you also Karamel”

I stroked my stomach while smiling.

“Is my baby okay?”

“Yes he is fine, he also misses you” I said with a smile.

“Sgratitude”

I kept stroking my stomach gently.

“Faw. If I can't accompany your birth how?” Ben asked, sounding sad.

“Why?”

“I just asked. I'm afraid my problems here I can't handle quickly”

My face turned smiling.

“It’s Okay. I'll be fine here, I won't interfere with your work there. If it's time for me to give birth but you're still busy, I won't bother you”

“Thank you, I love you so much Fawnia” said Ben sounding disgusting.

I kept quiet and didn't answer.

“I hope my problem can quickly finish”

“It’s Ok Ben”

“I rest first, I'll call again”

“Baik”

“Bye”

“Bye Ben”

Then the phone disconnected. I stared at my phone screen in disappointment. Actually I really want if Ben can accompany the birth of Caramel later, but if the problem there is too heavy, I do not want to make Ben disturbed and not focus on solving his problems. I also have to accept the risk, I must not be selfish with my wishes.

One month later at night in my apartment. Keysa hasn't come home yet, and I'm alone in my room. I got a message from Ben.

“I'm sorry because I still have to work for a while in Kalimantan. Forgive me for disappointing you, I hope your delivery will be smooth even without me accompanying you. I love you Fawnia, I'm sorry that it turns out my problems here are too big. I'm doing this for your future too Caramel. Promise me to keep Caramel my son when he's born. I'm sorry I had to leave for a while. Love You”'s

Then suddenly my stomach felt cramping. My stomach is wrapped around so much pain. I feel like my stomach can't take it anymore, my baby is going to be born, I can feel that.

I dropped myself on the floor to endure my pain. I grabbed my phone back on the bed. I'm trying to get in touch with Keysa. But the phone was not connected, I continued struggling with pain. And a little while later Keysa came looking for me in the room and was surprised to see me bleeding between my legs.

Keysa frantically called the security apartment to help me get to the hospital. Some people came to help, the ambulance came quickly and took me to the hospital. I was placed in the ER to get immediate treatment.

I kept thrashing on the bed.

“Hold yes Faw. Lo strong kok lo must be strong” said Keysa calms me.

“Sick Key. My stomach hurts!”

“Gue phone Ben ya”

“Do not!” I said holding Keysa back while enduring my pain.

“Ben is in trouble”

“But lo is also again in trouble”

“Do not please. Don't bother him” Keysa said.

The doctor and nurse were still busy checking the baby's exit path and putting the infusion in my hand. Keysa's out for a second. I just kept letting the pain in bed. And Keysa came back to me.

“Mertua lo call nanyain tidakan elo, I told them if you again in the opening period at the hospital” said Keysa.

I kept quiet and did not answer, I continued to endure the pain in my stomach. Keysa received a message that went into my phone.

“This is from the in-laws of lo” Keysa said as she opened the message.

“They said already contact Ben?”

I shook my head. I promised not to bother Ben who was working, but his parents instead told Ben my delivery.

I just kept wriggling around here and there impatient to get the kid out of my stomach. A few hours later the doctor and nurse finally gave me action, my baby was out. She finally came out of my womb, a crying voice finally sounded so echoing in this birthing room. I breathed so much after hearing the sound of crying from my baby. Keysa, who was beside me, was so happy with the birth of Caramel.

And then I heard the news about the plane that Ben was on in an accident, and all the crew couldn't be saved.

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