Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 95 THE CITY OF HOPE

Soon I will leave my hometown and head for Hope City. Along the way I kept looking out of the glass, I will definitely always miss this city of my birth.

" Rissa, I'm sorry Auntie if the effect forces you to go to Surabaya today. "

" It's okay Auntie, Rissa knows all this Auntie did for Rissa's good. "

" Yes Rissa, Auntie hopes you will always try and be able to successfully realize your dreams. Make the best use of this golden opportunity, not everyone gets a chance like you. You can go to a public university without a test and get a scholarship. "

" Yes Aunty, honestly, actually Rissa never dreamed of being able to study in a big city like Surabaya. You can study in the hometown of Rissa alone Alhamdulillah for Rissa Aunty. "

" Yes Riss had Farrell been alive he would have been enlisting as a State Servant as he had aspired to be. But now everything is gone, man can only plan while God is the one who decides where our destiny will go and what it will be like. "

" Patience Aunt. "

" Yes Riss, therefore you promised Auntie to succeed and make your promise to Farrell. Auntie sure Farrell will be happy and calm there to see you happy here too. "

" Yes Aunt. "

Because of the long journey and the drowsiness that attacked us, we both fell asleep. We were both overwhelmed by our dreams. At least we can rest in the car before we get to our destination.

Suddenly we woke up because the car had stopped, it turns out the driver chose the Rest Area as a place to rest we unwind for a moment. Farrell's mother asked us to fill our stomachs at a restaurant located there.

We were treated to a comfortable view because the place was very clean. We ordered some food and drinks to fill our stomachs which started to rumble.

While we were enjoying the food that had been served, my ears accidentally heard the melodious guitar music. In addition, the sound of singing that is very nice to hear makes me think again of the voice of Farrell who always makes me baper.

And the sad song that that person sang made my heart tremble. Because the song was sung exactly as I now experience and feel.

Here are the lyrics of the song that made me cry in tears right now.

" Never will my tears ever end

When I remember you

Maybe only you know

Why am I still alone to this day

Is there where you miss me

Even though we are in a different world now

If time still turns

I'll wait for you

Let me keep it until I'm there

Calm myself in peace

Remember my love you are invisible no more

Anyone who heard the song would be smothered and filled. I couldn't even control myself and cried.

Just imagine that we are re-remembered by the loss of a loved one who has left us forever. I honestly admit that the wound in my heart is still not dry and has not fully healed. It still hurts when we think back to the beautiful moment of togetherness with him.

Farrell's mother tried to strengthen me and calm me down.

" Rissa, honey.. Auntie knows you haven't fully accepted the fact that it's happening right now. It takes a long time to get through a time like this. "

" Rissa wants to go home, Auntie, Rissa is not ready, "I answered while wiping my puddles.

" Rissa, Auntie knows this isn't easy for you. Don't be weak baby, don't give up on the situation. Strengthen your heart dear, has not Rissa promised to open a new page dear ???. Don't cry anymore baby, fight for your future. "

" But Rissa's not ready for Auntie, Rissa wants to go home. Or, or, or, or let Rissa go to college in our town, Auntie. Not far away, anyway so that Rissa can stay close to Farrell Aunt's grave, "I beg.

" No Rissa, we have to keep going to Surabaya. Don't make your memories with Farrell your weakness Rissa. Come on, baby, you gotta be strong. "

" but... Aunties... "

" That's enough, quickly let's leave this place before it makes you become completely weak and destroy everything. Let's hurry up and continue our journey. "

" I miss Farrell Aunty, " As I wipe away the tears left on my cheek.

But Farrell's mother kept quiet, she ignored me. I knew he was acting like that because he didn't want me to change my mind and ask to go home.

I closed my eyes and hoped my mood would improve. I really loved what happened just now that made me re-remember Farrell's romance with me, the best man that there might be no more men like him in the world.

It did not feel like we had finally entered the city of Surabaya, we immediately went around looking for Kos-kosan close to campus.

Finally we found the costs are close to the campus, indeed the cost is very expensive. But for a while it does not matter if it is to be occupied until it can find a more affordable cost. And Farrell's mother took care of everything so I could get the keys to her room.

No wonder the facilities I get at this boarding house are very good and complete. In addition, the cost is very clean and neat. But I'm a bit inferior because it looks like the boarding house here is the children of the rich and not the children of random people. And I think Mama Farrell understands my feelings.

" Rissa, don't feel inferior here, remember you're a great kid here too. You're an accomplished kid who can succeed and who will outperform those moneyed kids. Show them you don't deserve one eye. "

" Yes Aunty, but honestly Rissa is a bit inferior here too. Rissa's afraid of not being here. "

" Whatever happens you must try to be at home here, do not be discouraged dear. "

" Yes Aunt. "

" Yes already, but Auntie can't accompany Rissa to sleep tonight huh. Since Auntie has to go home today too, is it okay Riss ?? "

" Yes, Auntie, it's okay. Rissa knows Auntie. "

" Yes Riss, the important task Aunty take you to Surabaya is done now. You are the only one who fought to start from zero here. Never let down everyone who has supported you, Riss. We all always wish you the best. "

" Yes Aunt, thank you Aunt for taking Rissa this far. "

" Yes Riss is the same. "