Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 139 IS DIFFERENT

" I don't deserve for you to fight, Brother, let alone our love that so many differences. I did not have the courage to take Brother Arsel out of Erika's hands. I'm not that kind of woman Brother, "I express my feelings.

" I know Riss, long before we got close I knew you were a good woman. That's what made me fall in love with you at Riss's first sight. I really love you Riss. "

" How about Erika ??? "

" She was my first love Riss, she was the first woman to fill my heart and teach me the meaning of love. I used to love him so much and wish I could always be with him. But in fact destiny says otherwise, God testing us with my family's company has become problematic. So I had to get out of Erika's life. I don't want to be in a relationship with him at this time of my family's chaotic economic situation. "

" Then don't you want to try looking for Erika again ???? "

" When the family company started to improve, I tried to find Erika again but in fact I could never see her again because she was close to other men. And from then on my feelings for her began to change and slowly faded away. He can't keep his heart for me Riss. "

" But all I know and Erika ever told me was that she was once betrothed to her parents but she didn't want to. Erika says that she still loves her first love, Arsel. "

" Yes because he regretted betraying our love, and preferred another man. And in the end he hurt because of the wrong choice. In fact, this man is no better than me. "

" Then will Big Brother break Brother's engagement with Erika ??? "

" Yes, because I don't want to force myself to love her anymore. "

" That means that Brother Arsel is the same as me. "

" That means Riss ??? "

" If Brother Arsel broke off the engagement just like Erika would be even more angry with me. He'll think that I took Arsel's sister away from him. I don't want to be the third person in your relationship. "

" I'll talk to Erika, you don't have to worry. "

" But Erika will not accept you. "

" Can't Riss, I can't continue this charade. I've suffered enough to lie to my feelings to pretend to love her. I don't love Erika, but I love you Rissa !!!!! "

" Please don't do this Brother, I beg you, "I beg Brother Arsel.

" You are Riss, let's wake up Riss, "Ask Arsel replied trying to help me stand up.

" Please, brother, don't do that. Don't make my relationship worse with Erika. "

" But until when should I pretend to love Erika Riss ???. I want to be happy with the people I love. "

I walked away from Brother Arsel, and looked down sad.

" Well, we'll never be with Arsel. Because what ???? "

" What's Riss ???? "

" Because We're Different, "I answered briefly.

" You don't talk like that Riss, I love and accept you for who you are. "

" But the reality is that there will be so many obstacles and obstacles in front of us if we keep moving forward. "

" I don't care about Riss, for sure I just want to fight for our love Riss. I know that you love me, right ??? "

" Don't ask me for love again, brother, because my main goal is college. I don't want to fail Sis, I have to be able to graduate from college with the best grades. "

" You've suffered enough all this time Riss, it's time you focus on thinking about your own happiness. Don't be busy thinking about the happiness of others. "

" Take me home, "My love

" Why Riss ??? "

" Ok, I'll take you home to your boarding house Riss. "

Arsel's sister also drove me back to the boarding house. And along the way we just kept quiet, busy with each other's thoughts.

Suddenly my phone rang. It was my mother who called me.

" Rissa, how are you doing, son ??? "

" Thank God, ma'am, what's wrong Mom. "

" Actually I want to go to Surabaya and talk directly to you Riss. But I don't have any money for the fare to Surabaya Nak. "

" What's the matter, Mom, just say it now over the phone with Rissa. "

" Yes Riss, so this is Riss I don't know who else to ask for help. You are my only hope. So our family's having a big problem, Riss. "

" What a big problem Ma'am, Rissa doesn't understand. "

" But earlier I apologized if it bothers you continue, because I don't know who to ask for help to again. "

" Yes, Mom, just say it. "

" Your sister just had Riss crash, she just had a single accident with her friend. "

" Geez, how is Adek Bu doing ??? "

" Your sister's okay, but the problem is that your sister's bike that they used was heavily damaged by Riss. The motor was just purchased.

" Oh my God, ma'am, then how's Mom ??? "

" Yes it's your brother's friend's parents asking for compensation to Mom, at least the damage was borne both means Riss. I don't know what to do, your father also happens to not work. I was confused to ask who else, son, "mother seemed to cry as much as she wanted.

" How much money do you need to solve your sister's problem ??? "

" Mom doesn't know Riss either. "

" Rissa's got money in Rissa Bu's savings, but not much ma'am. "

" Whatever you borrow, I accept son. Later the lack of it let me sell television in our house, son. "

" It does not need to be considered a loan, let's just say this is help from Rissa for Adek. "

" Then what about you, Riss ?? For your daily needs ??? "

" Rissa can find a part-time job, Mom, just calm down. Rissa is the lecture morning until noon, afternoon was only occasionally Mom. So late afternoon till night Rissa can work ma'am. "

" Rissa can help Mom two million rupiah yes Mom, There's two million left over to hold Rissa here Mom while waiting to get a part-time job. "

" Thank you son, sorry I trouble you keep ya. I'm supposed to help you, but I'm trying to keep you son. "

" Don't be like Mom, Rissa loves Mom. As long as Rissa can, Rissa will help Mom. "

" Yes, I've closed first, yes, again I thank you son. "

" Yes Ma'am. "

I'm glad I could at least ease Mom's problems. The economic or financial problems in our family are never endless. I'm sad that God never stopped testing our family... 😥😥...