Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 56 AT THE END OF THE WHITE ASH-ABUKU

Not felt today I've been sitting in 3rd grade High School, At the White End of Ash-Abuku. Almost one step away from my struggle to get to the university. Although it is not easy my struggle to go to school while working, but I am grateful to be able to survive at this stage.

I've been a laundry and ironing laborer all this time, because this is all I can do to get my life together.

Tonight I want to call my Father, I miss him and hope he has changed.

" Hello. "

" Well, this is Rissa. Sorry to interrupt his time. "

" Yes what's up. "

" How's Dad doing ???? "

" Why do you ask me everything, do you want to ask for money, huh ???? "

Astaghfirullah, honestly it hurt my heart this much when my own father told me. But I tried to endure the heartache and continued the conversation with him.

" No, Rissa just wants to know about Dad."

" Now you don't have to call me anymore, just pursue your obsession with school in that city. That's what you want and don't want to beat me up as your parents. The far-off school will also get pregnant and marry the poor !!!! "

" What do you mean you talk like that ???? Well, just so you know I've just been a provincial Olympic champion. Even I also got a trophy and also a gift of education savings money. "

" Don't be arrogant, I won't be interested either. It's better that I care about my stepson who respects me more than my own son. Don't bother me anymore, I'm lazy to hear your voice. "

" When can you realize and love me ????? " My voice started to shake and my tears also started falling on my cheeks.

" I don't care about you because of your pretentious attitude to school in town and snobbish. You should have told me to go to school in the village, I can still accept you. Yes I'm busy, don't bother me anymore. "

Suddenly the phone turned off and I immediately cried as much as my father's words hurt me. Until when he will support me and love me. I almost desperately begged for attention.

I kept crying over my situation. So emotional, even my phone threw right about my boarding wall. I cried so much to get my heart out. If only I could choose I wouldn't be born to you like that. I will choose a father who can care for me and always love me.

I'm really tired of this life, I'm tired of every school day and then I have to keep working. I don't have time to enjoy my life. I am tired of this routine every day. I want to find a new atmosphere.

I put my face on the pillow, I cried so much that my pillow was soaked.

I am so tired that I do not feel asleep. I fell asleep really well. For a moment I could forget this pain in my heart by closing my eyes. I can breathe a sigh of relief from being tired all day. Let me enjoy my bed tonight.

The next day I woke up feeling sad. My eyes still look swollen as a result of me crying all night.

When Farrell came to pick me up he was shocked to see how I was doing.

" Riss, what are you ???? Why does your face look pale and your eyes are swollen ??? You sick ???? "

" Yes I am sick, "I answered.

" Are you sick what is Riss ???? Let's go check on the doctor now ??? "

" No need to Rell. "

" What is it ???? He said you were sick. "

" Because the one who's sick isn't physical or my body is Rell. "

" Then ???? "

" For the sick is my psychic Rell. "

" I mean Riss, I don't understand. "

I was silent and didn't want to tell the story for that moment, I didn't want my tears to fall when I was about to enter class.

" Yes already then, later go home to school you have to confide in me huh. Don't soak yourself Riss, not good for health. "

" Yes Rell, "My promise.

I try to be as professional as possible. Whatever happens to me, don't interrupt my school. School is a top priority, and matters of the heart are a priority these days.

Finally the bell for home sounded. I cleaned up everything and wanted to go home quickly.

Suddenly Farrell took my hand until he reached the school parking lot.

" Rell, what does this mean ??? "

" Come on with me. "

" Where ??? "

" To a place that's convenient for you to tell me the same story."

" Where ???? "

" What's convenient for you to tell me. "

" It's up to you to be Rell. "

" okay. "

Farrell also drove the bike casually because the weather was a bit cloudy.

" Riss, if I'm not here then what ???? Who will take care of you when you are sad ??? "

" What the hell are you, Rell, what the hell is that. Don't talk about it like that. I got scared of this. "

" Nobody knows Riss, don't know why I feel like I'm a little old. "

" Huss !!!!! Don't bother you, Rell. "

" You know when the day I had Riss's nightmare. "

" What dream ???? "

" I dreamt I had a Riss accident, and I died. "

" No, no. Rell, that dream was just a sleeping flower. You have to be sure that you are long-lived. We can enjoy college together. Do you want to stay with me ??? "

" Surely, Riss, I want to be right next to you. I'm afraid of losing you Riss. But why do I feel like I'm going to die, Riss ???? "

" If you still talk like that, I'm down now Rell !!!! " I threatened Farrell.

" Okay sorry Riss. "

" Partially why don't you just cost Rell more than you go back and forth every day ???? "

" I pity my Mama Riss, she's alone at home. My brother went to college out of town. My dad is always busy sometimes out of town. I don't have the heart to leave Mama alone at home. Mama told me to be Kos, but I didn't want to. "

" Yes, too, the dilemma happens if you like it. I'm just sorry you're tired and it's affecting your health, Rell. Moreover, I am actually also afraid because with you not costing, the risk of accident is also very large Rell. "

" Well, how about Riss, I'm the only boy in my family. I also have the responsibility of looking after my family, Riss. "

" Yes the Rell. "

I was silent and thought in my heart. I honestly thought of Farrell's words. I hope it's just a dream that will never come true. I don't want to lose Farrell, because I still need him at all times.