Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 90 TAKE ME WITH YOU

At home, I told my mother everything. He listened and told me to be patient. That's when my mother went to Farrell's house with my sister. I sent a message that tonight I can't attend Farrell's annual event, I still can't afford it because my condition is still unstable.

Until the night I was still pensive and kept thinking about Farrell's face in my memory. This incident really tormented my mind. You can imagine the biggest regret I have done so far is to waste a man who really loves me.

If you were in my position now, how long would it take for your heart to recover and recover from the loss of the one you loved and loved so dearly ????.

I don't know when I'll be able to heal from all these inner wounds, but I'm definitely still dissolved in this grief. I am still in a phase that cannot accept the situation.

Suddenly the door of my house was knocked on by someone from the outside violently. It turns out that when Mom and Dad kept me open it was Farrell's dad.

" Please call your children, Rissa. My dealings with him are not finished yet, "Farrell's Papa's orders are harsh.

" Please don't make a fuss In my house, you can have a good talk with my son" replied My mother.

I got out of my room and went to see Farrell's father. With a trembling body I saw his father Farrell so emotionally did look at me.

" Our business isn't done yet, until whenever you're Farrell's killer. You are the unlucky carrier for my family. "

" I'm not a killer sir, all this happened because it was fate sir. "

" It's delicious destiny you said, it's still a good thing you didn't report to the police. Because a person like you is supposed to enter Bui there !!! "

" But I'm not wrong sir, I'm also very sad to lose Farrell Sir. Not just Dad. "

" Sir, don't just accuse my son. If you want to report my son please, but remember you also have to bring evidence that my son is guilty, "My father continued to try to defend me.

" Look I'll never stay silent for Farrell's death. And you never show me your nose in our house. Don't ever come to see Farrell let alone say something to Mama Farrell !!!! "

Farrell's father just left us. I immediately cried in fear, and my mother immediately hugged me.

" Calm down baby, Mom and everyone here will always protect and take care of you son, "Mommy tried to calm me down.

" But Rissa was afraid of Mom, Rissa was afraid of Mom, "I answered by continuing to cry and trembling.

" Calm down, son, don't be stiff think about the words of the person. "

" Rissa's coming home in bed, Mom, Rissa's afraid here Mom. "

" No, son, you're here. Mother who was even worried if you went home to the boarding house. "

I could only continue to cry and be silent without a word. Not long after I entered my room again to calm myself. I'm really scared of the threat that Farrell's Papa made to me. And I decided not to attend Farrell's annual procession.

At night I dreamed about Farrell again, I saw Farrell smile at me and say something to me.

" Rissa, you don't wire me. I'm calm here, I don't feel any pain anymore. "

" You must learn to recapitulate my departure Riss, and slowly learn to continue living your life again even without me. Didn't you promise that ??? "

" I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep my promise, Rell, I'm not ready to really accept this harsh reality. "

" You can definitely Riss, you can definitely. Ilove you. "

At that instant I woke up from my dream, once the nelangsanya I feel lonely in a quiet like this. I don't know until when I'll escape this kind of suffering. I wiped my tears and sat alone in my room.

Usually in the toughest moments or when there are problems, I always take ablution water to calm down. But the rest of the story for now, I feel like I'm getting away from it. It can be said that this is my form of protest to him because it has taken away my happiness with the people I love.

Blame fate ????

It can be said like that, even God can say unfair to me. He predestined my life to be friends with loneliness, friendly with separation and also death !!!!!!!. What's wrong with me ????. When do I get happiness ????.

Angry ????

Honestly, I was very angry and wanted to vent my emotions. From childhood I was born with parents who have been divorced, I do not have any sweet memories of the beauty of a family. Even my own father didn't think I existed, he was busy with his own world. A happy world with his new wife and stepchildren.

Can you imagine being me ????

I have always been different from the other children, even I was so lacking from everything !!!!!. Being a smart kid and champion 1 didn't take down my father's pride to embrace me. I was always wrong in his eyes, because I meant nothing to him. I fought alone until I finally became a scavenger because I had no job anymore !!!!.

You guys know my toughest point ????

When I worked hard to support myself and also fought desperately to get the title of an accomplished student but it was completely worthless in the eyes of my biological father.

Besides, the person who always supported me in everything has now also left me. He who always strengthens me when I am sad and hurt, who always wipes my tears and replaces them with happiness.

I cry now no longer useful, then what should I do ??? I can what ??.

I don't know...

I don't know what else to do, even for my future I don't want to think about it. I don't have the courage to dream more. For me now I am a Butterfly that really does not have wings to fly into space. I'm a broken-winged butterfly.

Never ask again about the dream of an UN WINGED BUTTERFLY, never.

All I have in mind right now is to meet Farrell, my soulmate, and I'd love to say "Take Me With You ".

Isn't my business in this world definitely finished ????

I don't know, I'm starting to get desperate....

This is the outpouring of my heart that has been buried all this time.