Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 84 CAN YOU ????

The next day Farrell was taken to an MRI and CT scan to confirm Farrell's condition. My mother and I Farrell prayed for Farrell's best.

His older brother Farrell accidentally did not come to the hospital because he had to take care of the business or business of his family Mama Farrell. Because every day Farrell needs a fee to pay for the Hospital.

" Aunty, sorry Rissa can't help anything. Rissa is no longer working. "

" Yes Rissa doesn't matter. Just being here has helped us so much, Riss. Thanks to Rissa. "

" Yes Aunt. "

" In the meantime you accompany Auntie to keep Farrell ya Riss, in return let Aunt help you to pay the Cost. "

" No aunt, it doesn't have to be like this. Rissa still has a stash of money to pay Kosan. "

" Aunty already knows all about your life Rissa, because Farrell told Auntie. Of you who are ignored by your own biological father, the cost of your own school, and the last to make Aunt very salute to you is when you become a scavenger. "

I lowered my head in shame because Mama Farrell knew I was a Scavenger. But suddenly Mama Farrell grabbed my back and raised my head.

" Don't feel ashamed or inferior, just Aunty proud of you. Being a scavenger is not a cheap job, because it is a noble job. Aunt salute with your spirit to fight for life looking for rupiah. Not many teenagers like you want to survive being a scavenger. "

" Yes, thank you for the motivation. Rissa can regain Aunt's confidence. Rissa just wants to find Rizki on the right and halal way Auntie. "

" Yes dear, Auntie knows you better seek sustenance despite the most difficult circumstances while maintaining your self-esteem and honor. Never sell yourself for rupiah because only regrets will you feel. "

" No Aunty, as much as possible Rissa kept Rissa's pride and honor. Rissa doesn't want to live with Aunt's ill-gotten money. "

" Yes Rissa, Auntie will always support you. "

" Yes Aunt. "

Finally we ended our conversation when the nurse called us to give Farrell the result.

" Mom, after Mr. Farrell had an MRI and CT scan, Mr. Farrell had a coma due to a very hard impact during the accident and the failure of the surgery that had just been done. "

" Is that really Doctor ???

" Yes Mother, there is proof now. So we spoke of the patient's condition with this existing medical evidence. "

" Then can my son recover Doc ??? " Task Mama Farrell raucously.

" Depending on the Mother, Patients who experience Coma can last for a while can also be long. The important thing is that you pray, because after all the wonders of God are more powerful than anything else. We're the medical team here as mediators. "

" Yes Ma'am. "

Since Farrell's current status is in a coma, he will be admitted to the ICU so that his condition can be monitored intensively. During his stay in the ICU, Farrell was fitted with a breathing apparatus to keep his breathing rate in check.

Farrell will also be fitted with feeding tubes and infusions to include nutrients and medicines. The doctor will also install a heart rate monitor as well as a urine catheter.

Now we both can only see Farrell's condition through the glass. We couldn't touch her anymore, couldn't even get her to chat anymore. Things get more and more difficult when Farrell has to go into the ICU room again because the cost of the hospital is also getting bigger.

I don't know when Farrell will keep fighting like this. Actually I can't bear to see Farrell like this either. He fought and survived for us. But on the other hand I also have to start sincere if at any time Farrell can no longer survive. I mustn't be selfish, for Farrell's pity is too.

But will I be able to try to make Farrell's departure go away for ever ?????

Can you ????????

The answer is just I don't know.....😢

I'm still not ready to lose Farrell, who right now is half my life, my soul mate and everything for me. If Farrell had left me for ever, my life would have been ruined. I can't look into my future, because my encouragement has been gone.

Like a stick, Farrell is my guide in moving forward. Even he was the one who always pulled me back and despaired. Can you imagine without Farrell by my side ??? Maybe I'll stagger around not knowing the direction. I could have fallen into a very deep abyss or I could have died.

I was still pensive to remember the memories with Farrell, the wonderful moments that will never be repeated again. I've known him since 3rd grade Junior High. Where at that time we were one class, and the ridiculousness of trying to take my heart. But I didn't give him a chance to accept his love because of playboy nature.

As time went on, he changed once and became a very nice and responsible man. But as long as it can't melt my heart and love. Precisely now, when Farrell's condition is like this my love grows and is increasingly afraid of losing him.

" Rissa, seeing Farrell's situation like this, does Auntie have to try to make Farrell leave forever ???? Is Auntie unselfish to demand Farrell be healed, while seeing him fight life like that even makes Aunty's heart hurt even more ???. Auntie so can't bear to see Farrell continuously like this Riss. "

I am unable to answer Mama Farrell's question, for I cannot set my own heart at this time either. I also do not know if I also have to let Farrell go forever ??.

I could only answer Mama Farrell's question with my tears dripping down my face. I can't speak any more now. I was confused as to what to do, just by crying was I spilled all my pain.

Finally Farrell's mother understood my situation, she embraced me lovingly and tried to comfort me.

" Aunty's sure Farrell can see us now. Even she also knows what you are feeling right now Rissa. Auntie knows you're very sad, but Auntie also feels sad when she loses her. Most importantly, prayer is all we can do. "

" Yes Auntie, "I answered while sobbing.

" Let destiny proceed as it should...... "