Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 44 DREAM OR REAL ??????

I'm still in the hospital right now when Morgan's sister called me that Steffan was critical. God when the day I saw him was still fine.

During that time I heard how Mama Kak Steffan said that despite being sick, Kak Steffan was eager to do the exam at the hospital. And Alhamdulillah Kak Steffan still retains his class champion.

I know that Steffan is one of the smartest students in school. In fact, he also participated in the Olympics representing the School and managed to surpass the record champion at the provincial level. Many championship trophies he got since elementary school.

No wonder he had such sky-high ideals. I was inspired by him too. I want to be like Brother Steffan, even though I know that Kak Steffan's life expectancy is getting thinner.

Steffan's brother will now be referred to the largest hospital outside the city. Hopefully with more complete equipment, Steffan can have an even greater chance of survival.

But in her critical moments, Kak Steffan still asked me to meet her in her room.

" Sister Steffan, what's wrong, sister ????????. Why are you looking for Rissa ???? "

" Riss, whatever happens to Brother someday please you have to promise Brother if you have to keep the spirit of pursuing your dreams. "

" Yes Brother. I will definitely prove it to Brother one day, if I can pursue my ideals even though it is heavy. "

" Show Brother, that you can and can become a Wingless Butterfly someday. Promise to Riss. "

I held Steffan's hands together and could not let me shed these tears of sorrow. I feel like today is the last day I'm meeting Mr. Steffan. It was clear to Kak Steffan's eyes that he was unable to endure the pain of his cancer.

I wiped out Steffan's tears, there was a feeling of regret that he said to me. He regretted not being able to take care of his health.

But there was one thing he regretted the most, he would never be able to feel sitting in college. I know how he feels this time, he's been really hoping to reach his goal.

Poor little Steffan, he's a smart man, has a very caring and well-off family. But when fate says something else in an instant he loses all his dreams.

From here I got the wisdom of life, Dreams and Ideals are not only enough with the existence of intelligence and economic ability but all depends on the fate of the Almighty.

" Rissa, Brother has something for you. Please keep it well. Hope this is all beneficial to you Riss, "Sister Steffan gave me the package.

" Is this Brother ????. Don't bother Brother. "

" I know someday you'll need it and I hope you like it. Please take good care and don't open it now. "

" Why Brother ??? "

" Please open a gift from this Brother when Brother is gone Riss, " Brother Steffan's eyes make me tremble because there is pain that makes my cry break. I cried as much as I could next to Brother Steffan.

I hugged Mr. Steffan because I had a premonition that he was leaving us all. It was hard to let go of Steffan when the nurse said she would take Steffan to the biggest hospital outside the city.

On the way to the ambulance I continued beside Kak Steffan, while shedding tears I continued to encourage Kak Steffan.

But I saw her beautiful smile and she waved at me, a hunch that it was her goodbye to me. Astaghfirullah hal Adzim....

" Deg "I don't know if there were any feelings of disarray when Kak Steffan waved his hand that time. Perhaps he also felt that his death was approaching.

When Mr. Steffan was in the ambulance, he kept looking at me and wanted to say something but I couldn't digest it. The ambulance that Steffan was riding on left and I could only see him getting further away.

Brother Steffan is one of my inspirations, that an ideal must be fought for. Whatever it is and whatever it is !!!!!!!.

I wish there were miracles and miracles for Sister Steffan. I still need Steffan's sister for her motivation, which always encourages me. He's one of the people who can make me confident looking at the future despite the limitations that exist.

" Thank you for everything all this time, I was lucky to get to know Brother. "

To me, Steffan's sister is like my brother. I hope this feeling is wrong, and I can be with her for a while longer. I closed my farewell at this hospital with my tears.

" Keep fighting Brother, "Do me in your heart.

Today is my first day into 2nd grade at this Favorite High School. I majored in Social Sciences, because it was very related to the major that I would take later when studying in Psychology. And again I'm in Farrell's class. I prefer to sit separately with him. I want to keep my distance from him.

Of the subjects I liked most about Sociology. And it just so happens that the teacher teaching those subjects is my Class Guardians. Just call her Ma'am Hana, she's the greatest teacher to me. I became close to him because I always helped him. Her motherly and patient figure made our class very compact.

One day Ms. Hana asked me to help her with her schoolwork.

" Rissa, can you help me correct these tasks ? "

" Can Ma'am, let me help. "

" Well, you want to be a psychologist, right, Riss ??? "

" Yes Ma'am, I want to be a Psychologist Ma'am. "

" Your ideals are very good, because being a psychologist is a noble ideal. By being a psychologist you can help others who need your help. "

" Yes Ma'am, ask for his prayer Ma'am so that Rissa can reach the ideals of Rissa Bu. "

" Yes Riss, I will always pray for you Riss. The important thing now is to study diligently and hopefully you can be lucky to get a Scholarship to College. I'm sure you can Riss."

" Yes Ma'am. "

Suddenly my phone called in.

" Yes what's up, Brother Morgan. "

" Riss, Steffan Riss, " In a stammering voice and sobbing Isak Kak Morgan told me something.

" Sister Steffan why Brother ?? "

" Steffan's been leaving us for a long time Riss. "

" Deg "My heart seems to stop beating.

Is This a Dream or Real ??????