Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 180 MY FORMER FIRST LOVE

I hung up the phone from my fiancee and put my phone in my bag. I looked around the road with the bus that was going to take me to Surabaya.

When I was busy looking at the scene, someone patted me on the shoulder. Suddenly I was shocked and afraid that he was a handyman who liked to hypnotize bus passengers like the gossip I heard. I slowly turned to look at the person who patted me on the shoulder.

Do you know who patted my shoulder ?????

He is Rayhan, My Former First Love !!!!

" Rissa, "Sapa Rayhan.

" Rayhan, is this you ??? " I asked back.

" Why Riss, have you forgotten me ??? "

" Oh yeah, you're a little changed from what you used to be."

" Do I look prettier what's worse than Riss ??? "

" Beautiful, "I answered with a laugh.

" Really ??? "

" yes. "

" Can I sit next to you ??? "

" Ok, please at least I have a friend to chat with. "

" Where are you going ? "

" Surabaya. "

" Oh yes, we have the same goal. I also want to go to Surabaya. "

" You go to college what work there ??? "

" College, major in Psychology. You Ray ??? "

" I also studied Information Technology (IT) Riss. "

" Yes Ray. "

" How come we never met at all in college ??? "

" Yes, you know, our campus is big and big. Moreover, our faculty stands alone and the distance is also quite far. Boro-boro wants to see you, I came home from college and went straight back to the boarding house. Hehe. "

" Yes Riss, I rarely hang out. Unless invited by a team, I just want to go out. "

" Oh that. "

" Yes Ris. "

" yes. "

" Riss, can I say something not the same to you ??? "

" I can, please. "

" I want to apologize about our relationship first. I know you must be hurt right, I was wrong Riss and I've been selfish. "

" It's Ray, it's all just a memory of the past. At least I can feel the name of heartache because of what love is like. And that's what made me strong and survive until now. "

" Sometimes I regret ever leaving you at that time Riss, I'd rather obey my parents' will to prefer Raysa. I'm really sorry to have thrown away a diamond just for the sake of a gold KW. "

" I'm not with him anymore, Riss, especially when I know he's just using me for treasure. His family is broke, so he just wants to use me. That's why I parted with him. "

" Oh so Ray, just be patient. Surely you will get a much better replacement. "

" Then what about you Riss ??? "

" Do you remember Farrell ??? "

" Our old classmates, right ??? Yes why Riss ??? But I've heard the news about him that he was in an accident, right ??? "

" After we broke up, he was the one who tried to take care of me and love me sincerely. But I can never accept his love."

" But that time wasn't it ??? "

" We never dated Ray, he just helped me to make you jealous. He would do anything to make me fall in love with him. He was the one who always tried to make me happy when I was hurt because of you back then. "

" I'm sorry Riss, I'm really stupid."

" No Ray, it's all fate. All this is a way of life from him. "

" Then Farrell is he really dead ??? "

I fell silent and took a long breath. A moment later my tears fell on my cheeks. I cried as much as I remembered all the memories of Farrell. For some reason, even though Arsel is now my fiancee, but my memories with Farrell are always eternal in my memory. I cried when I remembered it again.

" Yes Ray, Farrell is dead. He was in an accident shortly after we both met. Even after the accident, his spirit came to my boarding house to say goodbye to me. So much love for me, that she wanted me to see her one last time. Even I was next to him when he breathed his last while in the hospital. At dawn, I dreamed she kissed me on the forehead while stroking my hair and saying goodbye that she would be gone forever, "I told her with sobs.

" I know how you feel Riss, but you have to let him go anyway. "

" I sincerely Rayhan, but what makes me regret is that I did not have time to say that I also love him until finally we were separated by death. I wanted Farrell to know that I was actually starting to love him back then. But it's all too late. "

" Farrell is happy now at Heaven Riss, because I know he is a good man. I'm sure Farrell can realize that you love him a lot too, Farrell must know Riss. "

" I'm engaged to another man now, but I don't know why I still haven't forgotten all about Farrell even though he's long since dead. "

" That's what Riss's true love is. A holy love that need not be expressed, but is always in the heart. Moreover, love was brought to death Riss, therefore you are very difficult to forget it. Because Farrell means so much to you. But slowly you still have to prioritize your current fiancee Riss, she is your future now. Farrell wants you to move on with your life and be happy. "

" Yes Rayhan, that was his last wish before he died. "

" It's true, yes, you have now wiped away your tears. Not good if you see people ??? "

" Yes Ray. "

" This, "Said Rayhan while giving me a handkerchief.

" Handkerchief ???? "

" Yes just like you used to do to me, give me a handkerchief. But this time let me give you a handkerchief. "

" Oh, no need Ray. "

" Just take this handkerchief, I don't mean anything. I know myself, I just want to give you this handkerchief but not to wipe your tears. Because there are other men more entitled to it, your fiancee. So take this handkerchief and please wipe your own tears. Is that right ??? "

" Yes already then, "I replied while taking a handkerchief from Rayhan even though I actually did it just because it was bad for him.

I immediately wiped away the remains of my tears that had soaked my cheeks.

I don't know why God reunited me with my Former First Love. What surprise will happen to me in the future ????

The story gets more exciting, right ???????? 🥰😍.