Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 144 MY DECISION IS ALREADY UNANIMOUS

With a giant step I left Erika's house. Once again I turned to the huge and magnificent house. Maybe this is the last time I step on Erika's house. It is so hard for this heart to leave this city. But anyway all of this has become my agreement with Erika that will not be changed or denied.

I immediately walked towards the big road and looked for angkot or ojek. And there happened to be an ojek walking towards me. I really enjoyed the trip this time, whether it could not be expressed in words that it was really hard to leave the city that became my hope.

But suddenly I want to go down to Surabaya city square.

" Mister get off here, sir, "I said to Mr. taxi driver.

" Yes, be careful. "

" Yes sir, "I answered while giving the fare.

I stepped and walked towards the Surabaya city square. Even while I was in the city of Surabaya, I have not fully walked around enjoying the beauty of the tourism.

I went around looking for the best seat. And not for how long did I get a proper seat facing the big highway. I sat there staring at my fate at this moment. I can't deny I'm really very heavy to have to leave all my dreams and ideals in this city.

In my circumstances like this, my little heart wanted a miracle. I still really hope Erika changes my decision and lets me go to college again. I try to recall how I struggled to get to this city.

I didn't feel like I was crying again considering everything I've been fighting for all this time, it has to end here. I don't blame Erika, because it's all a decision I've made.

" Why has my fate become like this God, until when will happiness come to me. I'm tired of God....... " I'm crying as much as I can.

But suddenly I was surprised by the hand of someone holding my shoulder. I'm actually a little scared, because I'm sitting here alone right now. I'm afraid someone's got bad intentions on me.

" raisa. "

I know that voice, it's Bryant. But how did he get here ????. How did he know I was here ???? "

I turned towards Bryant while wiping my tears. With her eyes still a bit puffy, I smiled at her.

" Bryant, how can you be here anyway ???? "

" What a hobby is crying ??? "

" What ??? " I was shocked to hear Bryant's question.

" Yes, I often see you cry alone, so I ask directly this same lo. Really you are a hobby of crying Riss ??? "

" Our world is indeed different Bryant, in your world among the rich if for example sad must be busy looking for diversion or impingement. For example, the streets to the Mall, to the Cafe, Shopping and so forth. As for me poor people, if sad what would you want ??? Want to find a diversion or an impingement we do not have money. Yes it's the only way yes cry it. Understand kan. "

" Okay, it's up to you. Then why are you here even crying here too ???? " Bryant sat next to me.

I was pensive and ignored Bryant for a long time. My mind went blankly ahead.

" It looks like I'm leaving Bryant's town, "I'm trying to explain to Bryant.

" But why Riss ??? "

" It's my decision, and it's the best way for all of us. "

" It must be because of Erika right ???. All this must not be your decision but Erika's request right ??? "

" There's no need to bring Erika again Bryant, which must have been my decision."

" What happiness means to me, there is only continuous suffering. Never mind Bryant, you don't have to interfere. My Decision is Round. I will leave this city soon. I'll go home and never come back here again. "

" It's not fair to you Riss, you should realize that Erika has gone too far. How can anyone play to the future and the ideals of others. Anyway I do not agree, you have to continue to fight and continue the ideals of Lo Riss. Although I do not know how much struggle you can go to college here, but I do not want you to drop out of college just like that. "

" I'm sorry Bryant, I will stick to my decision to stay in this city. "

" Yes it's up to you, which for sure I have told you to fight for what is rightfully yours. You think about it Riss, do not be sorry later on. "

" I've been thinking about this Bryant, and I've decided to leave it all behind. So it's useless that if you try to get in my way, I'll still go. "

Bryant looked me in the eye so deeply and deeply. I don't know what he's thinking. He must be worried about my situation.

" Ok, it's up to you. How hard I try to block you, you're definitely going to leave. But I hope you can change your decision. "

" Yes, thank you for being my story friend. "

" Oh yeah, so we don't eat together ???. For the sake of lo I must resist hunger know not lo. "

" Same, I haven't had time to eat either. Then why also do you not eat, then why do you wait for me too ???? "

" Sorry, I am a person of commitment. Not like the one you love that Arsel, plan !!! "

" Have not discussed him again, besides I have nothing to do with him. "

" It should be that from the beginning he loves you, yes it has not been necessary to enter again into Erika's life whatever the reason. "

" But Arsel was like that at my request and Bryant, he was not wrong. "

" Belain keeps it's lo's shadow lover. "

" Why shadow lover anyway ???? "

" Yes he's a no-obvious guy. Isn't it right ???? "

" Are you jealous ????? "

" Hiiii amit-amit I'm jealous of him, besides I'm no less cool and handsome than him. "

" Yes, it's up to you. Yes already eat yuk, hungry this. "

" Lo go with me under these circumstances ??? "

" What's the matter ???? I look bad and ugly, don't I ??? "

" Not because for me, you're always pretty in my eyes. "

" Halah so much you, just say you actually also had to take me with my shabby situation like this ??? "

" Not really, because for me you are very special and second to none. "

And I laughed too, it looks like this Bryant is erring.