Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 148 BETWEEN TWO CHOICES

Finally Erika now began to realize, she began to open her eyes. When he had regained his consciousness, all he did was hug Kak Arsel while crying. I had to endure the jealousy in my heart. My eyes were hot and my heart was pierced and hurt.

I almost left them, but suddenly Brother Arsel took my hand and forbade me to leave.

" Erika, you should thank Rissa. Because what ??? Because you owe him your life. He has donated his blood to you, because your blood type is very rare. And now you can get through those critical times thanks to him. "

" It doesn't need to be like that, Arsel. And Erika I'm happy and grateful to see you sober now. Hope your health will recover quickly. "

" I don't want to feel indebted or indebted to you, just mention the nominal you want. "

" You mean what is Erika ??? You want to insult Rissa's pride ??? "

" Because I don't want to owe him anything or his life. "

" It's so outrageous of you Erika !!!! I even regret having loved someone like you. "

" It's Arsel and Erika. I sincerely do all this, I also do not need money from you Erika. While you are still a rich person, keep your money well. And one more thing, just use your money as well as possible. Don't use your money to buy other people's self-esteem. Since we don't know the next few years, what our fate is, "I immediately stepped out leaving Erika and Brother Arsel.

But Brother Arsel even left Erika, and chased me.

" Rissa, wait, "Sister Arsel shouted after me.

" Why did Arsel come after me anyway. "

" And how should I go Riss ???? Do I have to follow your advice to keep Erika happy ??? Then when should I think of my own happiness as well as our happiness Riss ???? "

" Our happiness ??? "

" Yes our happiness, I really love you very much Riss. From the beginning I've loved you since our meeting. I fell in love with you at first sight."

" But I don't think our love is right Brother Arsel. How can I be happy to have a relationship with Arsel while there is another heart hurt ??? I can't possibly be happy on top of Erika's suffering. I'm not the selfish type. "

" Yes I know Riss, but at least you're honest with your feelings that you love me too right ??? "

" I don't know Brother Arsel, "I replied weakly.

" I'm sorry Brother Arsel, I don't intend to hurt Brother Arsel. "

" It's okay Riss, maybe I'm the one who's too selfish and too expecting the same love from you. If you feel uncomfortable I'm close to you, just say Riss. That way I'll be out of your life. I don't want to make you sad let alone feel burdened. I just want to see you happy. "

" That's not how I mean Brother Arsel, it's just that I can't accept Arsel's love with Erika's current state. "

" I once again ask you Riss, do you love me too ??? If you love me, we must fight for our happiness. But if you don't have the same feelings as me, I won't force you Riss. I'll get away from your life Riss. "

I was at a loss to answer Brother Arsel's question which put me in Between the Two Choices. On the other hand, I actually love Arsel even though I don't know what made me fall for him. But on the other hand, I couldn't bear to see Erika hurt to see our relationship.

" I'm sorry Brother Arsel..... "

Not finished I gave an answer to Brother Arsel, he stood up and invited me to go home. Along the way, we were both silent and busy in our minds.

If Brother Arsel knew, that I wanted to say that I apologize because I needed time to receive love from Brother Arsel. But I want Arsel to know too, that I love him too. I will fight for our love and happiness without hurting Erika. But unfortunately, Arsel did not give me a chance to say it.

When I got to my boarding house, Brother Arsel just drove me and brought some of my things and gave me a little advice.

" From now on, you have to keep fighting for what your dreams and ideals are. Don't let anyone else take away what's rightfully yours Riss. At least fight for the person you want to fight for. Even though I know, I am not on the list of people you want to fight for. But I always wish you the best Riss. "

Brother Arsel immediately returned to his car, and left me with a wound in his heart. I don't know how to express my true feelings. But I don't know how to start.

I immediately entered my room and immediately cleaned up all my belongings and clothes. At least I've done great things to Erika, and now I have the right to continue my dreams and aspirations again. Despite everything that has happened, I've been trying to make up for everything to Erika.

Now I'm pensive to think about how I feel about Brother Arsel, like there's something missing in my life right now. If Brother Arsel really proves what he said to leave me, I don't know if I can get through this.

I don't know what made me fall in love with her. I feel comfortable with him whenever I get close to him. I felt calm and happy every time I met him.

Although I am currently close to Bryant, I have no feelings for him. Bryant was very caring and considerate of me, but unfortunately I only consider him to be nothing more than a close friend.

Between Kak Arsel and Bryant is indeed a male figure who has a difference. Brother Arsel is a gentle, romantic, and mature figure. Bryant is cold, indifferent, but cares deeply about me. The two men both care deeply about me, but unfortunately my heart has been anchored to the heart of Brother Arsel.

One day I hope God will bring me the best soul mate. I do love Brother Arsel, but I also do not know if he is my soul mate. God knows what I need more than I want.