Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 190 LOVER SHADOW

I was finally allowed to go home from Puskesmas, this time I was allowed to rest first. Bryant forbade me from taking part in any work program that started today. I don't want to have to obey his orders. Bryant led me to the front door and then he just left.

As I headed to my bed, I felt something strange and changed. A nice, thick new mattress. Many times I check if this is my place or not. Still in doubt, suddenly there was a text coming in.

" I'm just trying to give my best to you, so I want you to get the most comfortable place. All that I do because I love you without asking for anything in return. "

I know Bryant did all this for me. He just doesn't want to see me sick anymore. But I never thought, she had so far noticed me. He tried to be the best man even though he had no relationship with me.

The night our group had a joint study event. And this is included in one of our work programs, which is essentially to strengthen the friendship rope and maintain the social spirit that has always been owned by the community in this village.

I attended this event by wearing a hijab and a dress to appreciate this activity. I am very impressed with the characteristics of the community here that highly upholds social values in its society. After the show was over, we disbanded. I saw Bryant pensively sitting down alone. Then I approached him.

" Bryant, what's wrong with you ??? "

" I don't know, tonight it's like I'm getting guidance. I realized that all this time I had been a useless person. I've been a selfish person, individual and never cared about my neighbor. Here I learned about the meaning of simple but meaningful life. I used to hate the poor and think of them as inferior. But now I feel low. "

" No need to think that far, you already want to be aware and improve yourself better that's good Bryant. We all live in this world with our own destiny. You are lucky to have a destiny as a person who has a treasure, while people like me are also very grateful to be able to live a simple life like this. Because underneath us there are still people whose fate is worse than ours. "

" Once again sorry I am Riss, I used to insult you because you are poor. I hate you so much that I got his karma. I fell in love with you and it made me realize that wealth does not guarantee happiness. Sorry I'm Riss, " Bryant said as he hugged me.

" Yes, it's okay Bryant. Not good hugs here, there will be people who wriggle how. "

" Yes sorry, " Bryant said as he let go of his embrace.

" Oiya, Bryant by the way thank you for the bed. I didn't expect you to pay the same attention to me, but how can that mattress be in my place ??? "

" Don't think about it, it's my men's job. The important thing is that I can relax and see that you are not cold anymore. "

" You don't do too well to me Bryant."

" Why Riss ??? "

" Don't shake the fortifications of my heart for Arsel. "

" I never once intended to make you love me Riss. I knew and realized that you belonged to Arsel. We just put it together with God. Even if you are Arsel's soul mate, I'm sincere as long as you are happy with him. But if you are my soul mate, I am ready to accept you as Riss is. I don't know why I feel this big, but I don't want to force you either. All this is due to heart problems. "

" Yes Bryant, thank you. I'm lucky God has met a man as good as you. "

" Together Riss. "

" Let's hope I'm not like Farrell and Riss. "

" Why can you say that ??? "

" I still remember the time we were stuck in the ravine of the Psychocamp event. Lo tell me about Farrell and me. Farrell loved you so much, that in the end death separated you both. And that's when you realize that you love him. Farrell goes away forever with a love that claps one hand. I hope my fate is not like that. "

" Why every time I hear Farrell's name, I feel this pain in my heart. Those are all my memories of Bryant, please don't connect Farrell and our relationship. It's different, our story is different. You should know Farrell will never be replaced, forever he will have his own place in my heart. You'll never know my fondest memories of those years with him. "

" Let me be the second Farrell. "

" What do you mean Bryant ??? "

" Make me your shadow lover. "

" Shadow Beloved ???? "

" Yes, let me stay alive next to you, yet as if I am invisible. The important thing is that I can still see you, love you and love you even though you never thought I existed. "

" Why does it have to be like Bryant, isn't that unfair to you ??? "

" It's okay Riss, you're happy. "

" But I don't have the heart of Bryant, you've been too kind to me. "

" It's okay, Riss, you mean so much to my life. Seeing you happy with Arsel alone, I am very happy. Just like Farrell, there he must be happy to see you happy. Especially if you know you prefer me, what is my lack ??? I'm more handsome, richer, more romantic and certainly more understanding than Arsel. I wonder why you prefer that Arsel. "

" Relapse of the disease, lebai. "

" Riss, for example, you will marry Arsel do not invite me ??? "

" Why ??? "

" Because I'll never be able to see you hanging out with other men in the underwriting. But I'm always willing to give my shoulders back when you get hurt. Remember my promise, whenever and however I want to accept all your circumstances. So if one day Arsel is not expecting or does not love you anymore, come to me. Because I was always there for you. As long as I'm alive, I'll always be waiting. Not a single woman could distract me from falling in love with her. It's just in my heart. "

I was moved by Bryant's sincerity, and my heart trembled at the words that came out of his voice. And I also felt a baper and did not feel the tears dripping from the corner of my eyes. I am really moved.....