Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 143 BETWEEN YOU

" Arsel, just gini now. You choose me or Rissa ????? "

" What do you mean Rik ??? Arsel asked Erika.

" You just choose between me and Rissa. I can't keep believing. "

" I'm sorry Erika, I can't choose. "

" You can't choose or can't answer because in your heart, you like the same Rissa ???. Arsel I know you don't want to hurt me right ??? "

Brother Arsel approached Erika, he hugged Erika while crying.

" Erika, you are the best woman that has ever filled my heart and my life. I've loved you more than anything. But please forgive me for now I can no longer love you. I don't want to pretend to love you, I don't want to lie about your feelings. So I better tell you the truth even though the reality is bitter for all of us. "

Erika took off a hug from Arsel's sister, then she approached me.

" Plaque !!!! " A hard slap landed on my cheek.

I never thought Erika would slap me like this, but I was self-conscious because it was all my fault. What Erika did was simply her feelings that were currently being completely hurt.

" So because of this woman you don't love me anymore ???? " Sobbing Erika asked Brother Arsel.

" Yes, " answered Brother Arsel honestly.

Holding my cheek that was still sore from the slap so hard, I tried to explain something to Erika.

" Erika, you can slap me as much as you can just make up for a little bit of my guilt. But you should always know Rik, even though Kak Arsel loves me but I do not accept his love. "

" Not accepting his love doesn't mean you don't love him either, right ??. Don't be a hypocrite, I know you really love Arsel. You didn't accept her love because you didn't feel good to me right ??? "

" It's not like that Rik, I'm not the type of person who would be happy on top of the suffering of others. Moreover it's you Rik, I'm not that nice. Even I've been trying to make you happy despite the fact that it actually becomes like this Rik. Please don't misunderstand me Rik. "

" If you had never been in my life and I had never known you, maybe my life wouldn't have been ruined like this Riss. It's true that you are indeed an unlucky carrier, I'm really sorry to ever know someone like you. "

" Then what should I do so that I can make up for all my mistakes to you Rik ???. Just say at least it can make you happy. "

" Just one choice. "

" Go away and leave everything, never come back. Leave this city of Surabaya. "

I was shocked by Erika's answer that was beyond my expectations. I couldn't say anything when Erika told me that. Maybe I should have left everything, my dreams and ideals all along. Maybe I should follow Erika's request. My journey here has not been easy. It took a lot of struggle and sacrifice so great that I could be at this point...

" Nothing, because as long as you're here, Arsel will never be able to forget you Riss. Because if I can't have Arsel, you can never have it either. Fair right ??? "

I was silent for a moment and tried to think. Until suddenly Brother Arsel approached us both.

" Don't act like that, Erika, because you are destroying Rissa's future, dreams and ideals. You can't be selfish like that. "

" He's ruined my future, even everything I've got. "

" Do you think this is all her fault ?? "

" Oh, surely, it still needs to be questioned ??? "

" but...... "

Brother Arsel had not had time to continue his words, but had been cut off by Erika.

" Riss, whatever you want. For sure if you want to make up for all your mistakes to me, and solve all our problems until the roots you have to leave everything. We both lose our future. "

" Well, I'll think of your request Rik. But just so you know, I did all this for your happiness Rik. "

" Yes it should be like that, you better go back to your origin in the village. And we'll all live quietly as we can. "

" I didn't expect you to be this shortsighted Rik. You gave a very difficult request and harmed Erika. In addition to losing his future, his dreams, he will also hold a mental burden on his family and even his neighbors. In the village it is still thick with a word that failure equals disgrace. He would bear the mental burden for the rest of his life because he quit college, "Sister Arsel tried to defend me.

" I don't care, the important thing is that he's out of here. I also want to live a quiet life without him here again, " replied Erika.

" Without Rissa, I want to go back and fall in love with you again ??? No Rik, I never even thought that this blind love of yours would hurt and destroy others. Moreover, it is the person who was once your best friend. "

" Already Brother Arsel, I will obey Erika's request. I'll leave everything for Erika. Maybe in a way like this, it could change his judgment on me. I'm both women, just like her. I could feel his sadness, his inner wound from an undue love. And it's true that I'm the one who's wrong here, I've entered between you. Once again I'm sorry, hopefully with me out of here can change everything as usual, "I shed my tears.

" You're a good woman Riss, your heart is also very clean. You are always thinking about the happiness of others and putting aside your own happiness. I'm sure everything will be beautiful in time. Here I learned something from you, Riss, that giving up is so much better than being selfish. And I'm sure people as good and sincere as you will get happiness at the right time, " Brother Arsel is trying to strengthen me. "

" Thank you, Arsel. "

" Yes let me drive you home, " Brother Arsel offered.

" No, Brother Arsel, this time let me go home alone. I don't want to trouble you guys anymore. I want to go back to the village too. Thank you for everything, please forgive all my mistakes. And for Brother Arsel, please take care of Erika. I know he's still the same as he used to be. Erika is kind and sincere. It was just that he was currently enveloped in a sense of emotion. Erika, Brother Arsel I say yes. Take good care of yourself, "I removed the details of my tears and immediately left them both.