Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 74 MY PREJUDICES

" How many days did you spend at your mother's house Riss ??? "

" It was just last night, Rell. "

" Why just a minute Riss ??? "

" Pity my mother Rell, I don't want to trouble her."

" Yes Riss. "

Suddenly Farrell stopped his bike and stopped at one of the fruit stalls.

" You want to buy Rell fruit. " I asked Farrell.

" Yes Riss. " Absaid Farrell briefly.

I helped Farrell pick a nice, fresh fruit. Farrell bought two kilos of apples and also two kilos of pears. I don't know why he bought so much fruit. But I dare not ask him.

" This is for you and your family Riss, "Farrell offered me the fruits he bought.

" Why me and my family Rell ?? "

" There's no harm in me wanting to be closer to your family Riss. "

" Yes Rell, thank you, too, Rell. You really do bother. "

" Don't bother, just buy fruit. Yes, let's go up. We continue the journey. "

" Yes Rell. Go !!! "

We also continued our journey. I felt sleepy as the wind blew against my face. Unconscious, I fell asleep on Farrell's shoulders. I look good, maybe I feel really tired. Suddenly Farrell woke me up.

" Riss, wake up Riss. Soon we arrive at your house, it is not good if we arrive at your house with your condition like this. "

I realized, it was true Farrell said I had to take my arms off Farrell's stomach and wake up. In our village, we have to really take care of our behavior.

I immediately invited Farrell into my house. My mother immediately welcomed us and invited us to come in. I gave Farrell the fruit that Farrell bought to my mother.

" This is from Farrell Ma'am, "I said.

" I'm sorry Farrell bothers me, I'm not so good. "

" It's okay Mom, that's all Farrell can give Mom. " Answer Farrell.

" Thank you, Son Farrell, let's sit down and make some sweet tea. "

" Don't bother Ma'am, "Pinta Farrell.

" Oh no, kid, just sweet tea. Just a minute, yeah. ''

" Yes Ma'am. "

She left us in the kitchen to make drinks for Farrell.

" Riss. "

" Yes Rell. "

" What time are you going home tomorrow ??? "

" About 9 o'clock might be Rell. Why ??? "

" I'm taking Riss ?? "

" No need to Rell, than you go back and forth later tired of Rell. "

" Yes if you don't want Riss. "

" Don't sulk that Rell. "

" Hmmm taking ngambek all. "

" Hehehe. Kirain lashed out, "I'm teasing Farrell.

" I'm a kid, wear everything. "

" Yes Rell. "

" Oiya, how did you graduate from school ??? On graduating all right ???? "

" Yes ma'am, thank God we graduated all. Even Alhamdulillah Rissa got the best first grade and got the chance to go to University without the test Mom, "I feel proud to say that to Mom.

" Thank God, son, you finally managed to get the best value. And you can also enter the University without a test yes, hopefully your ideals can be realized yes son yes. "

" Yes Ma'am, all thanks to Mother's prayers. And for Farrell he also passed Ma'am. "

" So you guys don't get graduated at school with doodles of clothes ????. Usually do not children today not miss doing such a tradition ???. "

" For a while this year we all didn't do that Mom, because we appreciate our comrades-in-arms who didn't pass Ma'am. "

" Lho so anyone didn't pass ???? "

" Yes Ma'am, there are three children who did not pass Ma'am. Fortunately it didn't come from our class. From another class, ma'am. "

" Pity, son, they must be very sad because they did not graduate. "

" Yes Ma'am. "

Not long after Farrell was saying goodbye to go home, I felt very sad Farrell left at that time.

" Be careful Rell. "

" Yes Riss. "

Farrell smiled at me, I waved at him. The more days I feel the more scared away from Farrell.

" O Allah keep my Bad Prejudices about my fear of losing Farrell out of my mind. " My prayer in my heart.

Honestly, now that I feel like I'm getting close to losing Farrell, I'm not ready to live without Farrell. I still desperately need Farrell to strengthen me. I can't imagine Farrell leaving my life forever.

I'm sure that if Farrell leaves me, I will be devastated and never be able to rise up to fight again. Farrell is one of my strengths to fight for my goals. Even now that I'm starting to love her, I wish my relationship with Farrell could be more than a friend.

I want Farrell to know about my feelings, and I'm waiting for the right moment. Farrell's birthday week away, maybe that's the perfect moment. I'll surprise him and tell him I love him so much. From then on I hope to be a good match for Farrell.

I daydreamed and wondered how it would be if we could study together at the same University. We are looking for Kosos that are not so far away, eating together, studying together. Graduation together !!!!!. I can't wait for those moments.

Until then my daydream was broken......

My phone rang and I saw Farrell calling me.

" Hello, is there what Rell ??? "

" Riss, it's yuk road tonight. "

" Where is Rell ??? "

" Just go for a walk, eat meatballs or eat soto which is important I can meet you. "

" You're Rell, I'm not gonna see me. You're Rell. "

" No one knows Rell. "

" Huss !!!! I don't like you talking about Rell's death. "

" Yes, I'll pick you up tonight. "

" Yes Rell. "

I closed my phone. I also took a break to release the fatigue. But suddenly my youngest brother took me for a walk later tonight to the Night Market. How I refused my beloved sister's invitation.

Inevitably I cancelled my show with Farrell, because I could at least make my sister sad. Because I think there's still plenty of time for me to meet Farrell.

When I called Farrell to cancel the show with him, Farrell was disappointed at first. But because I managed to convince me that I wanted to make my sister happy, she finally wanted to understand as well.

Tonight I finally went with my sisters to the night market. I am so happy to be able to walk three times with my sisters. My youngest sister asked me to buy a triplets shirt, she said for a memento. In order to make my sisters happy, I followed their request.

But honestly from the bottom of my heart there was a bit of regret that I canceled Farrell's invitation. Somehow the bad prejudices about my fear of losing Farrell always haunted me.