Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 93 GOD WILL NOT GIVE YOU TRIALS BEYOND YOUR ABILITY !!!

After the suicide of the day, I tried to gather my remaining spirit to reorganize my life. Although my life is now heavier and continues to be shadowed by the memories of my past with Farrell.

Suddenly my phone rang, when I saw her it was Mama Farrell who called me.

" Hello Rissa. "

" Yes Aunty, what's the matter Aunt ??? "

" Riss, you are ready tomorrow we go to Surabaya. We go there in the morning so as not to get stuck. "

" To Surabaya Aunt ???. What's the show, Aunt ???? "

" Your college enrollment and also all looking for Kosos there. "

" But Aunt Rissa doesn't have any Auntie preparation, and Rissa doesn't have enough savings for Auntie's college. "

" It was thought later while the important path you list first. Is not your college free and for the business of cost and daily costs you can go to college while working. "

" But Aunt. "

" Well, after all, you have to go to Rissa's, this is your last chance. This is the last wave of registration and inevitably, you have to go to college. For transportation matters and your living costs while let Auntie who is giggling. "

" Why does Auntie care so much about Rissa ??? "

" Because thanks to you, Auntie's son became a better son. Auntie feels indebted to you. Auntie doing this also wants to fulfill the wishes of Farrell who wants you to succeed. "

" Yes Aunt thank you. "

" All together. Yes, you are getting ready soon, tomorrow morning Auntie pick up there. "

" Yes Aunt. "

I immediately rushed to see Mom and asked my sister to take my things to the boarding house. My mother allowed me and supported me so much to continue my studies.

After arriving at the boarding house I immediately cleaned up all my belongings and immediately went home. But as I stared at the bench in front of my room, I remembered Farrell always sitting there waiting for me. This kosan has so many memories of me with him. I will never forget the most beautiful memory Farrell ever made of me.

" Goodbye beloved Kosan, kosan full of stories and beautiful memories. "

After everything was done, we went straight home. Tomorrow I'll go to Surabaya. Hopefully in a new place I can open a new leaf, closing the bitter memories of a deep sense of loss.

After arriving home, I saw a car parked in my yard which is quite simple.

" Who is the guest, "I ask in my heart.

As I entered the house I saw a Mother and her husband sitting in the living room. I was no stranger to them, but I forgot.

" Rissa, remember Auntie ????? "

" I'm sorry I don't remember, but it seems like Auntie is no stranger to me. Have we ever met Auntie ??? "

" Rissa, this aunt is Steffan's mother. Now remember, right ???? "

" Oh my goodness, Auntie, how are you ??? "

" Thank God Rissa. "

" Aunty came all the way to Rissa's house, what interests if you may know ??? "

" Is it possible that the new number is Auntie ??? Rissa didn't know there was an incoming call. Pas Rissa wants a phone call back her number never active again Auntie. "

" Yes after Aunt tried several times to contact you not long from that lost Aunt's phone does not know where. "

" When does Auntie know where Rissa's address is Auntie ??? "

" From your school Riss. "

" Oh so Auntie. "

" Yes Riss, yes it's directly to the subject of this conversation Riss. So Aunt's goal here is to fulfill Aunt's promise to you. "

" What promise is Auntie ??? "

" Aunty once promised to pay for your college for Steffan. And yesterday Aunty to your school said you get a scholarship to go to college at no cost. So if that's true, Auntie just transfer the monthly money to you. You want to accept Auntie's offer, right Riss ??? Thank you Rissa, for the late Steffan to calm down there. "

Once again I shed my tears, now I remember two very good men and everything is gone for ever. I don't know what God has planned for me, God took all the lives of the good men I've ever been close to.

I cried so much and Steffan's mother tried to comfort me.

" Patience Rissa, Auntie has heard of the bitter incident that just happened to you. Losing the person we love and love is painful and bitter, but believe me behind it all there must be a silver lining. You must accept all these trials and trials and wait for God to change your happiness many times over.

" Yes Aunt, "I answered while wiping my tears.

" All will be beautiful in time Rissa, trust Auntie. Auntie was sure that one day Rissa would become a great person. "

" Amin, thanks Aunt. "

" Yes, then Aunt Om said yes first, and this please you accept and use as well as possible, "His late mother Kak Steffan gave me an envelope.

" Is this Auntie ??? "

" Aunty is happy to fulfill Aunt's promise, just accept yes. This money is not much, but later after Rissa has gone to college Aunt will send every month. ''

" I'm sorry Auntie, but Rissa can't accept any of this. "

" Why Rissa ??? For God's sake Aunty sincerely Rissa. "

" Rissa doesn't want to go into debt and bother Auntie. Aunty does not need to be like this, because later Rissa can work while in college. "

" If you are like this you are the same as hurting Aunt and also the late Steffan Riss, "His late mother Kak Steffan looks sad and sheds her tears.

I was confused and could not bear to see his late mother Kak Steffan. Inevitably I was forced to accept the help of his late Mother Kak Steffan. We hugged each other until he finally gave us permission. I forgot to say my gratitude many times.

The envelope containing the money was not opened at all and I immediately put it in the bag that I brought to Surabaya tomorrow. May Allah repay all the kindness of those who have always been by my side and help me like this.

I am grateful that in my current situation, there are still many who care about me and support my future. At least I'm not alone in my toughest conditions right now. May this be the path God has sent me to lead me to my future.

Now I come to my senses and remember the words "God Won't Give You Temptation Beyond Your Ability. "

Honestly melted this heart, and did not feel the dripping of these tears wetting the cheeks. I had suudzon to God and considered him not dear to me..😢😢😢

Right now I really feel it, God is not sleeping. God will not let you alone face life as bitter as it is !!!!!!!