Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 169 PILGRIMAGE TO FARRELL'S TOMB

In the middle of the trip, I broke my intention to go home. After all the wounds on my forehead or forehead, his blood doesn't drip anymore. I'd better tell you later about what happened today to Mom and Dad. I went straight to his late mother Farrell's house. I knocked on the door and greeted the middle-aged woman, Mama Farrell, finally opened the door for me.

Mama Farrell seemed happy mixed with sadness and immediately cried hugging me.

" Rissa, how are you, baby. Auntie really misses you dear. Come in, dear yuk. "

I also got carried away, I also shed tears in this haru meeting.

" Alhamdulillah Rissa is fine Aunt, and Aunty herself reportedly ??? "

" Alhamdulillah Aunt is still given healthy until now. But yes so after Aunt divorced, her brother Farrell was not immediately married and now follows her husband in Jakarta. So Aunt is alone. "

" Why isn't Rissa getting aunty ??? "

" Farrell's brother's wedding was done simply as of legal origin. So many people don't know. "

" Oh so Auntie. "

" Then you went to college in Surabaya, how did you love ?? "

" Thank God both Auntie, and Rissa always got the best grades on the Aunty campus. Once again Rissa wanted to say a huge thank you to Auntie. Aunty is very meritorious in the life of Rissa. Because thanks to Auntie, Rissa could be like this. "

" Not to overdo it like that, Auntie just did what Auntie had to do. Moreover this is the last request from the late Farrell to ensure your future Rissa. So you don't feel like that, baby. Then tell me what brings you here, baby ???? "

" Aunty, actually Rissa is here to..... " I had to stop my words.

" What do you want, baby, just tell Auntie. Auntie won't be mad, honey. "

" Rissa's actually here to tell Auntie about.... "

" Yes about what, dear ??? Just say the same Aunt, it's okay. "

" About Rissa's engagement, "I answered while bowing my head.

" Oh my goodness, do you want a fiancee ?? With which person, dear ???? "

" With Surabaya Aunty, his name is Arsel. "

" Happy baby, hopefully always given smooth until the day H yes. Auntie is so happy, too, because you can get Farrell's replacement. "

" Aunty isn't angry, is she ??? "

" Why Aunty is angry, instead Aunt is happy because Rissa can get a new life companion. Don't think anything, Aunt will always support Rissa at any time. Congratulations again, may Rissa always be given happiness. "

" Yes Aunt, Amin. "

" Rissa is now becoming more mature and more beautiful. Arsel must be handsome and love you very much, baby. "

" Yes Aunt Arsel is as handsome, kind and loving Rissa as Farrell was, I shed tears reminiscing all about Farrell.

" Dear, Farrell is your past. And Arsel is your future. Aunty just asked Rissa not to forget the pilgrimage to Farrell's grave, baby. "

" Yes Aunty, Rissa already has the intention of Pilgrimage to Farrell's Tomb after returning from here. Rissa misses Farrell, surely Farrell is happy, didn't Aunt see Rissa getting engaged soon ??? "

" Dear, Farrell must be happy to see you happy. "

" Well, be careful, baby, and never forget Auntie, baby, "Said Mama Farrell.

" Yes Auntie, don't be sad. Although Rissa will be engaged to someone else, Rissa will never forget the memories with Farrell Aunt. Yes, Auntie, Rissa said back home first. "

" Yes dear. "

I went straight to Farrell's grave, not knowing why this leg felt so shaky and heavy. The first thing I did when I arrived was hold Farrell's tombstone while shedding tears reminiscing all of our wonderful memories. I forgot to put a white rose beside her.

And this piece of song really represents how I feel right now,

Under the tombstone now

You've been leaning

Your love is so deep

I really can't

It happened because I love so much

This is the last time I saw you

Falling tears I cry bitterly

Only able to say

Goodbye to you.

Although currently Brother Arsel is my future fiancee, but Farrell has his own place in my heart. He was the only man who truly understood my feelings, my heart and my life.

I rested and kept hold of Farrell's tombstone, and I was completely dissolved in such a deep sadness. The best man who ever filled my life is now calm in heaven.

" Farrell, I'm coming. You must be calm in heaven right now.. I'm sorry I just got here now. Rell, I'm here to tell you that I'm getting engaged soon. Brother Arsel's name, you are also happy right to see me happy ???? "

Suddenly I remembered the memories of my past with him, he always took me for a walk. Especially the romantic moment when she sings a special love song for me. And what touched my heart the most was that, as he embraced me without shame when he knew I was a scavenger and looked for trash in front of his own eyes. At that time we both cried together, hugging each other tightly.

" Farrell, I promise that even though I will belong to someone else, you still have the most beautiful place in my heart. And I'm sure you must be happy to see me engaged to Arsel, right ??? You know, Arsel's sister is just like you. He can sing like you, too, romantically when singing love songs. "

I took a breath and felt heavy in this chest as I was about to continue my words again.

" Rell, even though you're not here right now, I feel like we're always close and that's what makes me stronger. You are the most beautiful memory of my past. So many sweet memories you left me. "

After that I immediately taught Farrell, at least at this time only prayers and chants of sacred verses that he needed. I solemnly recited prayers for him so that he might be calmer in nature.

When I finished, I immediately told him. At least I'm satisfied today to have fulfilled my promise of pilgrimage to Farrel's grave. I'm feeling calm now.

" Farrell, I'm saying yes. My path is still long, and I hope I can get my happiness someday. "

I rubbed Farrell's headstone and kissed it as a sign until whenever he had his own place in my heart.