Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 26 KNITTING ASA IN WHITE ASH

Today was my first time wearing a grey uniform. I am so excited about going to school today. I deliberately set off on my own without waiting for Farrel's invitation.

" Oh, "I fell because someone hit me.

" I'm sorry, you're okay. I didn't intentionally because I was in a hurry. "

Someone bumped into me when he saw how he looked, like he was my upperclassman.

" It's okay. "

" You're a new student. "

" Yes I'm in 1st grade, big brother must be in 2nd grade right ??? "

" I'm in 2nd grade. "

" My name is Steffan, what's your name ??? "

" Rissa Steffan's. "

" What's your 1st class ?? "

" 1 B brother "

" That means yesterday fit MOS who lined up Morgan huh ?? "

" Yes, you know me ?? "

" yes. "

" Yes, sister, I want to go to class first. "

" Yes Rissa. "

Suddenly Farrel was emotional because I didn't want to go to school with him today.

" Riss, how hell do you leave me. I waited for you for a minute to know. "

" Well what the hell came-come nagging just you Rell. "

" Yes, you should have said dong if you wanted to go first, Riss. "

" Yes sorry. "

" In the phone at-sms there is no reply, do not like gini dong. Just tell me you don't want to go with me, "After venting his emotions, Farrel gets angry and just leaves.

" Farrel, "I tried to call him and apologize but he just left.

Farrell seemed to be chatting with someone, a girl who was also at our school, but I did not know her, perhaps her acquaintance or ex.

I went back to class too. As the bell entered, Farrel entered the classroom with a cheerful face.

" Rell, you're still mad about me ??? "

" Why angry, you also have the right to it. We have nothing to do either. "

" Rell, what the hell is wrong with you. It's cold with me. "

" It's okay. "

" Who were you talking to, Rell ?? "

" O that girl, you want to know ?? "

" Yes Rell. "

" He's Carla, my first ex-lover, I haven't seen him in a long time. And finally meet again here. "

" First Love In Junior High ?? "

" No, in SD. "

" Oh, means different SMP yes. "

" yes. "

Ever since Farrel changed, he's kind of kept his distance from me. I know I was wrong but why Farrel was so angry was the same. He never picked me up and drove me home again, never again called or texted me.

In class, he only talks to me if necessary. Until one day...

" Farrel" My screams in my heart !!!! "

I saw her with that girl again, Carla was her first ex-lover. Farrell drove him home. I didn't actually sincerely see Farrell with another girl, but I realized who I was. I have nothing to do but a friend.

" Farrell, "I tried to rebuke him.

" Yes what's up. "

" You want to go home ?? "

" Yes, I'm taking Carla home. "

" Yes, be careful. "

Without answering, Farrell just left without seeing me.

" You changed Rell, you're not like Farrel I know, "I'm so sad today, I went home to the boarding house with a giant step.

I counted the money in my savings, it turned out that my savings were still enough. But I need to work again for my daily needs.

It's been almost a week since I was in Laundry because I wanted to focus on my MOS activities. I finally got back to work because I was bored at my own boarding house. I took a part-time job. I worked after school until night. That is my daily routine.

I also have to realize my goals to be able to go to college. Studied in Psychology to become a Psychologist.

In class, I enjoyed my days in solitude. I take time off by continuing to study. But that day, whether on purpose or not, Farrel took Carla, his former first love, to our class. Because I was afraid to disturb them so I decided to study at the library. There I met Steffan's brother, it turns out he's a nerd just like me.

" Hey you're Rissa, right ?? "

" Yes, brother Steffan. "

" Like to the library as well. "

" Just this time, brother. "

" I like to come here, especially if I have a lot of tasks I would like to do here. "

" Sister doesn't play or hang out like other kids. "

" No Riss, I have demands that I must keep. "

" What demands brother. "

" I have to defend my 1st champion. "

" Why brother. "

" I want to study at one of the best campuses in Jakarta, because my brother also studied there. "

" Well great brother huh. "

" Our family is a graduate there. "

" I also want to go to college, but because of the state of the economy I only expect from scholarships. "

" Never be discouraged by Riss, there are still many paths to our ideals. "

" Yes, I will continue to study. "

" One message for you, if you meet people who try to break your spirit such as mocking you by saying "Book Ner " never back off just think of them as sharp pebbles that we should ignore. "

" Thank you for the advice, Mr. Steffan. "

" Together Rissa. "

" Yes Brother. "

" Yes, let's go back to class because the bell is coming in soon. "

" Come Brother. "

We also walked together to each other's classes but it's strange why Steffan's sister even followed me.

" Sister Steffan is not a big sister class there, why is it that you are heading towards my class ??? "

" It's okay I just want to make sure you get to class safely. "

"Sir steffan there is - indeed I want a war so it must be ensured safely, "I smile amusedly with the behavior of Mr. Steffan.

" I don't want to know your class. "

" Oh that Brother. "

" yes. "

Arriving in front of the class I showed my seat where and my daily life to follow the lesson.

Because the bell rang we had to end our conversation, and Steffan's brother went back to his class.

Without me noticing Farrell saw us from the classroom window. When I entered the classroom and returned to sit on the bench Farrel instead accused me who was not.

" What relationship are you with that guy. "

" who. "

" The guy you just met. "

" That means Steffan ???? "

" Yes, how do I know his name. "

" I just met him on the first day of school. "

" Oh. "

" why. "

" Well, you can get more from me. "

" What the hell did you just say. "

" Yes you are indeed the intention of not wanting to win again the same me because you want to look for more than me. You changed Riss, because now you feel a lot like you !!!!! "

" I'm increasingly unaware of your words Rell, at first you are angry not clear just because I went first to school without waiting for you to pick up. You are angry with me !! "

" Yes, you shouldn't be like that. "

" I'm also quiet when you're close to Carla, I have to do with Rell. "

Farrel was silent and would not continue our conversation.. I don't know if our relationship will improve as before..