Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 12 LET LOVE FLOW AS IT IS

It may be true that love will not be forever sweet and beautiful, we will pass through the twists and turns of love. Now I have to go through that love with sharp pebbles.

My real father's threat was not playful, even he also came to the house to scold my mother and said not to be good at taking care of children. So angry he threw me with the money I should have for my school fees. He would also threaten to stop financing me if I kept in touch with Rayhan at school.

My mother also scolded me because I was dating at school. Is it wrong that I love Rayhan ??? As long as I dated her I always had an improvement in my school grades, I was getting more studious and even got a champion in the class.

I also SMS Rayhan and ask to meet in the library to avoid the crowd. Not long after that we met.

" Rayhan, there's something I want to talk to you about important here. "

" Yes, but why should I be here ? "

" Because I don't want anyone to see us. "

" Yes but why Riss. "

" My parents were so mad at me, Ray, they found out about our relationship. "

" How can Riss. "

" It may be true that here someone was spying on us, Dad came home yesterday and scolded my mom, he threatened to lay off my school fees if I still kept going out with you Ray. "

" How does Riss go. "

" I'm also confused and don't know what to do with Ray. "

" Do you want you to stop here enough to just Riss our relationship ??? "

" .......... " I'm silent. I was confused as to what to say. Honestly, it's hard for me to end my relationship with Rayhan, he's a good guy and really protects me. He is different from the other guys. If I break up with her, I'll lose her forever. Finally I spilled tears, I cried beside Rayhan. I'm really scared of losing Rayhan. I love him, I love him. She was my first love, there's no way I could just take it off.

" Rissa, please don't cry like this, later the friends here will see you cry. "

" ray... " I still shed my tears.

" Rissa, I love you, "Rayhan seemed to wipe my tears with the handkerchief I gave him first. It turns out that the handkerchief was always taken by Rayhan everywhere.

" Keep what about our relationship Ray, "I'm still sobbing.

" If you are not ready to part, Let Our Love Flow What Is Riss... "

" You mean our love hangs ??? "

" Yes, but still we still have a relationship and we keep trying to fight for our relationship. But there's one condition. "

" Terms ???? "

" Yes Terms. "

" What condition is Ray ??? "

" The condition is, because this relationship is secretly and only we both know so that other people have no relationship what we have and our eyes are also the year we have broken up. "

" When do we meet ?? "

" Here, in the library or we can connect via cell phone right. "

" God willing I try to avoid and keep your feelings. "

" Promise. "

" Yes promise. "

Today is our final exam in 2nd grade, I am always diligent in studying and proving that I can continue to excel. At least I can still stay top 3 in class. I want to prove to everyone that I'm a proud kid.

Despite being so honest deep down in my heart that my feelings were empty, I actually lost Rayhan. Even though we are in a clandestine relationship but still not the same as before. I can't express my feelings and everyone thinks my relationship with Rayhan is over.

Every time I cross paths with Rayhan I can't talk to him, I can't hold his hand, I can't joke with him. All I could do with him was smile, that's all.

Next month to coincide with the class's rise is my birthday. I can't imagine passing it without Rayhan. We'll never be able to meet, because I'm afraid someone's seeing our closeness again. I will pray on my birthday that my relationship with Rayhan can be maintained and improved as before.

The day I spent lonely, sometimes I cried in my solitude in the middle of the night. Even when I complain to Allah, my face and prayer mats are wet with tears in my eyes. Only God understands how I feel now, My parents don't want to know what I'm feeling right now. They were never young, I thought.

The distribution of the report began this morning, how surprised I got the 1st champion. I never thought I would be first champion. I was crying because I was so scared. I texted Rayhan and said I was 1st, and he said congratulations to me.

Tomorrow is my birthday and this 1st champion is the most beautiful gift for me. After school I stopped by my Dad's house, I showed him my report let him believe it. And he gave me money that he said was my birthday present tomorrow. He told me to buy something. While the money I saved first so that later can buy a new phone that is better that has camera features.

The next day was the day of the report's return, so finished returning the report I would go straight home like the rest of the friends.

Suddenly my phone reads, Turns out Rayhan sent me a message and said he wanted to meet me and we met at the end of the road beside the school. Looks like he gave me a pink gift. But he forbade me to open it now, later at home.

" Riss.. "

" Yes Rayhan .... "

" Happy birthday, baby, may long life, healthy always and desired at this time may soon become a reality. "

" Goodness, I will also pray for our relationship Rayhan. "

" Riss, for now we are living this kind of relationship, without certainty "

" Yes, but we still have Rayhan's relationship "

" Yes Riss, but still until when we like this continues. "

" But you promised me to continue to maintain this relationship even though we were in secret. "

" There are consequences, Riss. "

" What are the consequences of Ray. "

" I'm afraid the impact on you Riss, secretly it turns out that there are still people who know our relationship and we are caught again riss. I'm afraid that your father's threat is becoming a reality for Riss, I don't want you to quit Riss' school. "

" But I'm not ready to lose you Rayhan, "My eyes are also teary withstanding this deep pain.

" Our future is still long, you are smart and you must remain high school. "

" Yes Rayhan. "