Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 87 DEPRESSION

" Patience to Rissa, now Farrell is calm there. She no longer felt any pain now, "Said Mama Farrell.

" But, but Farrell just opened his Aunt's eyes, he heard Rissa say Rissa's love feelings and Farrell was trying to hold Rissa's hand. But suddenly Farrell closed his eyes again. Is it possible Farrell fainted or fell asleep Auntie. "

" Dear, Farrell is gone. You have to let him know now. Don't be like this, baby. "

" But Farrell was conscious of Auntie, and she saw Rissa. He even heard when Rissa said love to him Auntie. "

" Dear, you can't believe it. Let's just say, baby, now we wait for Farrell's body to be taken care of for us to take home. "

" Aunt's body ??? Whose body ??? "

" Rissa, honey you why the hell ???. Didn't you teach Auntie to take Farrell away for good ??? "

" No Aunt, no. Farrell has not died Aunt, Farrell was aware of Aunt. Surely the nurse was wrong, try the doctor who tortured once again Aunt. "

" Dear, the doctor had also examined Farrell and indeed Farrell was declared dead dear. You can't be like this, you have to be sincere. You promised to be next to Farrell when he was alive. Why are you even becoming like this now ??? "

" Because Farrell really opened his eyes and he knew that Rissa loved him too. He also almost touched Rissa and wanted to say something. So there's no way she died Auntie. "

I cried hysterically until I was unconscious until finally one of the Doctors said I was experiencing symptoms of "Depression ". I don't know why I was depressed, because from the beginning I tried to make Farrell go. But at the last moment will die and realize from the coma it is like the biggest blow that makes me unable to control myself. My soul had a pretty deep shock.

Well, a little learning about the science of Psychology about Depression. Depression is a type of illness that involves the physical, mood and mind. Depression can interfere with daily life, normal activities and result in pain for the sufferer and the people around him who care about him.

A person can experience depression if they have experienced the loss of a loved one, a troubled relationship, or a situation that can be stressful, can trigger depression. That's what I'm going through now.

But seeing my condition which only experienced mild depression, then I was allowed to go home with Farrell's body. But my condition must continue to be monitored and if there is no improvement, then I am advised to seek treatment to a psychologist.

And this is my toughest slap right now, I'm losing both my best friend and the one I love so much right now. I haven't had time to enjoy the good times of dating, she's been gone for ever.

Along the way I cried and was occasionally pensive to remember the events that truly sliced my heart and life. Now my life is ruined. I no longer know how to move my life forward. For now I'm not ready for anything. I was still filled with deep sadness that enveloped me.

By the time we all arrived at the funeral home, I had no idea what to do or how. I also had no thoughts of contacting my family. I could only sit pensively looking at what was currently happening before my eyes.

Farrell's family and relatives and relatives seemed very busy with the process of Farrell's body. From being bathed, pardoned to being prayed, I was still sitting in the corner of Farrell's house. I'm still trying to digest what happened.

Without me knowing, many people are watching me. And it made his brother Farrell lead me and change clothes and give me a veil. I could only obey and after that I returned pensive.

" Farrell, why would you leave me ???. Didn't you realize at dawn that I love you so much ???. You broke my heart in just a moment Farrell, "I cried and sliced the hearts of anyone who saw me.

" Patience baby, you can't be like this. You have to let Farrell go so he can calm down there, " said his mother Farrell in tears.

" Rissa isn't a strong aunt, Rissa can't live without Farrell Aunty. Farrell don't stay here alone. "

" Rissa's not alone, there's still aunty here. Come on, kid, control yourself. "

" Aunty doesn't know what Rissa feels, Rissa from childhood always feels what's called separation. Is it really the fate of Rissa that will be abandoned by the people who Rissa loves and loves Auntie ??? "

" No dear, believe me there will come a time when you get your happiness someday. Be patient, dear, if you can pass this test, you will find your happiness. "

" Rissa's alone now Auntie, Farrell's gone Aunt. "

" No dear, Auntie has said many times that you are not alone. There is still an aunt here who will accompany you. So don't be sad again, baby, " said Mama Farrell comforting me.

I almost felt a little calm when Father Farrell came and accused me of being a no-no. He accused me of being a murderer, a murderer and a murderer !!!!!.

I am now more and more cornered by the words that come out of the mouth of Farrell's father.

" This is the killer, because my son found you, my son was in an accident and now he is dead !!!!!! "

" Sa-sa-I am not a murderer, I am not a murderer, "I answered stammeringly.

I was shocked to hear those words. But Farrell's mother stood up for me.

" Have Care of Your Mouth Mas, you spied him as a murderer, then what are you ????. Where did you mas for a few days Farrell was hospitalized !!!! Where is your responsibility as the head of the family ??? Even run away with other women !!!. You should be ashamed of your behavior, not even looking for trouble and blaming others, "Mama Farrell tried to defend me.

Farrell's father just kept quiet and immediately kissed Farrell's body. I could only cry and cry. Honest because of the words of his father Farrell who described me as a murderer is now increasingly cornering me of a deepening guilt.

Had we not met that day, this accident might not have happened. And the current Farrell may still be alive in our midst.

It was such an event that I almost lost my mind and went into depression.